Within deception, we seem to make decisions that cost us our purpose
Deception telling us that we are not loved
Puts us in a cycle where we end up hurting the people that actually love us
Even though to you it seems unnecessary for me to do
All I want to say is :
To you it may concern, I’m sorry

As time goes past and reaches 15:55
My fears and my mistakes haunt me
Not hearing the word love from my mom put the fear
That I might just lose the people that I care about without hearing how they felt about me

Fear ended up bringing deception into my life
Drawing conclusions that no one loves me
While hurting those that actually did
And I seem to have made that same mistake with you and I’m sorry

If I knew opening my heart would cause all of this confusion
I would have just done what I seem to do best and just keep it to myself
Yet what’s the use of me doing so
If it only gets me one day earlier to my grave and not be honest with myself?

You challenging me brought the best out of me
As I look back, the only difference between my past and my present
Is that I have you on my team
And I’m not willing to go into the future without you
No matter what role you will play

I miss my friend
I miss the days you would complain about me trying to get you fat
I miss the days you would talk about what you ate and then trying to get me hungry
I miss the days where I had just a normal conversation with you
All I’m just saying is I miss you

Being open has never been my thing
But if there’s a perfect time to be open, it’s now
Even though to you it seems unnecessary for me to do
All I want to say is that I’m sorry
Sorry for letting my fear get over me

Yedidia.B