your smile anchored me down, but now I'm merely breaking the surface.

debating on some changes.

good looks do not solve problems

never really happy, only occupied.

AA LL OO NN EE

YOU MAKE ME WANT TO ******* DIE, BUT THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR, RIGHT?

Between you and me there is no banter, only **facts

falling and crashing down


**What are we anymore..?

all you do is put matter before your mind and for that your mind shall turn to dust.

you're like the moon, shining so bright and going through your phases..though your dark side is never revealed.

"for the moment when you stop existing is when you begin to live."

crazy how we often are told to live for today when all we want to do is die tomorrow.

you kept me afloat in the water I desired to drown in.

What happened?

"reveal what's behind the door, for you shall become ill."

Among all of the art in this universe, I could never fathom a masterpiece more phenomenal than you.

just the thought of you drives me insane but my presence is merely nonexistent to you.

I tend to wonder if these pills are taking effect. I also tend to wonder if I'm just delusional.

maybe one day our hands will be intertwined and your legs will interlap with mine, but for now it's all stares....

And although all of the struggles continuously possess my entire existence, I shall always keep one and only mindset: I am whatever I wish to be.

"we're all just people with the same problems and different last names."

You are so much more than the number on the scale or the averages on your transcripts.

I'm ******* done trying and even though I am, there's always going to be the thought of us in the back of my mind.

the single moment you listen to those songs and don't want to die is the moment you begin to live.

"You don't sound pathetic love, only human."

but apparently the black eyes and bruised arms don't even begin to relate to "how much we do for you."

We're all tiny specks in this endless universe for an unknown reason and yet, we continue to worry about who marries who.

Find the humor in everything, for you will always win.

NEVER SWIM THE OCEAN FOR PEOPLE WHO WON'T JUMP A PUDDLE FOR YOU.

And at that moment, I realized that there was never anything there. Nothing between us, at all. The thought of that makes me break.

Let's be lazy together.. Just you and me.

And when you're laying alone in the night, there's no postponing of the thoughts that consume your entire mental.

"Here we are, dumb and young, living this life with no patience.."

Sitting in a classroom surrounded by the future of America, yet continuously taught irrelevant material that will never benefit us in the end.

"2 rules.

Don't give a **** what people think, and speak your mind."

-the certain person I used to call my friend.

I'm mad.

I'm mad I can't express myself without the fear of being judged to the point of a breakdown.

I'm mad I can't be with you and your whole existence I call perfection without being looked down upon and shamed.

I'm mad that 'us' will never exist.

I'm just mad...

"In my feelings" is the correct description, and surely I would do anything to get out of them.

Let the music express the thoughts you can't fathom into words.

The sparks are present but surely they're not flying.

the unexpressed ideas are always lingering.

I refuse to be a statistic.

Dull and blank, the only things I feel and the only things that I am.

Never enough.