Life gave me lemons and I held them in the freezer,
Watching the ones that was so close to me point there fingers

….as they say “what happen to your lemons”?
Even my best friend left as I stop giving out free lemons…
I never told them the rest was in my denim
And now the clouds cry and I don’t even reason.
I’m somewhere thinking of myself cause even my partner the one I thought that would find them I have left…
When I even showed him where they was. Such hallow love for someone to know you but hate what you become.
But for me it was like the dirt turning into mud.
When you left crushed the lemons and sipped a cup.
If you would of stayed the first time maybe I would of gave a ****
But now I sip lemonade not because I want to but it’s the only thing I have…
As you point your fingers im so glad you were to dumb to see them in your face because now I drink them and hardly think of what you have done

I wake up in the morning and roam the clouds with a blink. Head to the bathroom just to watch my soul leak..
Cut on the shower just to hide behind the steam
Naked but clean
Transparent but seen
What I mean is
Have you ever watched the water flow down your skin?
I find it funny how the water into him and the memories turned into soap suds .

Burning the memories of when we were friends just to keep warm at night.

Waking up just to find ashes on my pillow is better then staying up all night

Because for years I would try to keep all my relationships burning with the intent to see us do right .

But when I seen the fire came from me always burning myself to give them light.

I found it was better to burn a memory then my life

I walk on the clouds by the puddles of the rain.
Getting the point of view I find my own fingers drenched rain drops that cover the world to sleep
As long as my cries are not the only ones that are heard
I don’t feel to alone

Being single is cool … until you hear the whispers in the wind
Being single is fun.. until the bar closes and the shots wear off
Just another boy under sheets drowning in the memories of thoughts
It was Nathan who lingered with Paul Mitchell hair shampoo
It was Chris who snuck me in his moms house after hours
It was Harrison who drove with the wind in his hair
It Nicholas my perfect little punching bag.
I wish the tears came to keep me company
But all I have is Oreos & milk sitting at a acute angle like a little ***
And what drags the most was nick…
The taste of toxic love and good tips
Making eggs with a flaccid *****
Tovivid but vividly finding myself sinking so quick
The **** that I was for the way he talked to me like I didn’t exist
And then holding me tight just show me I was his
I’m sorry if I sound broken cause I thought we were fixed
Astrology said a Taurus and cancer was it
And now as I dip my Oreo in this white milk
I bury my head under the covers
Remembering the brown skin boy who touch was like silk.

I am the one who blew the wind between your trees
Just to see if you would stay grounded.
Like a cheetah low to the ground waiting for his prey to get closer
I’m waiting for you to kneel and know that it’s over…
Your hugs were precious but me being possessive I want more
I smell blood and your smile is becoming my  aroma
But how do I feel so better in your chaos and the way you hate me….
Like a criminal waiting for his cell doors to close
Do I really wanna be saved by my own  meticulous act?
Do I …

Isn’t that something?
They know nothing..
When you wink at me dude….man that’s something
When you text me “come thru”. Yeaa I’m coming.

Sitting court side barley 18, got his little brother on A team.
Just walked in but he can’t speak, so he sent a text saying “babe!”.
It’s a lot of faces around you,  got a lot of  people around me.
I keep looking up at you
he keeps checking up on me.

Man that something?!
They know nothing…
Sent a text “I love yoooou” dame you love me.
Sent a text “ dame me tooooo” now he’s smiling.

Sitting court side on the next seat,
Watch his little brother playing A- Team
Got alot of people around you
I got a lot of friends around me.
After the game ..just  @ me
Baseball field come kiss me

I got something..
you came with nothing..
You keep holding me dude…man that’s something.
We got nothing to prove….man that’s something.