She kisses me sweetly
I kiss her back
I break her to pieces
But she still gives me love
I shove her in a glass bowl
And inhale
mmmm
Exhale
She embraces me
She fills me with magic
Makes me feel unstoppable
I know that when I'm gone
She'll bring me back
I know that when I want to get lost
She help me get away
She'll stay with me until the end
Wiping my tears
Holding my hands
Through the Years I know I'll be sane
Because I have my love
My MaryJane.

They tell me your a lie
They tell me your not as sweet as I know you are
They tell they're friends they love you
They tell me they hate you
They say your ugly
They say you smell
To me....
But I see nothing but greatness
Why do they want to steal you?
Why do they want to put you down?
I see you smiling
But I know deep inside your upset
You kiss with force
But no one see's this
They think I'm stupid that I'm wasting my time
Our fingers innertwine
As we joke about eachother
They say its not true
That your just using me
For what?
Kisses?
Amusement?
Extra baggage?
I'm not sure what to listen to
So I decide to listen to you
Though I hear whispers as I walk down the hall
I ignore them
And I think of your voice softly whispering in my ear
"Don't leave me Erin, your mine okay?"
I'm your's? I grasp tightly to those words
Though I know talk is cheap
Your sweet  expression is art
Worth millions
"I won't leave"
I whisper.

Your tricky,
But I continue to go along with your silly games
Pretending all I see is you
That I can't see your ugly
If you only knew
Your complextion, sweet like honey
Your eyes, piercing
But soft
I walk past you
as if I don't think about those eyes as soon as I wake
How can I let you know?
Am I suppose to let you in?
If I do, I know you'll hurt me
Not now, but maybe later
Your asking me to give you my heart
How?
Will you give me your's?
Do I even want yours?
Probably
So i'll wait
Untill the day you come to your senses
The day you realize that i'm all yours
That I want no one else
Even with your ugly
Even with your games
I can feel your sincerity
When you hold me
I can smell it
I want you to want me
But for now I want you , so
Pretend were just friends
Even though, when we kiss
We know we're more
Why comlicate a sweet thing?
I think to myself
Is all of  this worth it?

With Sweet words that capture my essence
I'll believe in you within your presence
clouds fill the depths of my mind
Best regaurds to the fact that im now blind
But I don't care, not right now
Surely I'll be regretful tomorrow?
Just hold me till it's too late if you're willing
Say the tings that make me smile
Even if its for a short while
Make me forget that this was a mistake
Let me think that its me that you want
Just me
Forgive me, i'm in to deep
Though i've tried treading in shallow waters
You've sadly almost caught me, was it easy?
I struggle to get loose
Your grip intoxicating
Breath like chloroform
Those soft touches burn, please don't stop
my insides crawl with amusement and fear captivates my soul
Though I know nothing good lasts an eternity
I cling to this moment ; never letting it fade
Forever burned into the side of my brain
When you kissed me with velevet

Your smiles that once filled me with happiness now fill me with regret
Not sure if you ever really felt the way I felt
You were my reason my excuse my existence
For some reason I believed you thought of me equally
My drug of choice
And I couldn’t get enough
Had to have you in the morning in the afternoon and in the night
And quite honestly I was blind I felt that what you were doing to me was perfectly alright
Little did I know you were poison sickening and deadly
Killing me a little more each time we’d cross paths
You make me feel filthy like I wasn’t worth anything
Like you never felt a thing
And now I can’t stop with the night terrors
The day dreams
Reminiscing, was it all a dream?
I catch you staring at me every once and awhile Do you miss me?
My palms get sweaty and my knees go weak
My body shakes
Hot and cold hot and cold
Get out  my head
Get out of my life
Stop ruining my sleep
Stop hurting me