And that time we'd planned for you to meet my parents
You'd gotten so nervous
Drank so much,
Could barely speak to them
Luckily they were just on there way to a movie
You came inside once they'd left
You went to my room and stripped **** naked
Sprawled out on my bed
With the dumbest grin on your face
I wanted to tell you then that I loved you

It's 11:30 and it's just us
They've all gone to sleep
And though we've just met
We're like each 10 beers in and pretty invested in each other's company
I think we're both misunderstood
Kinda lonely people
Both lost
And we talk about whatever it is strangers talk about
We sit close
Both desperate for affection
We see something in eachother that we see in no one else
Dedication
We eventually give in and melt together
Since then been infused
Don't know when it started to spoil
But I wish it was like when you had me on the couch and we barley had a place to live and I was working and you were working harder and you ****** me like I'd never been ****** before
It was always like that
You were happy
So was I
Why did that stop?

There must've been a time we weren't arguing
But I just can't focus on those sweet moments
Seems as though those feelings will never return
Long lost in the past
I hate this
Hating you
Do I have an option?
This hurts
Us screaming
Telling truths that cutt
Using words that scar
We may be too far gone
I want to keep going
I'm running out of oxygen
Drowning
Trapped in denial
Just barely making it
When do I give up?