If I can only muster the words, the guts to tell you.
If I can say it easily without being cowardice with those velvet eyes.
You see I’m a man of my words but I also get tongue tied.
So please be kind and tell me how you feel about me cause it’s making me nuts.
Some, will you just say it. Just be you. Tell her what you feel.
But you see when things get hard, I always ******* ***** things leaving me blank.
I’m just afraid.
Afraid of rejection,
And telling you how I feel is just an option.
Look at me a coward, simple words but I can’t tell you,
I maybe be a coward will not tell you how I feel but deep inside I’m The Who cares loves  you more than you know.
prayed for you when someone else wouldn’t.
I’m afraid.
Afraid that I’ll be a burden, a person that will not give what you want, be what you want.
But I promise you even if this love is unrequited I’ll still care cherish you the most and be the man you’ll run even if it’s against the world.

The feeling's I knew started to come true,
in every dark corners it brews,

Screaming but the words can't make it through.

A kind of torture where you
Chained the truth,
To create something new.

created a contract where the night will only knew,

Where tears fall to admit it's deepest hue.

May be its the smile,
The maybe's or the joke.

It's getting heavy,
It starts to Conquer me.

Love is not a test,
Then why cheat?

Slept again last night with a heavy heart, and it felt normal-ish

Our story started as a fairytale and ended as the most unexpected unhappy ending.

DREAMS ARE ALWAYS ACCOMPANIED BY DISAPPOINTMENTS

We once known the meaning of happiness and how it makes us feel we own the world.

I’m scared that someone will fill up those         solitudes of mine, that emptiness.
I’m scared on what’s next.

Is it enough,
Just to love ?
Is it enough,
just live to fullest?
Is it enough?

Moving on isn’t forgetting,
Moving is being able to remember without hurting.

We once known what was the meaning of happiness, and how it makes us feel we own the world

Until that smile fade and all out expeditions had gone down a face were once filled with compassion and love now it's just a dull run down pile

I suppose the world will run out of time, maybe the failure of the past can change and the future can unfold it's story

For these memories we shared, the happiest feeling we felt will be a Memento as we part our ways in the abyss.

When you care bout things, it always ends up wearing you out.

As I open my eyes everything was new,
As I start to hear;
things so unusual from the silence I knew
Each step lead to countless try’s,
to call the person.
I really know who carried me till I grew,
Further efforts made a breakthrough;
I can laugh, walk and even scream like a fool...
Till now she’s always there,
She always understands;
She always forgives;
She always protects me;
Even though I’m strong enough to stand on my own.

"I wanted you to love me, but I don't think you will."
Oh! How have I longed to tell you these words still.
No matter how scared I am of the answer,
My overflowing feelings is the only thing that is clear.

Putting these emotions to words is so frightening,
But somehow I can't stop from smiling.
The happiness brought by our encounter,
Kept me praying for it to last forever.

I wanted to look into your eyes,
But my eyes were filled with cowardice.
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me,
And live the rest of my life sad and lonely.

So that day, I kept loving you without getting hurt.
Because I knew, my feelings won't ever be returned.

When you notice that you always smile even Though it's too much
When you always say I'm fine when it's breaking,
When you say sorry even Though it still Aches,
When you deny your real self to someones help
When you convert all the frustrations to Madness, So, they won't notice it affects you more,
When you  burst into tears just to feel normal when you drink too much with your friends make them think you're too strong to handle all the liquor but deep inside you drink to Mend all the Heartaches and pain.

Light will come and find you someday,
You won’t have to struggle to breathe everyday.

I keep my hopes up, knowing one day
One day.. happiness will fill my emptiness inside.

My sweet serendipity;

Today my Neverland seems to be dark and cold,
the forest got scarier and all the fireflies been hiding for quite a long time.
But I can do is accept it,
it feels like hell driving your own life to its course, but you have always a choice right?
Either you turn left or right and yet still feel the same.
Telling myself to live life to the fullest, pleasure all the given moments, I think  you call  it being happy,  but all this memento of happiness will just shatter, all it takes is just a single pain maybe its small but grows in a nick of time,
I insured my myself all this tiresome **** will be gone it only needs a rest. Each night would feel a torture thinking all the Stupidest things that I did.
  Just wiping the tears away telling myself I'm strong just like God planned,
  i just woke up feeling that I couldn't handle it anymore, but again i still have a choice it's either be threatened by myself or I could disappoint all my demons.
Each day i  start to seek all my strenght and will to go on, searching  someone to talk maybe have some a little bit of company or rather have someone that can do a little saving.
silly me been  expecting too much from people again.
Cause nowadays people often see you as normal in every aspect happy and Kickin, little do they know I'm broken, too far broken.

I wish I have the guts to ignore you,
just like how you’d muster to Ignore me.

Lately leaving doesn't matter anymore;

She’ll rise, against the odds with a head strong attitude and a good knocking smile.

Why can't I find the right words to express this mind breaking feeling.