I’ll take a lonely road before those lips,
I think my only home is inside my hands.
I can’t deny my love comes from within
But I’ll take a lonely road before cheating my friends

Boy with a coin he plant in the dirt
And watched as the faces turned To the earth.
Bought him a Ring and wings just to glow and watch how they praised him and that’s how he knows

Boy with a coin fell for a man
Chasing his heart like paper in the wind
Left him his ring just to dance on cloud
The man stole his heart and the boy fell straight to the ground.

Boy with a coin found in the dirt
He walked a few miles and found a ******
With eyes that were dark  and pocket full of tears
He took off his wings and covered his fears.
Emptied his pockets made it a river
So the ****** would know that even when he cried that it would get better.

****** of rivers he took off his clothes
And laid on the wings for the boy that you know
Boy with a coin  sat on a cloud
heard a sweet melody and guess who he found..?
Took his wings and the ****** around
Told him to “hold on to me” and jumped on a cloud and I heard that’s where there living right now

Taste and see the wonders of my brain,
Sip the knowledge of another
You rather make love on a full moon I rather make love threw the thunder.

Where the rain have a sound and your body drips of Mother Nature.
Can we make love like lovers?
Where every inch touches your canvas of wonders..
Paint every inch erected like spring in me But drips like the heated summer.
I know you want me to be dripping Iike rain
You know I can bring the thunder.
Tell me....we’re lovers
Tell me....your pleasures
Tell me ... you will never leave and want me to hold u close like filthy endeavors

Even tho we’re in the shower I look deep in your eyes and can’t help but to smile..
Cause I pictured us kissing in the rain right under the thunder for awhile.

Creating a world that haven’t Been made
Perhaps nothing is made
Made...what Is?
What is this feeling
What are these tears for?
Why do I smile?
Maybe I’m asking the wrong questions
How?
How do you make me sad
How do you make me smile?
How did you slip threw the corners of mind?
Just how !
And you do it over and over again
Now ...I can’t stop myself from thinking of your smile
Again and again !

When the rain becomes snow
And you’re heart turns  cold
I want to know...
Will we grow old?
Will we get to see another spring?

cause the roses they bloom
And there’s nothing to do
Could we just take it slow
And enjoy the summer’s moon.

I will watch it with you
You know there’s nothing to gain
But I still feel the same
When it’s not with you it’s a pain.

Cold but feeling the snow isn’t so bad,
Falling hurts but getting up isn’t to hard
If I was fast I don’t think I would stop
If I couldn’t see you i don’t think I would give up
To search for you no...never will I let up
Having me here why do you keep looking
Give you a cup and you tell me that’s too much
Sip my love don’t be scared to feel another’s emptiness

With these kushite hands I take off this crown,
My heart has never been this loud .
I can feel my spirit getting dim
I can feel my soul getting weary
My eyes are low
my shoulders are tipsy
Just please ...
Shut up and kiss me
Just please
Shut my thoughts up just love me
Just please
Let me
Let me hold you I don’t wanna be a King today I just want you to be with me.

Don’t look at me you seen to much already,
You learn to learn but can’t learn that Love is to heavy
And yet I run to you like there was something else to say..
If you wanted to leave I’ve made my bed in the driveway.
From past Goodbyes I sit and wait.
You take my hand upstairs and say “Rest...sleep”

Something you can never do alone,
As I wrap my arms around you you say
“Goodnight”
And I whisper
“You will never be alone”

....Rest
....sleep
It looks better on you then me.

I kinda play dumb
But I’m not though..
All the things you say is so unoriginal
I’m back in my corner thinking what the **** to do
I gotta fish out compliments for the stuff I do
Sinking in tears I made you cry I know
But was they even real?
How did we get here i need Tylenol
I’m tryna show u that I’ll be here even when the sky is falling though.

We shouldn’t be together
We shouldn’t fight at all
Cause the time that we hAve I don’t think we even have at all

You wanna live you’re life then go live you’re life,
You don’t have to drag me just to show me you didn’t want this for life.

I hope that you see one day that my tension was good
Whether we’re still together making memories or broken up

I’m sinking
I’m sinking again
Feelings
Dame these feelings again
I got questions for my ex
I did leave cause no affection but if I was honest I go back and read these messages he sent.
And now I feel like it’s always Been me
what if it is ?
I can’t stop thinking how happy he is without me
Though I have a new one I’m scared to leave
Im scared to ask
Im scared to truely breath
Cause if I do I’m killing myself
He listens to me
He lays on my chest
Im scared to lose him
And have another Ex.
Please tell me I’m not chasing fantasy
Please hold me close again
Im breaking my back
And driving so far just to try love again
I will make sure you are loved
I will make sure to be tired
Just please make sure
That I’m loved
I can’t lose u
I just can’t
I just...

He can calculate the stars from the moon
But here he is holding my hand getting Food.
He can  understanding quantum physics,
But holding his hand I can feel him shaking to take pictures.

Here he is you’re President!
But laying next to me looking in my eyes deep he’s...silent.

And the smile of it all
And the tears that fall
And the love that search
And the fear to lose it all


They see him as Potãto
I see him as potato
Even if they want him to be the star tonight,
He will always be the brightest in my life.

Flowing with poison feel me with shots of wine.
Cares not allowed turn off my heart for awhile .
I tasted  you’re love in my mouth.
You’re words they turn into clouds
And now it’s hard to see why we are still
But I’m here
And you here

You call me a freak
I call you threw the week
You like the way I speak
How it makes you feel weak
Can you call me when you’re free?
Cause I’ll make time for what you need
I’ll find the time for you’re needs
I’ll show u all you need is me

Flowing with love dont need no shots of wine.
You turn my heart into shots of my life
You ******* tongue threw this night
You’re words turn into clouds
I’m lost in you and you’re lost in we
Cause I’m here
And you are here

I tried to keep you
But I can even keep myself
This year I’m equal but half of me don’t know myself
I told myself save your self but it ain’t even looking for some help
I tried to keep you
But I can’t even keep myself.

Stand up
Sit down
Rest
No
Wait
Can’t
Rest
What’s that
Who’s that
Are you the one
No wait can’t rest
Wait
Just !
Stop!
Please...

I finally realize what I need
I need someone that can cut me off from going out to much
I need someone that’s gunna share memories.
Let’s get ...
Let’s umm...
Do you anybody still get married these days ?
If so are you willing ..?

I don’t know what to say anymore
Yeh
I don’t know what to...
Found my heart right up on the floor
Yeh
I don’t know what to...
It’s like I’m trying but can’t no more..
I’m tired of trying to make you see
I’m tired trying to make me believe
Just say it man so we can both be free
Say it loud so we can both be me
I don’t know what to...
Broken thoughts and insecurities
Say it so we can move this weight
I know you don’t care like you say you do
And here I am waiting for honesty
It seem like that’s to much for you
I don’t know what to say anymore.
I’ll krrp my heart right there on the floor
And if u chose to walk away
Then we both do I’ll keep my heartrightvthere for some reason you want to keep my love today
Cause God knows after you I’m not Gunna care to stay

I come in peace so listen close
But I agree you’re young and full of hope.
The rain will sleep, the moon will float
The sun will come to let you know.

Don’t worry please just let it
go,
I saw you’re dreams and saw them grow.
School is just a fling like ***** soap,
Like  a marathon to a episode.



But if you leave You will never
What we can bring but it’s fading slow.
I’m a alien to these that call you home.


But In our planet we don’t **** one another
we don’t take Love for granted It’s a gift from the mother Land
In there planet they are filled with greed and false belief.
I came to bring you peace.

His head thinks 80 miles an hour
His hands are still like water on a sunny day
Looking back is easier when you’re only retracing your steps..
He’s been here before looking at the same beast
The blood in his veins runs smoothly
As the bird sings he gears up for war.
As the beast awakes he grips his sword and looks down for the last time...

He faces love one more time.

Everything Must go I  got things I really want, tell me what I'm doing wrong let me know if we can go till the day He claims my soul deep and deep i know this road just tell me what you really want if its what you really want can i know if this is all you want ...is me?

I am nothing but sand in the wind,
people talk but I forget what they said someone once said ...
**** I forgot ...
****...
what were we talking about

This watch is so loud now
Here in silence I can hear the silence now
It hasn’t hit home but talking about home dame I’m sitting in myself right now.
I think I just got broken up with but I don’t feel like im broken now..
Wow is it hard to love me ?
Wow am I hard to love?
I went the distance everybody
And why does it feel like I can’t even get a foot?
I would scream I would get mad
But time is talking ...shh can you hear the love?
Neither can I ....
All I can hear is the clock right now
Here in the silence I can hear the silence..
Like someone with a I don’t care shrug.

Look into my eyes and they will testify that
I have been alone feeling so useless and so dumb.
and I know what I’m missing !
Noo I’m not drinking
Oh there’s a difference
Wish u we’re here but understanding that you really weren’t with him...

Look into my eyes and they will testify that
Rather feel alone dame you really got me feeling numb.

Between you and me
There’s something in the way
We speak like lovers but glorify this  hollow state.
This hollow place
With these hollow things we cherish.

This world I built
This world we built

Without you here it feels fake...
Lost between dust and stains
I feel ...out of place.

A square looking at all the shapes and yet I stay and try to fit in the columns of your brain.

You’re thinking again ... cause I can see the clouds form and take shape..

As I turn to the storm in you’re heart
And the raindrops on your face.

I hold you close threw the Rainbows I am about to make.

A lot of things don’t matter
Like these pancakes on a platter
Some things just don’t have my attention
Like this car that I’m  Wippin’
I sit in the same dame corner.
With the same dame grin
But something changed today
When you walked in ...
Did you tell how my focus was on u
And the nervousness was in my hand..?
The new shirt that I  bot ...with a sexier glance
I can tell
I hope u can tell
That I need you as a friend

You can say I’m not enough
Smoking **** wont get me high to talk to God...
Tell me why my brother playing with the law,
He said he’s scared of them coming without a gun.
Tell me why my ex is texting me still?
It’s like I still love you but it’s a cheap thrill.
And now your momma hates me cause I’m real.
It’s like friends they hate me cause I’m real
It’s like my family trying to take pills
But knowing one day my dad and mom be gone like a cheap thrill

I left my heart in my chest,
I left words behind my cheeks.
Cause sometimes it’s better left unsaid,
And to say something you don’t always have to speak.

I don’t think I’m focus on my dreams
Cause  I’m to busy trying to find sleep.
Chasing it so much these days It’s like morning has found me.

Rest young one
Rest for everything that’s for you you will see
Dead ends turn to lessons and your  lessons fight for truth.
Truth is something that we all need cause lies can make a person you knew become as nothing but a issue

If it ain’t worth it then what you want?
Make it rain, make it pour
If it ain’t love then what you on,
make it rain, make it storm.

Unsettled and fazed
Slow speaking and deep thinking
Hands numb but heart beating
Eyes quiver from a drop of not knowing

And it’s not like I haven’t been listening it’s just I haven’t been asking...
Now that I am it is me who needs the fire to clean me from what my mind is portraying..

He told me he had *** after the kiss and now I can’t move ... even though I speak the words are like smoke and vanish fast we speak and go back inside but I wanted to run but where? Where would I go ?

He tells me I can’t get it like that but I don’t believe him like how can you tell me the truth when u didn’t tell me the truth before, and now I’m looking at my mirror like I don’t know who I am 4 days after ...like now to be exact,
I find myself with headache *** I’ve been thinking so much and tomo is the big day Tomo I shall know if you never prayed before I’m asking for it..
For am a stranger to heaven knocking on the door....
I know I should of never been where I was
I still don’t know where I am.

Such speech is equivalent to the common factors of bullsh
It’s all bullsh*
Someone’s giving you the run around and telling you eat it
While you wait for the waiter you will be waiting cause his clock is broken so he watches his watch.
Such ideas become like static
Such lies they should electrify
Such lies they believe there on deception.
Like little boys play with toys they float over how many missles they got.
But by the looks of it it’s never enough
But my son don’t believe in everybody for they only know what they have been programmed to be .
For we are not computers.

Where the sun goes down
And the sea starts to  dance
the crowd becomes blank faces
And I’m trying to keep my stance
There you will find me
With a cherry on top and ***** at the bottom
3 cups away from giving into *****
2 cups away from living in the phantom
1 cup away from persuading the music to give up its possessions.
I’m drunk and becomes to reckless
I drink the thoughts down cause all I want is for someone to find him.
Talk to him..
Bump him..
But as I look over my shoulder there all fake
There all people that are forgotten
And the lights make them move and music becomes there *****..
A city of ruin
A man of loses
We look good together but lot says i can’t stay
For the pillar of salts become a void nothing.
How wish you would speak to me
How I wish you could listen
Can you just hold me ?
Well can you just .....uh forget them

When you’re falling from heaven they forget to tell you how you’re praised by the same ones that will talk about you.
All the care in the world but do they really care about you,
I pluck the dead feathers until I don’t have’em any more.
There’s a funny sound that I hear in my chest that keeps beating day after day it gets louder,
And the craziest thing I stop levitating.
I can’t walk on water no more!
And the wind use to listen to my whistle!

So much pain
So much hurt
It’s hot down here
So I hide behind a rock
I look for shade
I look for love
Things have change
But why does it feel like change don’t even want us ?
And yet some praise superman for how he can bend a lock
I should go to him to see if he know about this heart stuff.

Try to not think about you but they slip threw
Like a needle threw cotton, stitching me back up with sadness, regret, and happiness.
So far yet so close
So close and yet my reach is in the dark
And even now I still can’t see ... I can’t put my finger on it but,
You look familiar
As I wake up I’m the same person that I was yesterday
Searching for nothing in nothing there’s always someone that loves you.
Do you love me ?

I’d thought I’d be around to fly
My life right now is hard to find
It’s okay mom I’m still alive
But half way breathin
Yes I’m half way breathin.

My hands they reach for the sky
My head it falls like a meteor.
You thought the tears could stop the pain inside.
I’m half way breathin
Yes I’m half way breathin.

These rainbows fool my naked eye
Such beauty but I forget when it rains it drys..
The moon is so silent tonight...
It’s like there’s something hiding behind that light
You don’t feel it ?
I guess doom makes us pray
I guess a check makes us feel like we’re doing something right
Maybe Heaven was never to be reached tonight
Or maybe I’m growing faint and there’s something behind the moon tonight ...

Feels like I’m half way breathing
Yes I’m half way breathin tonight

at age 7 I had my first ****** encounter. Bodied by my cousin ******* me I still didn’t understand life, what I thought of playing became a whole new thing..I didnt know this would lead me into to two thoughts and two mindsets in my brain.
After this nothing was safe it was like a force was keeping me away from danger but now I knew I could be captured.

Waking up to the sun got me looking for the shade,
But looking up to your son got me hiding in my shame.
I was ***** before I ever knew my name
And yet you gave me time to learn yours...
At age 24 I still have my ways and sometimes reach for my pillow for some shade,  but to know your name and know you’re  somewhere around this horrible place let’s me know I can put my pride and shame away and just wake up to a brighter day

unwanted time is symbolic
Cause it seems like we never have enough
Without money or talking you can’t get it back.
Without the media and a clock would it really matter what day it was?
Without your hand on mine woudl I really care of a proposal?
Without you saying my name would I really care who calls me ?
Time is so overrated it surpasses the mind
And yet I sit here watching the times we had together and now that there gone I watch another on what they do with there’s ....strange isn’t it

I don’t know any more I just don’t.
I sit in silence when I pray so is it praying..?
I look up with disgust like I know this is not what u wanted from me and even my best behavior is as a ***** cloth.

My misdeeds oh my grief everything I can’t hold physically weighs me down from my helplessness I keep doing...there not a pretty sight to see but like the mirror after a hot bath it seems as I open the door and remeber there’s another room the cold A/C comes and let’s me see the mess I made and the reflection is the same but I know where I’ve been. I hang my head , raise my hands and ask for forgiveness if you’re  real and you love how they say you do I need it abba and the strength to get threw this. Amen

This story we call life is full of lovers and daggers,
It ends quickly but it feels for a life time
What did we do to stumble so far away
Will there ever be order ?
To be honest ...

I don’t care about it but I do lowkey
I move with a certain step of expectancy,
Lacking worthiness and consistency
Loyal as hell to fire
But ... this world is creating me to be cold hearted
Post luggage and the sad things
When all I wanted in the first place was Love to clean me cause I’ve been threw this mud some call home.

F.A.M.E.

How I turn a 10 into 6?
I just gave her a 18 karote kiss
I just put my heart up on my wrist
Everywhere I turn they smile at me
Everytime I walk there like the sea
rushing, touching until I can’t even breath.
My hands won’t stop shaking it’s been doing this for a week
I got some meds from the doc
I got some meds from me
I pop a xan just for the thrill
I pop xan just to sleep
When I wake I’m in a city where I’m not even Gunna be...
So much things I need to do
So much things I need to see
So much demons in the room
All they want is to be in me.
Sold my soul so I can see
Sold my dog cause it started to hate me
Jacket full of hearts I’m in a everlasting fall
Went from crying for my dreams now I evoled ... I’m ballin picture me rolling the body that I’m with know that her heart I stole it ..cause I’m frozen.

Not trying to be even
Not try to be cool
Just try to be in this
Tell me are you to?

I’m tired of being envy
I’m tired of being Used
I know it hurts to be me
Do you know how it feels to be abused ?

I’ve seen the light of the sun
I smelled the roses of bloom
But I never
Never...
Never met someone that made me feel like a fool.
And I love it.

Like the waves in the sea
Your ways flow threw me
And even as I speak I can’t see the Forrest from the leaves
The water from the sea
And I was starting to believe
We had a Forrest full of dreams
But now I wake up feeling steamed
Like starch pants Without the crease
A man with baby feet
I weird vivid picture meaning I have to start again without your face and lately I’ve been missing that lately.

took a pill it was white.

I like imperfectness so much to where I point it out to much and the other person think it’s something wrong with them,

I like when we argue it helps me know I’m not numb to everybody but it eats m to not know what you be thinking..

I like long conversations that don’t mean nothing that end is in our underwear kissing..

I like a lot of things..
I like a lot of you.

Time after time it goes away
Mind over mine if I don’t have it I’m fine
Higher then the stars and I’m omly walking...
It’s like the univers in a needle....

Threw the text I’m sinking in my ****,
Ain’t got no exit only a **** switch.

My monsters look at me and say “I’m getting scared”.
“You don’t see the demons that be in his head”.

I don’t see nothing but you’re perfect smile,
I just need you before they put me down.

Put it to the light yeah you held me down.
Put it to the light yeah I messed around.

Leaving my haven and meet me in the thunder,
Donald days left us with a cold stunner.

Donald days stripped you of other colors
Donald mane ******* with you good covers
I don’t trust ****** that be undercover.

Fast forward  the love became just like a brother,
my world is was on fire threw the ashes I don’t see my brothers

Threw the ashes all I see is you.
In you’re car uniform threw loopy loop
I did U-Turn on 45 and it point me back to you.

Sweet divine with a heavy truth
One to love and one to lose
I'm not fine.. you feel it to?
My soul is crying my spirit feels you
Forgot how to pray so I turn

Did I lose you I think I did..
Seeing you're new pictures it's just messing with my head..
I just wanted you to get it that I'm more then just you're friend.
When you would come home I would feel like a person off the bench
When you text me it was better then what you said.
I really miss you and I still get blamed for leaving you instead.
Like I had a option to stay in agony or come back and work on myself
When you wanted someone to love you while you were focus on you're self.
How many trophies  did I curve to be placed on a shelf?
How many people did I drop to give you time?
You say it was unstable but you're the only one that was on my mind.
You did a lot for me even when you thought we wasn't fine... I just don't think we shared the same vision cause I always thought we were good even when was lying ....it hurts alittle to know I still love you with a thin line I wish I was you're all and everything you say on text was right.
I guess you wish I never left.
Maybe we're both right in the wrong time.

Open skies under the misty clouds
Oh my mind under the melody cries.
Scratching to be free from the earthly size
Willing to fly but don't know where to go
Improvise for a careless soul
Knowing you don't believe I packed my bags and going home.
Embrace the moments that we get with our woes
Embrace the moments that we have with the most
Who would of known I would of kissed you and still be going home
This world have a way of making you feel alone
This world have there own
This world is nothing but stones
This life is mine but it's greater when I give to you
Wish I could rewrite what I do
Then again who Dosent like to be someone's crush though..
When you're in town again ...let me know.

Let's take a chance
Fall into love fall in my arms like if I was your man.
I'll hold you close and sweep up the tears before we begin.
Cause I'm your man...I'll do what I can to make your heart my home.

Let's take some time
The distance it shows but what do they know like a secret life...
You dance undercovers trapped in a lover but I am no saint..
They plucked all my feathers,  heartless endeavors still I will want to try.

Take me tonight
You're eager to go I can tell by you're soul that you're needing a knight,
a knight with a sword who will let down his guard and grip yours right
Tell me you're fantasies tell me what hurts so I can make it alright
What kind of man you want tonight.

Meet you in the 6 where it's so so Cold,
Meet You in Texas where oh so low
Meet me in the grave where my  love can't go.
Meet me in the heights where I should my soul,
If I go to hell you are there fosho.

Where would I go that you will not go
Oh so faithful more faithful then the Sun you woke.
Lust is where I reside I know my habits is unknown I'm tired of letting go...
Can you still save me from the man I've become ?