Writing of the Unknown

Dec 2023

Kelly Diaz

Luxury

Wanting to be in your arms
wanting to be with you
wanting to feel you
wanting to feel loved by you
is a luxury that I failed to protect
a luxury that I will never feel again
a luxury someone else will enjoy
I'm still in love with that luxury
I'm still in love with you

Writing of the Unknown Dec 2023

Perhaps once more, you could love me?

The desire to write is at my fingertips
my arms ache to paint
show the world what I hold in

my voice croaks to speak out
the words I swallow back

the "I miss you" that will never be heard correctly
the "I love you" that is gone
a empty grave
one must believes exist
just to live with hope

would it be too much
to ask to stand next to me once more
grant me the strength and love
I know is gone

but then again
I still love a ghost
the ghost who still lives

Writing of the Unknown Dec 2023

PTSD

Why do they come up
Why bring me back to the horror
Why make me remember
Why must these memories haunt me
only to leave me once more???

Writing of the Unknown Nov 2023

Oh to write

Simple words
effective meaning
such beauty
so easy

that would be a dream
type
speak
let loose all the words I believe
let them go
out into the world

for all to see
for all to love
for all to criticize
for all
to see me

Writing of the Unknown Nov 2023

A miracle wouldn't even be enough

Your voice against my ears
your scent once more filling my nose
The man you became
the strength you had
the kindness and wisdom for everyone
oh to see it once more
to experience it once more
Would be like seeing God in the flesh

funny how the mind of a shattered heart
thinks of the strangest things
that would fix it so easily

but there is only so much possible
in impossible
and sometimes
the life changing, heart mending thought
is that "im"

Writing of the Unknown Nov 2023

Calls and text can not make you stay

All the planning
makes my heart race
and the tears threaten to fall

but when asked if I wanted anyone with me
I thought of you holding me
letting me break once more
and know I would be safe enough to not be strong

"No, there isn't anyone to call"

Writing of the Unknown Nov 2023

It's ok

Take the breath
lay down your head
despite the tears I shed
Just relax
Your going to be ok
in a place with no pain
And when you see me above
and you see the held back scream
do not feel bad
or try to comfort me
for even though I shed the tears
I know your not in pain
and that is most important
is you being free
once and for all

For the one who saved me from the darkest monster of all, myself. Its ok Soxs, you'll be ok.