I used to write like I was running out of time

Some days my soul feels so poor it doesn't have a dime

I'm still pouring poison into my soul

My mind used to be as sharp maybe it's grown dull

I still pursue my God

He guides my life and where I trod

But lately I keep struggling trying to put him there

At the top of this barren fair

He invested so much in me

Was it all a waste?

I feel like a patriot in Boston dumping that tea

It wasn't in me, his faith was placed

I know his faith is in himself shining through me

If my future is blown from my past

He is not to blame

I was so lost in my own world
When I lost my balance
And ran out of talents
I noticed the world zooming away
As I swept past the stars
Into a new place that was above par
I felt the warm sensation
Of the gravity fixation
I saw new worlds beyond the stars
I came to a place beyond all time and space
I saw everything in unison like a clock chime
I flew threw the sun
And saw what was done before it began
Colors flew bye as I ran
Then I closed my eyes as I felt the thrill of running through this strange dimension
Then I opened my eyes
Turned over and got out of bed
And realized that my mind didn't see the impossible
My imagination could just predict the future that is possible
When man finally completes the impossible and
Takes to the stars

When I look into the skies of the night

All I see is an ocean

An ocean of stars

An ocean of galaxies

An ocean of star clusters

An ocean known as the universe

It rips and flows by the laws of gravity

Stars exploding and being born

Asteroids flying as fast as light

Galaxies of solar systems

With moons dancing around planets

In a heavenly dance

Only Godly hands could send these tides of gravity into this dance

This ocean of space is an ocean of beauty

Why is it after so many years of eating sand
I finally had a drink of water
And my heart wants to return to the sand
But I learned from my mistakes
I see the pain and hurt it caused
I gave up the sand for water
And when I did my tears reigned upon the altar
I sacrificed my false gods that day yet they still call me
So I set my eyes upon Jesus
He will pull me through this
He will give me the strength when mine is spent
Years after the day he crushed the addictions they still call my name
They still scream my name
And It awakes a demon in me
I wish people could see the filth that is in my heart of weakness
People tell me of my spirit for my Father
But every time I look at myself I want to spit
Because all I'll ever see is a godless beggar
Among Godly men

Every day I walk through an ocean
It looks so beautiful
But that's before you see the dangers
The sharks look so peaceful
Before a fish swims by
Then it rips it apart

Every day I walk through a pretty school with whitewashed walls
Fulls of guys and girls
Have nothing left to lose
The girls want love
So they give the guys what they want
The guys are like an ox going to the slaughter
They don't know their doom is immanent
It tastes so sweet but it burns so deep
Those halls are full of seduction
Which will lead to destruction

You can't burn the past but you can leave it behind.

If anyone is in Christ

He is a new creation


They are restored and cleansed

And they have access to new strength

Sin is strong

But greater is he living in me

Then he is living in me then he who is in the world

He left his home to fight for his country

He left his children and his wife

He gave everything he had to his country

He was sent to Iraq to fight for his home

Days and nights, he ran through gunfire

Checking the ground for bombs

Watching his brothers and sisters die next to him

Then one day he was captured and tortured

He remained in captivity until he was freed by his comrades

He was beaten, abused and tortured

All he thought of were his children and his wife

All he thought about was what would happen if he never came home to them

He knew his duty to his country

He also knew his duty to his God and his family, they came first

All he knew was he was coming home no matter what

He was beaten so badly so many times he should've died time and time again

But all he thought about was coming home to the ones he loved

When he was freed

He was given an honorable discharge and allowed to go home

He will never forget the horrors he faced and watched others face

He will also never forget the happiest day of his life

When he came home to his children and his wife

The tears that soaked his shirt as his wife ran to him and cried as she clung to him

He would never forget his children who had grown a head taller, cling to him and their mother

This is the story of the lone soldier

Hormonal creatures that are lead by emotions is what we're called

Teens just looking for that next fix of dopamine

The truth is when we follow our emotions

They send us scattering in motion

If you don't lead your emotions

Then your emotions will lead you

We were given minds of logic and reason

Don't accept what you're told go out and find answers for yourself

Find the truth to fuel your mind

Don't try to fill your life with feel good fantasies

Don't just follow

Lead

But remember that the greatest leaders

Are also followers

Doesn't give his children what they want
He gives them what they need
He doesn't abandon them
He doesn't lie
He fights for his children
He helps them grow
He loves with all he has to give
God is the greatest father

If everyone I loved hated me

If everyone abused me and hurt me

If everyone I loved died in front of me

If everything I ever cared about was ripped from me

If I had no more fight left to give

Would I still love you Father?

So many people that I love are being left out to dry

I know you forge us in fire

Sometimes the fire burns

So many are being beaten and abused

Father I know that this isn't you

Father I wish that it was me instead of them

Dear God all I can tell anyone that comes to me is this

"How much heat is your faith able to take?"

Sometimes I have to tell myself

It's you over everything

HOW MUCH HEAT IS IT GONNA TAKE FOR MY FAITH TO MELT!!

Dear Jesus I tried so hard to run but God wouldn't let me

How far would those I love go before they forsake you?

Dear Jesus cling to them

Dear Father don't let go

Father, the only way we can stand the test is with you

Imagine driving down the road one day
And all of a sudden you spin out of control on the icy road
Then your car flips into a ditch
Your body is found later by the police
Today I learned that a kid who went to my high school spun out of control and his car flipped into a ditch
He was only 17 years old
He was a junior in high school
I saw him sometimes in the hall
I knew who he was
He was a good kid
He was an athlete he had a future going for him
Then all of a sudden
His life ended
In an instant
You see you never know when your life could change
In a Flash
Are you ready for that change??

Wrote on the tablet of history

And formed my very being

I will not give in

If the devil wants my heart

If he wants my soul

If he wants me to drop my weapons

He'll have to pull them out of my cold dead hands

God allowed the devil to try to break me

But He can't have my soul

He can't have my weapons

He can't have my heart

Unless he pries them from my cold dead hands

We float gently across the waters
We are individuals yet we make up an ocean
Sometimes we crash and were violent
Because our life at times is peaceful
Then it's rolled up into a tube and turned into the surf
We fail to see the big picture
That we are just a wave in an ocean of waves

Run

Run from sin

Run from the lie that states the homosexual movement is right

Run from the lie that states we can take God's creation and spit on it

Run from adultery

Run from immorality

Run from deceit

Run from pride

Value you each other

Follow Biblical precepts

Fall onto the Grace of Christ

This isn't a hate speech to

homosexuals or gays/lesbians

Adulterers

Liars

Thieves

Gluttons

Or those who think they know better then God

This is the warning that says to run and repent from sin because it will **** your soul

Run from sin and into the arms of Christ

The reason I must speak is because if I don't who will tell you that you're running straight into Hell and there is a way out

I can't allow someone to blindly run into suicide when I know they can be saved.

The key

Is the faith in the God who said he would lead you through

Immovable

Unbreakable

Endless

Unstoppable

Unshakeable

Is the power of prayer

So many followers of Christ wonder why hardships happen to them
Here's the answer
We weren't promised an easy life full of ease and luxury
We were promised a life of hardships
A life of persecution and struggles
But that wasn't all we were promised
We were promised a life of satisfaction
A life of joy
A life worth living
We were promised that we would be led through every struggle
Every pain
Every hardship
Every strife
Every hurt
Every bout of depression
Every bout of anxiety
Every struggle
Has a solution
Has a way out
Has a hope
Has a reason
So bring it on
My God will lead me out
My God will lead me through

I don't know where I'm at

I just keep floating through life

Had some plans that changed

I don't know where to go from here

I've never walked out on this ocean before

I just don't know anymore

Humanity is just ******* on time

It's a poison to the soul

We just keep trying to make every moment last

Like we control time

I'm tired of ******* in this poison of sin

I'm tired of thinking that I am perfect

I just wish we could just wash out the poison

So much knowledge to find

So little time to learn

So many people to teach

So little time to reach

When you see someone

Do you see them for who they are

Or do you see their skin tone?

Do you see their figure?

Do you see their muscle mass?

Do you see their body or them?

"Keep your eyes on the stars, and your feet on the ground."

                                           -Theodore Roosevelt

My heart is clenched
Like a fist

It felt broken

But what was once broken

Has now been healed

I came to you today

With a sincere heart

I haven't come in a while

I ask you would forgive me

Every time I come before you

All I can ever think

Is to come on my knees

It doesn't take long

When I look around everything all looks wrong

The deeper into the dirt so many of us crawl in the farther we think we can escape the light

But I tell you that we must walk in the light so that the world can change

This world is missing the greatest miracle that ever happened

It's salvation

Why run from the beauty of salvation

To a bunch of fake mirages that look like pleasure

I have an assured promise in Jesus

Heaven

I need no other argument

I need no other plea

It is enough that Jesus died

And that he died for me

You just got crushed again

You gave in to the false lies

You ran to the mirage for water

Instead of the pure river

You let yourself get trampled by the devil

Many look up to you for leadership

Many believe you to be some kind of saint

Maybe they just don't want to believe what color you've been painted

Are you going to let the devil to continue to play with your mind till there's nothing left for him to capture?

You were just pushed to the ground

Are you just gonna lie there and let him kick you and beat you down?

Get up

Get up and fight like you're going to lose everything?

Can't you see the devil's eyes?

Do you see what he's doing to you?

Do you see what he'll take if you continue to let him beat you like an abused puppy?

Stand up and call upon Christ

Show that devil where he stands

Get up and fight!!!!!!

I'm surrounded by skirmishes

Blood is ankle deep

Comrades who gave up the fight

Comrades who are still fighting

My friends who grow weary from the shadow of battle

Demons who think they can slaughter God's children

Like wolfs that devour sheep in the night

But these sheep were given swords

I'm sick of shouting to people I love like brothers

DON'T GIVE UP!!

DON'T LET HIM WIN!!

DON'T YOU DARE LET THE DEVIL WIN!!

My brothers gave their lives to the cause of Christ

Yet I'm surrounded by brothers and sisters like me

Who are so plagued by sin and the darkness that we wish we could just pull the trigger and let it all end

Yet it wouldn't end

I refuse to give the devil a chance to get what he wants

First because I love my God and others here on earth

Second because I've got streak of stubbornness that doesn't give up ground souly out of spite

I will not throw away a gift others died for

Brothers and sisters

GOD GAVE YOU A SWORD PICK IT UP AND SWING!!

Yes there's a war raging and you are called to arms

Don't let Satan get what he wants to take when Jesus has so much he wants to give

Pick up that Bible and read

I know sometimes it's hard

I struggle too

I've been where you're at and it's at those times

I remember the Holy Ghost lives in me

Jesus already won the war and the devil wants to create an illusion of his victory

God the Father stands watch over me and he put the sword in my hand

The Holy Ghost gave me the spirit of courage

GOD GAVE US THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT SO PICK UP THAT SWORD AND FIGHT LIKE YOU'VE NEVER MOVED BEFORE!!

SLASH THROUGH THE ILLUSIONS!!

STAB THROUGH THE TEMPTATIONS

BASH THROUGH THE TRIALS

ACCEPT CHRIST INTO YOUR SOUL AND THERE'S NOTHING THAT CAN STOP YOU WHEN HE IS WITH YOU!!!

The battle is raging all around

But we aren't fighting for victory

You see Jesus already won on the cross

We merely fight from the victory

Different shades

All beautiful.

Men and Women

Differences in fashion

Differences in social behavior

Different treatment of each one

All different

All beautiful.

If we take masculinity and femininity and tell our society that those differences are ugly, it's like blending every color into the same shade.

There will be no beauty

There will be no value.