It's like they all left..

Projects half done..

A guarded gate, with nothing
But a latch.

The sign says welcome,
The iron disagrees.

Picnic tables wasting away,
Yet to host a family.

A moment together
Is not often enough

I craved the glance
Even for as slight as a moment

The passing of our skin
As you refill my drink

No, I don't want to leave you
Like they said I would
For failing your mission
But she wants to challenge you.

She rises up,
Sweat from the eyebrow
Dirt on the knees
Fingers callased

She comes for the soul
Piercing at a fragile ego
Leaving you weak or
Submitting to a man

Five trucks
Two trailers
Five hours
Two clients
Five forgotten memories
Two missed birthdays

As i drift into a
disassociate state,
Your yells become
Almost a calming
Background noise
of my quiet
simple life

As I drift into
The silence of my mind
The darkness
Covers me like
A warm shelter
Finally able to shake the shiver
From your aggressive roars

As I drift
The anger starts to dim
And
The sad fishing begins
"I'm sorry I'm the worst"
"I'll be better"
"You know I'll never hurt you tho right"

As i drift
i start to sink
Into a hopeless void
That maybe
The bite wouldn't be as bad
As the bark

I lay my hand lower than a tummy ache
On the place of my heart ache,
Another month of wait
For my same old fate.

- not yet a mother

Awaken to reality in your favorite place,
Coffee is just luke to the taste.
You shake off your glasses,
Give your eyes a wipe.

Aware to reality the noise and the
You.
Studying me from the corner of the room,
Where your books lay abroad.

Attention to reality, your reality.
Don't start to stare.
Okay one more glance,
There...

If you miss me
Turn the car around
And
Come back home.

If you miss me
Or an ounce of hesitation
Come home to me

If you miss me
While we are apart
Come find home in me

As it is said,
As it shall be.

I spent an awful lot of time by myself.
As i wait
Its a lot of time to sit inside this head.
As I wait
For you to hear the screams I'm screaming.
As I wait

Take me to the stars

I'll do you better

If you let me

I'll show you the universe

Someday you'll be ready

I'll show you it too

Maybe when you're ready

I'll be waiting for you

Azalea bushes, pine needles
underneath
The weeping trees

Daisy on the left
A space free of judgement
With healthy hopes and dreams

Placed with stepping stones
Made with love
A token of their visits

Share your garden secrets
Make your worship known
With angels and sculptures

Please!
𝑷𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆..

You died.
Then you are reborn.
They talk about heaven and hell
But they never tell you about earth.

Heaven didn't want us
Hell didn't want us
So,
They send us to earth.

Sure it's mostly water
Little bit of ground
And a whole lotta people
But no babies

Year 2025
Post worldwide pandemic  
Current Global Tarrif War,
Even the Penguins.

But i met you
You who warms my heart
You who holds my hand in the park
You and me, on earth.

Silly silence
Lack of enthusiasm
Quiet responses
No engagement

- am I hard to love

I hope you can feel it

My burst of energy
I send it to you.

I hope you can feel it

To be desired
To be craved
Lavished
Explored
Smelled
Tasted

Sweet new relationship energy

- Polyamory

White shirt
Meet
Coffee stain
So perfectly placed under my lip
As if there was a leak in the seal.

White shirt
Meet
Spaghetti sauce
Splattered as if your blade hit
Me in the most perfect way

White shirt
Meet
A full face of makeup
On your perfectly bleached collar

White shirt
Meet
White shirts
Do enjoy the perfectly tempered water
As it washes all of the sins placed upon
All of you.

Baby, can't you see me?
See me here waiting
Waiting for you to understand
Understand why I love you
I love you for your humor, your love
You love, your mind - you.

Did you ever think
Think I'm not the only one?
The only one who know you care
Care about love, life, happiness
Happiness that turns into hate
Hate that makes you feel
Feel sad, lonely, unloved, hurt
Hurt, maybe feel some sympathy?

Youre not the only one hurting
Hurting other people isn't okay
Okay yo talk about, but hurting someone
Someone else so you don't feel
Feel so upset about who hurt you
You, babu, know it doesn't have to be this way.

Written by Morgan Zslnka, published  by Pilar Expressions Published in 2012.
2012 I was navigating grade 8 and have continued on adoring the art of poetry since. This poem has had many different meanings over the years.
I do hope it fines you well. I'm excited to explore more communities within the arts.

Would you still love me

- Seeking Affirmations

If I had a voice I would tell you how proud I am of you
I would tell you all the things you wished you could hear the pasts, well, years.
I would speak to you oh so softly that you would catch yourself correctly yourself.
I would stop and doubt myself if I had a voice or if its in my head.

If I had a voice I would tell you what my friends call me,
Reliable,
Vibrant,
That loud one over there.
They would speak about the volume of my brightness, and the magic behind my hands, the light in my eyes which i shine upon them when they need it the most.

If I had a voice I would tell you who I thought I was before now,
I would tell you about the struggles, the lectures, the rebuilding, the strength behind it.
I'd highlight my character throughout my stories, so you won't miss me when I shine pass

If I had a voice I would tell you how it only gets better and better
And to soft so you enjoy while I'm here, so you don't miss my light