My pen to paper
I'll write something new
which is what
I seem to always do
but the poems vary
depending on mood
if I'm happy or sad
it's also true
but when I try to write about love
it always comes out wrong
even if I tried for so very long.

The way you address me
Is very important
You must think with care
But YOU,
You did not...
You should have know better
By now
But you're all too foul
Cause you,
still smell like death...

I want to make a giant splash,

not just a couple ripples.

I'll leave people soaked and stunned

at what I have done, for the better of

our crazy world.



I want to create an ocean,

not a small puddle.

People will swim in my legacy,

and remember how I tried to be my best.

I will not be forgotten with time.

I want to be Niagra Falls,

not just a couple of raindrops.

People will stand in my glory,

and reach out a hand

just to feel all the good I try to do.



I want to be someone's sun,

not just another star.

I want to impact millions of lives

in the most positive way I can,

but wehen it comes to the people

that are nearest to my heart,

I want to shine brighter than anything

else in their world.

Even after I've passed away,

they'll still see and need me

for them to survive each day.

There skin is soft as it is plush,

the shade of pink

when I make them blush.

They giggle and smile

when I touch there hand.


Oh how I love,

the way the fall for me...

with such grace.

Is to go to Paris
Enroll in an art college
And be free

Yes, I certainly do
And she's on this site too
Talking with her
Seems so grand
Only if we could meet
Hand in hand
She is not yet aware
Of my feelings for her
I care for the fact, she needs to know
But I'll just stare at the screen
Waiting for a reply...
And at night I'll say goodbye.

She opens her page,
Ink splashing from her veins,
Scoring into the paper,
The words she wishes she could say.

What a day this has turned out to be
My life has another catastrophe
My beautiful Mac has taken a dive
Something wrong with the hard drive.

Must get it fixed as soon as I can
Who do I call when in a jam
My son of course, off to Best Buy
Can it be fixed, they will try.

Today, I asked, with hope in my eyes
You have to be kidding, they replied
Don't call us, we'll call you
Accepted it, what else to do.

I am typing away on a small notebook
Its not too bad, take a long look.
My poems will be in a short supply__Wait for Mac, he's my guy.

She is scared,
Of this big bad world.
But she will stay strong,
Because she's a fighter...
But like her heart, she will break.

She bites
not hard
just enough
to leave a mark
showing
that I belong
to only her
and when
they start to fade
she'll bite again
never once
breaking skin.

I'm sorry world,
For the things I've done.
I'm sorry world,
For the pain I've caused...

I'm left alone at night,
In the dark I cry.
Thinking about the lies.
I've told to everyone,
Will I ever stop?

When it's leaving me distraught.
I can't think to blame,
'Cause it is no ones fault,
That I'm this way...

I fear the dark
yet i live within it
struggling to find my way
with the scene of life long decay
do they know
that i can not see
do they plot against me
mentally abused
It's always been used
it shall make me loose control
wanting a way out
but none shall prevail
to this never ending hell.

There is a woman,
just standing there,
with pain in her eyes,
not knowing,
where life lies.

She stares at me,
not saying a word,
even if she could.

You see,
she wears a mask,
and yet it burns,
her stare that is.

'Cause I don not know who "She" is?

The time on the clock
has no value
The interest in school
has lost its spark
The love of me
has lost its way
so what do i do now...

what do I do now
can you see
I've lost my way
when I chose
the path less traveled by
now I see,
into the darkness I travel,
then I realize I like it better there.

she gone again,
leaving me alone.
like a trained dog,
I wait for her...
with my tail between my legs.

Spikes on my collar
and slits on my wrists
I wish I was the girl
that she would miss
because love won't last
as our light grows dim
I'll be in the past
...While she's with him.

Math and numbers
just not my thing
it seems to keep confusing me
Art, music, and poetry.
now that's my thing
my life
my love
my whole existence
is there...
you can see it in my eyes
when I put my pen to paper
they seem to just light up.

<3 When  I write the world doesn't seem like such a bad place, anymore.

A feeling I never knew
That I drew in from you
Would be that I am feeling followed

Your darkness reaches deep
And I cannot lie and sleep
Without fear from the earth of being swallowed

And at first believed to feel
In your heart love was real
A wound you cut to deep has made me feel hollowed

I never knew I would get thru
The long cold dark nights from you
They would be the deepest part of this nightmare that followed

Like the look in your eyes
When caught by your surprise
Looking at a bottle of poison you just swallowed


I will never forget the look
From my eyes you took
From far behind the dark pit of your soul all cut out and hollowed

Her mind drew a blank
when she saw her mothers face
like a mirror
but never there
her mothers mind isn't right
her mother can't even fight
for her last
and only daughter
she didn't seem like a mother
spending money
on drugs and beer
her daughters life was not clear
when her daughter leaves
her mother only dreams
the time her daughter turns eight-teen
the daughter will try
and fix her things
cause the daughter has been scar'd
she'll think it's not that far
but soon she'll learn
you can not fix someone
who's soul is burned.

I can hear what you do because I have ears.
I can see what you whisper because I have eyes.
I can smell what you conceal because I have a nose.
I can taste what you offer because I have a tongue.
I can feel what you pretend because I have skin.

I have also a brain that tells me what is not what.
I have also a heart that loves that hates of it's own.

Why to explain if you are, who you are and how you are?
Look at me I don't explain yet you know who I am and how I am.

If I could paint the world again
I'd draw your hand in mine.
And never would I forget, my friend
The ways we shared our time.

I'd pour my ink on time and space
I'd never blink and never trace

A single star would light the sky
It'd always shine and never die.

And next I think I will provide
Another moon, to change the tide

But be warned and beware.
For I do not know,
The power I share
Is the power I hold.

And if I bring you back alive
Would everything turn out just fine?

Or would my stars turn into dust?
Is this my love or a dying lust?

And see the moons, they'll start to fade
I guess it's time to end charades.

So now I guess I'll say good bye
And wait for christ to fetch me.
But while I live, you know I'll cry
And die untill I reach thee. - See more at: http://allpoetry.com/poem/11645228-Id-Pour-My-Ink-by-L.C#sthash.Dm69z3LG.dpuf

She is gone again
but this time
she will not come back
I never wanted to remember
her like that
when I found her
my world stopped
the note told me
what she thought
that I no longer loved her
...but I didn't know it was love.

To her, I am perfect.
To her, I am beautiful.
And she sees no faults nor cracks.
She is mine,
to which I will never let go...

When he said that thing
it only made my ears ring
tears ran down my face
I ran to my room, a calm place
As my face grew red
my feelings had fled
'cause if he couldn't accept me
I might as well be dead.

As I cleanse my soul
with the blood of others,
As I lay somber
with the help of others,
I will find my way
through this fearsome maze
because it is all
just a game
whether I win or lose...

We all have a friend
Who's silver and shines
It pierces our skin
And draws the red lines

It leaves several scars
Over the years
But it lets out our screams
As well as our fears

It gives us relief
We need the sensation
But we keep it a secret
We hate the attention

Those perfect red lines
They become such a burden
But we do it anyway
Because we're tired of hurting

Some call us ******
But we know they're all wrong
They all know what to be
We don't know where we belong

We hide the scars
Under jackets and sleeves
Our loved ones don't know
The cuts stay unseen

We try to act fine
So no one'll know
But sometimes we slip
And the cracks begin to show

It's just a small cut,
It's just a harmless scar.
You don't know what goes through my mind,
When I'm alone in the dark.
It's just a deadly thought,
I'm just a forgotten memory,
Deep in my eyes,
My demons are all you can see.
It's just another night,
It's just my one last try,
If you're not here,
Might as well say goodbye.

I'm breaking
I can't be fixed
I'm missing
But I won't be missed

Still shaking
From what I fear
I can't let you in
So don't come near

I guess you're right
I'm way too thin
And I'm fighting a battle
That I'll never win

I have so many flaws
I don't know where to start
From my ****** up hair
To my ****** up heart

So what's the point
To continue to fight?
When my restless days
Turn into restless nights

This life hasn't been fair
I can finally tell
That nobody cares
And it hurts like hell

I still don't understand
What was God's cause?
Why did He put me on earth
With all of my flaws?

Was I born just to die?
Am I part of a plan?
Made to finally see
That I won't die an old woman.

I don't know how to live
I have nothing to gain
And all I want from you
Is to end all my pain

I'm losing sight
Of what I've already seen
I'm losing my grip
And I'm barely fifteen

Bloodied nightmare’s torturing the mind
Constantly injected with more than lie’s
Torn up inside from the soulless demons

Monsters posing as those wishing to help
Always silencing the righteous and true
The truly insane aren't inside this place

The mentally insane are normal and average
Acting as everyone else would but, not always
Having joyful pleasure’s through others pain

****** deep into the darkness of suffering
No hope of escaping the shadows that swarm
As they grasp onto your very soul, dragging you

Down into the very depths of this hellish place
(Ghost9er)

Why?
For what reason, if there's on at all.
If you truly have fallen for me,
Show me... in any way you see fit.
Cause few have fallen for me,
While I've done nothing
to be loved
So strongly by another.
But if you have fallen for me...
Please, bring it to my attention,
And tell me.

its funny that you think I have a heart <3
but the fact is I don't
it was torn from me
when I was just a little girl
in fact I don't remember it ever being there.

As I sit in my corner and think about your lies,
I have nothing else to do but break down and cry.
You knew it would end,
You knew it would die,
You knew one day we’d have to say goodbye.
You told me you loved me,
You told me you cared
But the rage inside had slowly flared.
The moments we shared replay in my head
Along with all the sweet lies you said.
You thought it was a game
You thought you’d win
But in the end you felt nothing within.
Deep down inside there was a big empty space
That I now realize you couldn’t replace.
Something about you helped me see
That without love I’m finally free.
Free from pain,
Free from lies,
Free from having tear filled eyes.
Without your love I finally see
All the horrid things you’ve come to be.

Love is lost
but at what cost
to my fragile soul
with my mind withering away
why can't it all,
just be a game?

I have a fear,
the fear of darkness.
But, i learned long ago;
when I was little.
How to drive the darkness away,
with nothing but a little light.

I guess it makes me different
Cause I have to take medication
I guess it makes me act
Cause when I forget to take it
I freak out
They say I have anxiety disorder
Because of my past
Which means my mother
It to me doesn't seem so bad
But then again I took my meds...

Help,
I'll say it
but only in my mind.
I need help,
but that
will never be said.
They go on,
while I'm slowly
losing control.
The pain I cause
on others,
I'll inflict on myself.
not for attention,
but as punishment.

Things I forgot to say;

I don't mind the wait
Or the fact that your straight
'Cause I hope over time
Your feelings will change
And if they don't I'll be fine
We will stay friends
And our lives will go on