I wish to be better this Christmas,
to own what I do and say
the decision was mine
this late December night
to lay where I want to lay

in his arms would be preferable,
to stay with him i bet
but the bed I have made is in the ground
where my sins and I have met

right now I must face the truth
and let the mud flow on me
I want to be renewed
but somethings are just meant to be

to hurt or to hide
a question for the ages
I wonder what's meant for me
beyond the pearly gates and cages

so here we are my love, I now must depart,
see you on the other side
you will always have my heart

what's done has been forgiven
your secrets that I hold are  mine
I swear not to tell a soul
of that late late night

My dear, my dear i must intrude
To my eyes, your eyes seem much too glued
Does he know the way you stare my way?
With the eye of a lover who did not stay

I wanted to be the one you called,
but when i came, you lost and balled
I don't blame you, of course not my love
I blame the fates, heavens and all of the above

The ones that led me to you, and you to me
The ones that made me filled with rage and jealousy
Of the lover you should have left for me
Oh why must the fates and i have to disagree

I know that it will never be the same
I thought your heart could be the one that i tame
But as i stand next to you and you next to me
I see that you want what is simple, what is free

But love does not work for those who do not wait,
The ones who are filled with regret and hate
On decisions they wish they could have made
But here we are my lover, my love this is fate.

To whom this may concern
I want to be free
With the ability to be young, to be wild, to be me
I want to make the same mistakes,
The ones I regret, the ones I still hate
I want to let them define me
Then redefine the lock and key

I want to be who they say I am not
Too busy, too nice, too tame, too hot
To fly where we use to lay
Under the shelter and ask you to stay
Stay with me for another moment
Before you have to go, before the atonement
The cleansing of you and me
Just stay,
Stay where you're meant to be

My love, why aren't we allowed to be?
Allowed to fly high and see the sea
I want you, do you really want me ?
I wanna be us, just us and free

To whom this may concern
You have my heart.
To whom this may concern
Don't leave, please stay, please stay from afar