You keep making these silent cries

I see the sadness in your eyes

I know you feel so much pain

But through it all

I know you may only see us as friends

But to me you are my brother

So keep on fighting

You can count on me to lend you my hand

When you struggle cry out to your God

And wait with patience

Never forsake the Lord your God

He will never fail you

I know you may not always be able to see him

It's so dark down here

But he's here

Call his name and he will answer

He tried to chain me

He tried to shackle me with temptations

He tried to pressure me into submission

But Jesus came and broke my chains

Then they kept coming back

Thinking I'd allow myself to get chained again

No matter how many times Satan tries to take me down

He will never destroy me

He can't touch me without my fathers permission

You thought you had me

You thought you could take me with you

But Jesus gave me the strength to thrive on the pain you gave

What doesn't **** me makes me stronger

And you can't **** me

But this strength doesn't come from me

I will stand with my father

His strength makes me unstoppable

You may as well melt those chains

Because you and your demons got no other use for them

How far can we sink?

How dark can it get?

How cold can it feel?

Before we realize we need someone to pull us up?

The more I see this ocean the more I hate it

It looks clear and blue on the surface

But below lies a couple riptides

Sometimes they pull me away

Sometimes I don't know which direction the shore is

I don't want this ocean

It's full of dark caverns of guilt

Large valleys of shame

Tall mountains of pain

Currents of temptation

I need a savior to rescue me

I need my God to pull me out of here

He's shown me the wonders he has in store for me

I know he will save me

From the deep waters

Don't let him do it

Don't let him break you

Don't let him taunt you

Don't listen to his lies

Don't listen to the temptations

He was given kingship of this world

But my Father allowed him that kingship

Don't let him beat you ******

He wants you to feel worthless

He wants you to feel purposeless

He wants to exhaust you

He hates you

You walk under the name of your Father

Which means he will do everything he can to destroy you

He hates you

PICK UP THAT SWORD!

DON'T GIVE IN!

NEVER GIVE UP!

I don't want this

I don't want to be on a pedestal

I don't want to have opportunity to grow my ego

You see the higher you are the harder you fall

I feel like I keep falling but someone keeps putting me up on a pedestal

I feel like I'm a painting on display

Only someone painted over my cracks and faults

Jesus you are the master painter

I know you don't hide my faults

You restore them

But I don't want to have this delusion of a pedestal

I don't want to think I'm on one

I don't want to stand on one

I never liked being the center of attention

It always made me nervous

But God you called me to speak for you

I don't want to twist your words to make them something they're not

Dear Jesus

You stand tall

Put me in the back where no one can see me

I wish I could do better

I wish I was better

I wish I could be enough

I wish I didn't constantly replace my God for pieces of rock

But you see

I have this problem that I struggle with

My heart is a heart of flesh

It follows after the shiniest things it sees

It is prone to wander