I've learned that happiness cannot be found in the form of a little purple capsule. I've learned that Pisa will have to wait until next time. I've learned that the third mushroom held in my sweaty palm was not as big a deal compared to the other two opening my mind. I've learned that a part of me died that night where we ****** in a room with no furniture. I've learned that life is work and that the molotov cocktail of Dubrah and eay mac that came spewing from me left an orange tang upon the floor. I've learned that pain is better than numbness and that jabbing a sewing needle repeatedly in my arm was an educated decision. Most importantly I've learned that together we are better than alone.
I fall in love when I am lonely 4. I won't be able to look in the mirror and be happy 5. I can not fall in love after ***. 6. My need for affection is insatiable. 7. I somehow convinced myself I will be the Anastasia to one of these Mr.Greys 8. I feel that two is the loneliest number 9. As long as you touch me I will love you 10. I wont be able to look in the mirror and be happy 11. I know I said that twice 1. I do not know how to love people properly. 2. This includes myself.
People always ask me why I never attend school I want to tell them "I'm too emotionally vacant to care" "I know I'm not destined for great things" I'd announce "I'll be dead before I'm 20, I have no kids to look forward to and no desire to marry" So why should I spend 13 years of my life cooped up Learning the value of x when I cant even find value in waking up in the morning.