I walk with braces on teeth
Thrift store 80’s the mink..
Brand new Camero watching fleets
Made a way
Made a way.
I was sleeping on couches
steady drinking and doubted..  
I was lost but I found’em
Make a way
Make a way
My sister delivered the baby,
My lover text me “it’s crazy”
Use to tell me not ready but now he tell me he’s ready.
Made a way made a way…

I use to think my worth was all in vain,
Until I stopped crying and worked for everything I have
Now My pain is champagne.

I have lost the feeling
I have lost the focus
Everything I do for love gets Toss in the ocean
Why walk why keep running
When you don’t even see my steps in the sand
Why do I have to be open?
For another take to steal my time
Fir another to say I’m broken
When it’s clear that I have kept the walls from talking
The room from floodin
The door from strangers
And your jead from spinnin
I’m done
I have lost th thrill
All I want now is a cloth and a drill
I’ll make a safe haven
I’ll prepare the meals of a lost man even irs only fish and broccoli steamed in my kitchen
I know I’m good lover
I know what I can do
Abs if you can’t see that
Then I’m Jamie foxx auditioning for Ray Charles dude…

Okie okie oh okay
Counting all these bodies dame those things are starting to pile.
Judge me how judge me I didn’t mean to walk the mile.
love me how you love me Take all that to trail
Covered in the moment I forgot my smile at the house.
Hiding behind the shades for too long dame the sun is coming now.
Never felt this good sense I can’t recall
I’m okay you don’t have to come out now …

Slow steps turned to strides
And his eyes turned into piercing fire until they turned white.
I could see it every passing day
His hands wasn’t shaking no more
And his heart wasn’t on his sleeve
The shackles they used to pierce his worth was now his armor.
I heard from the crowd “How…did he do that.
As he jumped as high as he could and with a loud thump! To the ground!
He got up and bowed his head
And with a quick turn to the mirror he looked at me with a look I never seen before
He smiled.
I whispered with a tear in the corner of my eye I said
“Go…As high as you can”
The ground started to shake and the wind dance between his feet!
And that was the last time I saw him.
That was the last time I saw…me

I have made love to myself so much til my hands started cramping.
Entertaining a thought until I am covered in exaggeration.
Knowing it’s not gratifying
I reached for tinder but the place has guys that are behind the screen like roach in the tv
It’s just infested with broken hearts that are cracked differently but in the same notation.
Then it came to me like lightening threw the clouds million miles away
Do I love myself?
Have I took out the time to look at myself in the mirror and be comfortable in my own skin?
I haven’t done this in so long that it felt like I was cheating
I want to know what that smells like?
How do you wake up with a smile on your face ?
How do you workout with the theory of just being the best you?
I desire to be alone and don’t have to call on the stars or my mom to make me feel appreciated.
TODAY
I APPRECIATE AND I APOLOGIZE
I. WASNT ALWAYS THE ***** UP THAT I TAUGHT MYSELF TO BE
So forgive me for not giving you enough time self
Cause it shows during all the times I looked for happiness in people
I’m ready to do what I can and need to
I’m ready to experience a life where I just wake up and be totally fine by myself

Roses are red and clouds are blue,
I write a love letter to myself.
Remember when you worked so hard that you got your license?
You drive for hours knowing you would get in trouble
But look at us now… better than ever
Remember when you didn’t make it on varsity ?
Look at you now a whole city knows your name and you didn’t remember theres
You can’t give up cause I wouldn’t give up on anyone I love
Come back to me and work liek you never before
Trust me ig will come an you will find yourself waking next to me

I gave them my last
I gave them my cup
I gave him my virginity
And I gave her my trust
My dad toook my sanity and my mom drug my wants
Needing someone just to tell me I won’t leave
You left …
You left me
You lied
Your lied to me Nathan
My sky is falling and you said you wouldn’t
My own family hates me
And you said you told me to leave
And now that I left
Where are you
Where are you
Where
I’m …… tired
Of giving something that I don’t have
Laying on a couch that’s not mine
Drinking from a bottle that I didn’t buy
I’m tired
Of not having my own
I will change that
And it hurts cause now ….
I have to sit here and act like I don’t even see y’all
I’m done being the bad guy to your story
I’m ready to start my story
I should of been …. I’m just tired