I'm confused
Why is it that gender plays such a huge role in life?
I'm starting to hate men and all that they are
Beginning to realize all that's evil
I see no right in who they are
What they stand for
Disgusting
I don't know why i'm having feelings like this
I've never thought this way before
Maybe because to a man its simple being a *****
Because a women's value is only so much as what the opposite *** sees them as
Am i wrong?
Maybe I am
Doesn't change the fact that i'm cringing when they look at me
Scowling when they talk
I wish i didn't feel this way
Id probably be allot happier
But its gross how they walk how they talk
I'm sorry. I don't understand anymore

As naïve I was
as harmless
he was wrong

As stupid I was
as careless
I was wrong

But if two wrongs made a right this wouldn't hurt so badly

And suddenly
He's all I see
All I need
I never thought I'd be happy again
With another
We
Eachother
Yes

****
It's seems like no matter how hard I vent
No matter how many words are spoken
How many words are typed
There is so much left unsaid
This is why its been so ******* hard to get over your ***
Please leave me alone ......
Please bother me?
Please
I'm so contradictive
But I swear if you asked me back
I'd cry and fall into your arms
I'm such a *****
Why can't I except you don't want me anymore?
Why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why does this hurt so much?
Did you really have to start this and end it so quickly?
Couldn't you have just told me how you really felt?
Why can't I stop crying?
These recurring dreams make waking up so much harder, ****!
I don't want them to end.........
There isn't much I'd honestly say if you were right here next to me.
Because I'm scared now of your rejection
And even though you say I made you happy
Deep down I know its some *******
Or maybe its not
But its easier to feel like you hated me
Because I hate me
And you made allot harder to understand men
To understand you
Even though you were already so complicated to read
I just wanna touch you one last time
*******
Slap you
Cry with you
I know there was something so much deeper between us that you weren't telling me
And now I'll never know
Just like these words you'll never know

Every night I stare into your huge brown eyes
Hoping that they'll never leave my locked gaze
I try and hold on but I know eventually you'll fade away
I keep on trying to hold on to your voice
But as the days go by I start to replace your voice with similar sounds
Like the sounds of the passing busses
The ones that passed us by while making love
at 3 am on the bus stop
I do remember your smell
So when I smell cheap ciggerettes and old spice deodorant it drives me nuts
Your touch is was gets me because I know I'll never feel this ever again
I'll never be reminded of how amazing this fealt
I never knew this would be so hard
So now I'm staring into your big brown eyes wishing so badly that this wasnt a dream
Wishing that somehow I'd run into you
Wishing that you'd realize you miss my sound miss my smell and miss my touch
Wishing you missed us