Dad it's been three days since I found you,
They said you had died in your sleep.
Now I find myself drunk on *****,
At 5 am unable to get any peace.

I've handled it the way you'd think I would,
But I don't know how I'll fair,
When we see your open casket,
And all of the family there.

I just want to stay so drunk,
I don't have to see you lying there.
Even if my veins are filled with morphine,
I'm afraid it'll be more than I can bare.

I see it in her eyes,
Soft memories with a bitter taste.
She knows I'll never heal,
Or perchance never love again.

She watches as time flies,
And sees the sorrow on my face.
As I remember what she looks like,
In satin and lace.

But to me it never happened,
We never were one.
I bound myself to you,
As you bind yourself to none.

Oh the marks you left on me,
Felt deeper than they appear.
And I can feel the bleeding,
From deep within my tears.

Don't go,
God knows I can't live all alone.
Please stay,
Even if the distance still grows.

Nearly a hundred miles,
And I'm fine with the drive.
Saving up money for gas,
Working nine to five.

Don't go,
I don't care if I only hear your voice on the phone.
Please stay,
The only thing that matters is I can call you my own.

Promise me you won't leave,
Even when you have to go away.
So long as I still hear "I love you,"
I'll know you plan to stay.

Sometimes the meds aren't enough,
When I’m trying to fall asleep at night.
And I keep seeing the same thing pass behind my eyes,
Memories and dreams of years past by.

I feel my eyelids start to close,
Before they come round again.
My chest feels heavy,
My head feels light.

A concert, four peach colored walls,
A red flower and a silent pose.
Two cups, both half drunk,
An uncourageous half dead rose.

**** I can’t sleep tonight,
But the meds are kicking quick.
If I close my eyes,
Will it be worth the risk?

Holy Father forgive me,
For I am soon to sin.
I close my eyes,
And let the darkness in.

My demons speak in whispers,
They hunger for so much blood.
They chatter along softly,
Whispering words I never understood.

They sit upon my shoulders,
Now there's no angel there.
They speak in dark parables,
And whisper darkness in my ear.

I found his bedroom door shut,
And quickly made my way in,
My demons led the way out,
Mere moments after my most mortal sin.

His blood feeds my demons,
And covers me from head to toe.
I feel the darkness closing in on me,
Closing in so slow.

Holy Father forgive my sins,
And cleanse this darkened soul,
For I may never enter the gates of Heaven,
With these blood soaked clothes.

I'm willing to bet that,
If you leave me alone,
I'll put a needle in my arm,
And a bullet driven home.

I'm willing to bet that,
You've never seen danger,
Quite as seductive
As I can be.

Throw me my cotton,
Give me my spoon,
I swear my lips will be blue,
All too soon.

I just need my rig,
My belt and maybe just,
A little ****** tonight,
To end it all,
And start a new life.

Give me everything I've ever known,
Let me have it all.
Give me Hell, I need it.
I swear I'll take the throne.

Don't offer Heaven,
I swear I've already found it,
In blue eyes and full lips,
The girl you took away from me.

Give me Hell,
I swear I deserve it,
I'll take it all alone.

There’s a stranger in my head,
There’s nothing left of me.
He’s clawing his way in,
And I’m holding out desperately.

Left in a jacket,
My arms tied behind my back.
Nothing all around me,
I’m missing this sense I lack.

He’s watching from the bars,
A wicked grin on his face.
There’s nothing left of me,
Nothing for you to trace.

This asylum is beautiful,
Horrid in design.
But when I find my room,
There’ll be no more me to find.

My blood splattered,
Across three hopeless walls.
I’m walking forever,
Stuck within these halls.

He’s taken over everything,
And found a door to my mind.
There’s nothing left for me,
Than to shiver and to hide.

Nothingness makes hiding,
Such a wonderful chore.
He’s in my mind,
He’s found my hidden door.

Sitting in the dungeon,
Of this deep dark recess.
I’m searching for a way,
To start over fresh.

If I could only wipe it clean,
And wash away this slate.
Then I could expel him,
And leave myself to fate.

Wiping away nothingness,
Is harder than it seems,
For how can I clean,
That which cannot be seen.

So take my heart,
And hold it safe.
I’m burrowing in,
And giving all that it will take.

Just promise you’ll be there,
When He’s gone from my mind.
It’ll take more than me,
To save what I can find.

This man in my dreams,
And the man in my mind,
Move so much quicker,
Than I can hope to hide.

So I give it all,
And you have my heart.
But it won’t be long,
Before I depart.

You asked me once to write you a story,
I tried, and I failed.
You asked me once to write you a song,
But I couldn't remember the good through the wrong.

I see shadows all around us,
Darkness personified.
So I sat to write you a poem,
And I can say I truly tried.

The darkness closes around me,
I cannot see the light.
I close my eyes to pray,
That all will be alright.

Sadly I see the darkness,
In your eyes.
And I hope it never comes,
When we are forced to goodbyes.

With everyday I **** myself,
Thinking of you.
I've found love in the sunset,
And yet it's not the one I need.

I'd follow my heart if it didn't hurt me before,
I just want to know what your kiss tastes like.
But bleeding red is the only way,
To make me feel like I'm home.

When did you decide that you found love,
Lost under the sun,
When did I become just another,
“Oh he's just a friend.”

With every breath I take,
I'm becoming the heartless,
Building this cage,
******* hating every step.

And I just want to let you know,
That one day everything will be okay.
When I'm shaking hands with the devil,
And he makes me relive every memory of you.

What ever happened,
To the games we used to play?
Hide my heart,
It's beating for you anyway.

Ashes to ashes,
Dust to dust.
Can you fix my soul,
So covered in rust?

We used to talk for hours,
I'd dream of what we'd be.
But now it seems it's always,
Just my endless soliloquy.

It's over,
Your love is gone.
And I cannot remember,
What we did wrong.

Like waves on open shores,
You beat against me.
And I promised you the sort of thing,
That I knew could never be.

I promised you the world,
And you took mine.
Now I know that I will never,
Have you in time.

Dearest Penelope,

I write this with shaky hand,
Making sure that every line is perfect,
With dotted i's and crossed t's,
Hoping it will make you,
Think much higher of me.

But Darling, my most beautiful atrocity,
Dearest Penelope,
You know you bring me nothing,
But heart aches and misery.

But if that is what I need,
To feel attached to you.
Then heart break it is,
'Til I find my way through,
To you.

Dearest Penelope,
I'll love you,
Forever if it'll be,
Dearest Penelope I love you,
Signed Sincerely, me.

I slipped myself something sweet,
Just to get me through the night,
A drink in one hand,
My mind cloudy and light.

You were so beautiful,
Half drunk and that's just fine,
His hand and yours entwined,
I slipped myself something sweet just in time.

What a rush you've become,
Your smile, my demise.
There's not a lie I could tell,
When I look you in the eyes.

He fell asleep on your breast,
As we talked through the night.
I always knew there was nothing,
I can do to make this right.

But we said our goodbyes,
As the snow came pounding down.
I slipped myself something sweet,
Just as I reached the end of town.

Does anyone know where home is,
When you don't know where your heart went?
I've ghosts inside these thin walls,
And I hear screams each time I look inside.

Has anyone seen the key to my house,
Or did they take it away
And place it on the pyrr
When they turned you to ashes?

Has anyone seen my home,
I'm so lost I don't know,
Where it is anymore.

Has anyone seen my home?
The one with the white door,
And large glass windows,
That allowes light into my life.

Have you seen me these past few months,
They say I look better.
If only they knew,
The truth of the matter.

The only words I hear,
Before I drift off to sleep,
In your whispered voice,
I love you.

The only comfort I feel,
As I rise with the sun,
The feeling of your arms,
Around me.

The only thing I taste,
Before I leave the house,
Smothers my tongue,
With your kiss.

The only memories I have,
Are filled with good old times.
Now I'm lost in this thing called life,
With you not by my side.

It has been ten dreamlike days,
And nine sleepless nights,
Since I found my father,
So still, his eyes void of light.

Even when my head is foggy,
Whether it be ***** or dope this time,
I find I cannot sleep,
I see you lying there behind my eyes.

Dad I just want to die,
It hurts so ******* much,
And no one understands,
Even the most potent narcotics cannot heal me.

They all expect me to be fine,
But it's been so long since I knew what that word meant.
Now with you gone I'm afraid,
Mom might have to bury me next.

I just want to close my eyes and go to sleep,
Like you did that night all alone.
I wish I'd found you sooner,
I wish I had ******* known.

I know I can't go any time soon,
I promised I'd take care of Elijah.
He's so young he doesn't understand,
Lucky him, he's not the one forced to be a man.

Can't you just come back,
And hug me one last time,
Dad I know I promised,
But there's no way Ill be ******* fine.

She said,
“Honey let me tell you what you mean to me.”
My reply whispered so softly,
“I could never mean the same you do.”

“You're so close to me I can barely breathe,
And I'm loving ever second of it.
But I think you want more,
Than a girl like me can handle.”

I left the room so I could pray,
She turned and left from the other way.
Nothing could have prepared me for this,
I never should have told her...

You'll never be a star to me,
You'll forever be the whole sky.
I'll hold out forever,
Til the sun explodes and I lose my thoughts.

Tell me,
What's it like to know you're loved?
What's it like to know...
What's it like to know...

You mean something, to somebody out there somewhere?
To know you'll never be alone.
I could follow your footsteps,
And still feel colder than stone.

So tell me darling What's it like to know,
You're loved,
You're loved,
You're loved and you'll never be alone?

Come on darling tell me,
I'll never be alone.

I miss you,
Every night and day.
I miss you so much,
I don't know what to say.

I know you need to be there,
For you and for us.
But sometimes I grow weak,
And my mind begins to rust.

Oxidation occurs,
And spreads through my veins.
My heart beats wildly,
When the winds begin to change.

I miss you so much,
That if you asked me to,
I'd walk the 87 miles,
It takes to reach you.

It'd take me a week,
Maybe a bit more.
But the cramps in my legs,
Would be worth arriving at your door.

It's been 24 hours,
Since I saw you last.
And God, girl,
I'm sick of living in the past.

Patience has always,
Been one of my virtues.
But I can honestly say,
My virtues are stretched thin these days.

I remember sitting in my room,
My computer screen the only light.
I smiled as I read a joke across the screen,
And didn't really quite know how to respond.

I remember my locker,
So unkempt in seventh grade.
I remember my notebooks,
Filled with notes from class.

I remember how I hated drugs,
And smoking,
And every other bad thing,
That came from the memory of you.

I remember how innocent I was,
And how you laughed at me.

I remember how I never grew sad,
Just because a person so perfect could exist.

And I remember the light in my heart,
The drive I had inside.
And How I always had a smile,
I never had to hide.

I lost my mind,
You broke my heart,
And took my soul
I could return to paradise.

I float,
Somewhere between hell,
And purgatory.
A soul afire, I float.

I sat among the stars one day,
Hoping my problems would just,
Fade away.

The sun was warm upon my face,
Reminding me of memories,
I can't erase.

And the moon was comforting,
while she held me tight.
She whispered in my ear,
Do not give up your plight.

And so I sat among the stars all day,
Hoping that I might not,
Simply fade away.

Her voice was breathless as she said,
I don't know what you want of me.
And I held her in the moonlight,
As I whispered, please just let us be.

I know that I can live without you,
But without you I'd be a wreck,
If I had to live without you baby,
I'd be miserable at best.

I know my lungs would stop the air I breathe,
And my heart would lose its lust for blood,
My mind would be filled with torrid thoughts,
I'd most certainly be quickly lost.

Please don't go,
Promise you'll stay,
Because I won't live without you,
For much longer than a day.

I don't want to go back to old habits,
Or bring new ones to bear,
I just want to love you,
And have you always be here.

I don't know what hurt me,
So badly that I cannot open up.
I don't know the exact moment,
When I felt life was just too much.

I couldn't tell you whatever happened,
That made me feel dead inside.
But I can tell you a needle and pills,
Makes my mask slip away and hide.

I don't know when it became so important,
For me to lose my sobriety,
And God, I couldn't begin,
To explain why I hid from society.

I'm so done with living in this world,
But the drugs just won't let me die.
I need some serious help,
But I don't know how to ask for it tonight.

I know the ****** or morphine or whatever the ****,
I put into my veins each day,
Keeps me feeling normal,
And keeps me slightly sane.

I know I'll never hear the voice of my father,
Or be able to show my mother the love she deserves.
I know my younger brother,
Will one day wonder what killed me so many years before.

I'd like to say I'm sorry,
To the girl I love with all my soul.
I'm oh so sorry baby,
But I shall never, ever become whole.

You'd be better off without me,
Just like my parents had I never been born.
Perhaps my father may still be living,
Perhaps mother may have never needed to mourn.

I'd like to say I'm sorry,
That there is no reason for my living death,
However, long ago I swear,
I thought by twenty one my heartbeat may have left.

So I suppose I'm sorry,
That any of you ever needed to meet me.
And I am so very sorry,
That I lived through the needle that should have let death be.

She was so careful,
With that crimson thread.
As she sewed my soul,
Back into my head.

A scar is one thing
She said so calm.
As she touched my cheek,
With a vanilla palm.

But open wounds,
Are the things that ****.
You'll rarely survive,
Lest you have the will.

And so she sewed,
And I bled slow.
Waiting for my open wound,
To finally close.

You see,
Depression is a funny thing.
The pain and suffering,
That only drowning can bring.

I've watch all my friends succumb,
To a pain I had never dreamed of,
Until I took a moment,
To feel what I had inside.

Then I began to believe,
That nothing hurts more.
It's like you're trapped in a burning building,
With flames covering the door.

And everyone around you,
Is breathing perfectly fine.
While you're drowning in the water,
Trying to push back the tide.

I dreamed last night,
With my eyes wide open.
Dreamed of running along,
With her trailing behind.

As I ran faster,
And the distance between us grew,
I could still feel her fingertips,
Attached to mine like glue.

And even though it was nearly dawn,
When I laid my weary head,
I felt the soft profoundness,
That I feel when we share my bed.

And even though I loved her,
And sometimes I still do.
You know that you're all I love now,
That my only love is you.

I know I dreamed about her,
When my eyes were open tight.
But when my head hit the pillow,
I dreamed of nothing but You all night.

Well the night can't get much darker,
It's an hour before the dawn.
I can't stop thinking about you,
Now that you're so long gone.

A thousand miles between us,
I wish I could just drive.
But you wouldn't have me on your doorstep,
And I don't think I can see you alive.

It's a quarter to the dawn,
My cigarette is gone.
And I can't believe the melodies,
While they play our favorite song.

And I guess this night can't get darker,
When dawn never comes.
I guess I'll have to forget you,
And what you've become.

Oh it's the last day of the year,
The year my family found everything out.
I've kept everything up for so long,
But a needle point drove me down.

I'm sorry mom and I'm sorry Dad,
I'm sorry to my whole family,
I'm sorry that chemical reactions,
Are the only thing that lights my brain.

I'm sorry I like dopamine,
And the rush that dope always brings,
I'm sorry a few pills keep me sane,
But hey, at least I'm still alive.

I'm sorry I'm such a mess,
And I'm sorry you found my needles grandma.
I'm sorry I hate living,
And I'm sorry life is just too slow.

I'm sorry I ever opened my eyes,
The night I dosed just a little too much.
I'm sorry I ever popped my first pill.
And I'm sorry to everyone,
Because I know I will never, ever have my fill.

My friends, they all are gone.
I've laid them to rest.
Shovel and blisters in my hands,
I've nearly conquered this test.

I've shed tears for the fallen,
But I know one day they shall rise.
In his tomb I'll find you,
I shall be your demise.

You pitiful wretch of a man,
The shell of what you once were.
I'd spill your blood for nothing,
For less I've done much more.

Fate would have it,
You live today.
But I'll see you in Hell,
I look forward to the day.

Even though it's been hours,
I still taste you on my lips,
I feel your warmth lingering,
On my finger tips.

Might I say your gasping breath,
And moans of sweet relief,
Felt like clutching fingers,
As your ecstasy was reached.

Now we danced around the subject,
Of where we might go,
Though if I'm being honest,
We both surely know.

And even though you want,
To take it very slow,
I know I quicken your pulse,
As I tug at your clothes.

I don't believe in the saying,
If you love them let them go,
I'm going to sink my teeth in,
To the hollow of your throat.

I cannot live with the darkness,
That permeates everything around me,
When I cannot call you mine,
This time around.

But darling, I'm so afraid of happiness,
I'm terrified that you'll leave,
It seems I know only how to be miserable,
But you've always been what I need.

I could never let you go now,
I could never let you leave,
Now that I've found my taste girl,
You're exactly what I need.

I fear the warm embrace of my bed,
The soft feeling of my pillow beneath my head.
I fear the sleep that takes me at night,
For my dreams are dark and devoid of light.

I wish I hadn't been the one,
To find you wrapped in never-ending sleep.
Now my dreams come to me unbidden,
And I often wake as my eyes begin to weep.

I dreamed you put a bullet in your head,
Just the other night.
**** all if I could say,
Sleep is my greatest fright.

Light is the rain,
Dancing around your flesh,
And it arouses me to think,
You were innocent once.

It's ten of eight,
And my mouth tastes of bad coffee,
And cigarettes.
When it should taste like you.

It's ten of eight,
And my mind is in the darkest dungeon,
Surrounded by demons.
When it should be filled with thoughts of you.

It's ten of eight,
And you're her and she's you,
except that's not how it really is,
And that's not who you really are.

It's ten of eight,
And I've been awake since five.
Knowing you've just closed your eyes,
Wrapped up in his arms.

It's eight o'clock now,
As I finish this piece,
Knowing it's you,
That I can't keep.

I don't know why I,
Even think to try,
And find someone new,
When my heart just,
Keeps coming back to you.

You've become a twisted tree,
Gnarled knots and roots dug so deep,
They've planted you right where you stand.

I picked an apple from your bows,
Climbed so high for what?
To taste something,
Something so sour I wish I never bit.

You said to use your limbs,
To build my broken home.
But I crawled into your trunk,
And settled into your bones.

I made my way down to your roots,
And planted my own seed.
I want to see you try to move,
When my roots entwine with yours.

I made my way up to your highest branch,
And took away the clouds,
Plucked off all of your fruit,
Just to make my way back home.

Now they plan to chop you down,
To build a highway where you stand,
And somehow I'm nowhere to be seen,
When you need a helping hand.

Years have passed,
Since you last held my hand.
I still remember how it felt,
While we stood before our favorite band.

They sang away the night,
With words that told you how I felt.
Your skin so smooth on mine,
While we were engulfed in the crowd.

I have to say that,
Was one concert I wish not to end.
But as we filed out of the doors,
It broke my heart to bring you back to him.

And when the rain came pouring down,
While we ran to the cover of your dorm.
I felt as if the road were no longer rough,
That it had been smoothly worn.

And I thought that maybe,
You meant to be more than just polite,
When you offered me a chance,
To stay and spend the night.

Sadly, I had reasons I could not,
And began my weary drive.
Wishing that I had never left,
Wishing I had just arrived.

I could say I knew what life was,
Before I felt my time slipping away.
But now that you're so far gone,
It seems it's just a memory.

An hour's drive,
And each time,
He answers the door instead of you.

An hour's drive,
And each time,
He says so much more than you.

So why go outside,
Go anywhere at all,
If every time I leave,
I think of you.

And why would I write,
When every time I do,
I write about nothing,
If I do not ******* write about you.

A single flower,
In a harvest moon.
So beautiful,
Yet so Alone.
Surrounded by many,
Yet so fine.
If I pick her,
Might she be mine?

I need to fall apart again,
So I can write something,
Something so meaningful,
That the very act will cause my heart to stop.

I need to fall apart again,
But the truth is; I don't know how,
I don't know how anymore,
Now that I've really learned to love you.

Even as the morphine,
Stops to enter my veins,
And I feel myself sick from all the chemicals,
I cannot fall apart, I cannot fall again.

I start my downward slide,
Then I remember you laughter,
I remember your face,
And I find myself glued together.

I suppose my writing may die,
But I'm happy with you.
So if that's my sacrifice,
Then **** these words and **** me too.

The other day I was asked,
Where I called home.
I thought for a while,
Before I realized a syringe was the only thing that made me feel warm.

I know I have a cold heart,
And I couldn't care less sometimes.
But to tell you the truth,
I'm truly happy that you're mine.

I've driven nearly a hundred miles,
And been sick for days on end.
Just so I could see you,
My love, my life, my very best friend.

I've left my needle back in my room,
Just beside my spoon and cotton.
So I could be with you,
So those moments may never be forgotten.

I've spent my days alone,
Knowing just how far I'd have to drive,
To see my darling girl,
And to really feel alive.

I know not,
The word defeat,
Though I comfortably use,
The term tactical retreat.

I know it sounds awfully proud,
Of me to say I rarely lose,
But know I mean only,
In terms I care to use.

I've lost games of chance,
Or sports at play,
But know of the things I care for,
I'll never see a defeated day.

Few things on earth keep my attention,
And fewer still do I hold close,
But darling know if love is truly a game,
I surely will not lose.

For when it comes to you,
I know not the word defeat.
And I certainly will never employ,
A tactical retreat.

I packed my bags and prepared for a night long drive,
Took a couple pills to keep me feeling alive.
Somewhere along the way I started to feel pain,
So I pulled to the side and put a needle in my vein.

I never felt so alive as I did on that trip,
Waiting til the last moments to get my fix.
I listened to Floyd the entire way,
And got my drugs without having to pay.

And each time I lasted just a few minutes more,
Many hours passed before I let myself cure.
And each time the pain became less intense,
I'd fill up my needle and lose all sense.

Somehow I survived that month long drive,
By shooting a few pills just to feel alive.
And somehow I'm stronger because of those days,
Now that I've lost all of my destructive ways.

Tell me all the thoughts you have,
When you can't fall asleep at night,
Could you tell me that you love me,
That everything will be alright?

I'd Love to hear what you dream of,
When you're too drunk to stay awake,
Do you dream of your hands in mine,
Or of goodnight kisses when we've both stayed up too late?

Let me hear your whispers,
In the darkness of your room,
Let me crawl into your bed,
And make your blankets our tomb.

Let me hold you through your nightmares,
Let me kiss away your fears.
Let me love you through the good and bad,
Let me just make you mine my dear.

It's been three weeks,
Since you left.
And I've been so lucky,
To spend the weekends in your bed.

My mind may have been clouded,
With alcohol and morphine,
And I may have drank too quickly,
But I still shivered from the taste of your kiss.

It's now the fourth week,
And I count myself so lucky,
To know that I'm able to spend,
At least a few short hours with you.

It will be nearly three months,
Before you come home to me.
I know that no snow or ice or slush,
Could keep you driving back to my arms.

If I die tonight,
Know you're the last,
Thing on my mind.

As the sound of twisting metal,
And busted glass rains down,
Know I thought of you,
As I began to drown.

Through the fear and pain,
Amongst fleeting memories,
I remembered your touch,
As blood floods my lungs.

My vision begins to swim,
The darkness looms quickly in,
Through the tears streaming down my face,
You're the last thought in my brain.

Lost in buildings,
Surrounded by lights,
The roar of the engine,
As my two sides fight.

Another hour,
Lost in your new town.
Watching him kiss your cheek,
Reaching for the tourniquet again.

I thought I was lonely,
When she held my hand,
But you've left me alone,
In a sea that never sees land.

Another kiss is nothing like what you've already achieved.

I went out on a limb that day,
When you pulled me outside,
And told me just how you felt.

I didn't know then what I now know,
That I'd fall in love with you so quickly,
That I'd yearn for your presence,
More than I yearn for the drugs in my veins.

I went out on a limb that day,
When I was still seeing what's her name,
And told you I had a phone call to make,
So that we could see where it would go.

It's been nearly five years and I can honestly say,
That for every mistake I've ever made,
I was rewarded with you,
Just for going out on a limb that day.

My God girl you had me talking,
For fifteen odd hours,
About anything and everything,
Well into the night.

That's an hour for each month I was away,
Fifteen hours to catch up,
On all the things I wanted,
To say to you.

I didn't get it all out,
I know you wouldn't let me say,
I still love you,
But it was surely implied.

I know you fought sleep all night,
To tell me in jaded words,
That I'm still bouncing around,
In your ribcage.

I know there's still a spark,
Even after so long apart,
And that you feel the need to be held,
As you drift off to sleep.

I promise I can fight off all your demons,
With my warm embrace,
And maybe a kiss or two,
If only you'll let me try.

I know you implied that someone,
You surely need by your side,
To fight the darkness once again,
Will always be me.

And I know I said I'm sorry,
About a thousand ******* times,
But I'll say it another,
Thousand ******* times.

When last we said goodnight,
I drifted off to fitful sleep,
Sorely missing our conversation,
And dreaming of you all night.

I wrote this poem in my own blood,
So you could taste it like you never could.
And I hope you find it before I decay,
Else our love will not find it's way.

My friend, my cure, my sickness and health,
I count you as the richest of wealth.
I carry you beside my heart,
And know when I die you'll not depart.

You'll dig my grave with your own two hands,
And spread my ashes on stark white sands.
You'll bleed me to the ocean blue,
Until death takes the life from you.

And when you die I hope you know,
Your path to Heaven I will show.
I'll light the darkest halls of Hell,
For Heaven died when you fell.

Angels cried for us that day,
Their tears showing us a blurry way.
Through the fire, trees and rain,
They showed us Heaven to hide our pain.

After years of trudging through,
We found Heaven with Angels few.
And so you stood with valiant stance,
And raised them up with a powerful glance.

Now Heaven's full they force our leave,
But not before we try and retrieve,
Our souls from far beyond the gates,
And back to Earth to chance our fates.

That last shot,
Of whiskey,
Filled my tongue,
With the taste of you.

I stopped drinking,
Long before the thought,
Of suicide,
Filled my head.

I stopped drinking,
When images of us,
Started to creep,
Into my veins.

Darling can't you tell,
I haven't slept too well,
Since last I held,
My beautiful girl.

I'd sell my very soul,
To call you mine again.
It's been so long since I've cried,
But I'm not sure I can hold back next time.

I stopped drinking,
When the whiskey began,
To taste like you,
And the *** began to taste the same.