What do I do if I love a girl?
So incredibly that I become speechless.
Am I putting too much emphasis and praise?
Are they as good, as amazing, as fantastic as I believe?
Do I lie to myself? Or is this the absolute truth?
That this one girl.
This girl is everything.
She is happiness,
Sadness,
hopefulness.
That this girl is:
Smart,
Funny,
And god forsaken annoying.
She has engulfed my world.
For she is now my everything.

But I couldn’t tell her.
                  It would ruin everything.

I don’t think I can take it.
Watching him flirt with you.
It’s unbearable,
unbelievable.
I just want to know what you think of him.
I’m envious of how close he can be,
the things he can do to you,
the things you do back.
I want that,
I want you
but it’s hopeless.
Nothing I can ever do will change your mind.
I’m trapped.
A place where I hopelessly love you
and you absolutely don’t
love me back.

I don’t think you quite understand me.
I don’t search your words,
I don't deep dive and analyse
dissecting, inspecting and scrutinise.
I read them
Because
they were right there.
Well crafted,
Rhythm and rhyme.
In truth I only read your poetry because it’s
simply sublime

Stop creating meaning
where meaning isn’t there.
I’ll try to put it as simply as I can.
Friends.
Nothing more,
Friends.
Nothing else.
Friends.

So no my entire world does not revolve around you.
I don’t wait and beg for things to change.
I am on the road to simply,
try and see if we.
If we,
Can ever become close friends again.
So for one last time.
To make sure things are clear.
friends.
do you now understand?