"Did you loose weight?"
"You look so fit"
"I don't know what you did, but you look amazing"
"Man I wish I could look like you"

I stopped eating

not on purpose
but it was easier to pay rent
if I had 1 or 2 meals versus the normal 3

I started to loose sleep

Causing my mind to be on alert
and forcing my body to move
even when I am so tired

I just want to live
and yet I am punished for it
and praised for how good

sick looks on me

It’s been a matter of years now,
Each day stretches out slowly,
But I feel like I met you yesterday.
I can recall your smell,
The shape of you has been etched into my heart.
Your imprint lasting forever in its spongy composition.
You’re the only one I loved.
You’re the only one I love.
You will forever be my love.
It’s painful to except it,
But you are.

My brain runs
Tierd of sleeping
Tierd of the pain

And yet my body
Refuses to move

Simple things
So exhausting
Yet I can't sleep
For my brain does not brain right now