For some reason
Every time I take a trip down memory lane,
You stand out
It's not like I knew you for a long time,
And I talked to you for less.
Maybe it's because I feel guilty
For the way I let things turn out,
Or the fact that I took you for granted.
Maybe all I want to say is
I'm sorry
And I hope you know that.
Who knows,
Maybe someday down the road
We'll meet again in a new country
In a random coffee shop
And we can start over.

I hope you're smart
and that when you find a nice girl
you treat her with respect
and loyalty
and give her nothing but love
but I hope you make mistakes
and that when you find a nice girl
you forget to call when you said you would
and ditch her for a party
and give her something to get mad about
because
I hope you end up a better man

As I sit at my desk
staring at my screen
for the next eight hours
I can't help but let my mind
wander off into places
only my memories can touch;
places that shot
a permanent feeling of
wonder and enchantment
through my soul.
I can feel an itch of
adrenaline and desire
creeping down to my feet
until I can no longer stay still.

I should be somewhere else right now.

I.
You were my secret.
You were the depiction of my
innocence and curiosity
My first taste of growing up
and growing complicated.
You deserved more than what
I had to offer.

II.
You were my addiction.
Even thought you weren't good for me
I kept on coming back.
I fell into your little hypnosis
just like all the others
And sometimes I wonder if
I even meant as much to you
as you did to me.

III.
You were comfortable.
With you, everything was normal and
safe and okay.
But sometimes too much stagnancy
causes people to drift apart
And we never tried to salvage
what was left.

IV.
You were my knight in shining armour.
But I couldn't be your princess.
You loved me too hard, for too long
And I wish I could've given it back.
You left me roses everyday,
And I left them out to die.

V.
You are everything.
You are my secret that I want to keep to myself
to feel the rush and rebellion
of growing up, everyday.
You are my addiction.
I can never get enough of you,
through both the good and bad.
You are comfortable.
I feel safe and at ease
just being by your side.
There's nowhere I wouldn't go
and nothing I would't do with you.
You are my knight in shining armour.
And I am your princess.
You saved me from the dragon
of loneliness and despair.
And won my heart in the battle.
You are so much more.
You are.
And I wouldn't change a thing.