I have dirt on my face and they say “God man pull yourself together”.
With a smile on my chin they say “Lord why does he have a attitude today.”
Replaying back times I would drive a distance just to sink in music like the tub was over flowing
If they only knew Good things I’ve done has turned into a lot of broken promises
So much I spread them all to make a new road for myself and soon they will say “Jesus why didn’t he give me key..? He dosent love me”
But they weren’t there when he had to pick up his life
They wasn’t there to set the blue print down tonight
I didn’t see non of them come back when the tears became my only friend
Who would of thought that I woudl be the bad guy in there imperial thought.
Abs I embrace it cause when he was beating you and she was telling me what to do and he said how I should ….
I watch them as they turn there nose to me and said with there hearts
“Dude your not good enough

They point the finger to the man who had it altogether
They kicked him when he was trying to get together
I use to reach for hands that woudl save me but it’s the stranger who critics my life that has best voice in my head.

When the band starts pack up
And the old ladies have made it the car
My friends text me “Where are you”
And my heart is silent sitting in the wind of my stomach…
And smear the make-up and I take the red nose off.
I text them like nothing ever happen
“I’m on my way”.
I lock the doors and drive next to the bk
Just to let the real play happen
My tears play the symphony
abs the music becomes the background
I shrink in the driver seat clutching my knees…
I’m not enough for you is written in cursive on my sleeve
Vivid old memories starts to bleed
I never meant for you to leave
I just wanted you to notice everything we did and now finding out the truth
I can’t even speak
I lost another from the intuitive voice that conquers the greed
I can do a million things for you but you can’t even acknowledge our anniversary
Who am I to you?
….nothing but wind that blow the trees

Today I’m feeling kinda low
Today I’m bottling my emotions
They’re not important right now
Today it’s all about moving forward
I’m not content
I’m not happy here
I’m not welcomed here
I need my own
I’m not resting until I see whaf I want
I’m not resting until I’m laying next to you
I made up my mind
I made up my road
These fake scenarios are not home no more
I’m evicting my own self
Im not going to rest until you are by me.

The taste of freedom is not to gulp,
Cause the work is never finished.
Maintaining is the cup an working is the substance.
Faith is the thing to hope for and evidence of things unseen.
Taking off your mask is vulnerable
But keeping it on will cloud the vision
My helmet was too tight
My knees were buckling
My chest piece was to heavy
And my shoes was mud.
Taking off the only things I knew was just not me
But every warrior knows that evolving without getting strong is risky
Late hours is nothing
Sleeping in is my toxic entity
Speaking about things and not doing it has been put far from me
Cause if I stay I won’t evolve into the better me

Is it over or has it just began
Are we moving or standing still
Not numb but not intense
Just us
That’s just it
Nothing but moment cause we both know how to burn down a city with just one kiss..
Let’s just cuddle and watch something that fits the description.
There you will find me and you just vibing to the sound of movie that were not even watching just to feel your skin on my skin…
And it’s just us
That’s just it
And I’m finding out
I love this ****

I don’t why I even try…
The rain is going to come even if I say no more
Abs the sun is going to rise to the occasion.
The birds are going to sing there song
And we are just going to lay beside us like lost dogs..
And yet I’m okay with a kiss on the lips
And yet I’m fine with rubs on my chest to tell me your day
And yet I’m in love with the way you get frustrated about politics
The way you look outside the window bothers me
And the way your lone wolf attitude eats me…
The crumbs I feed you is nothing but love
And my heart bleeding is the drink for you to stay quenched
And the times I get quiet and soak in my own silence…
Who would of known I’ll be caring with the coldest zodiac sign
But who would of thought you would need the warmest hugs cause of your own mind
I believe I’m becoming your remedy
Cause even when you wanna do it yourself
You ask me to open my heart so you can run from your own winters