When you notice that you always smile even Though it's too much
When you always say I'm fine when it's breaking,
When you say sorry even Though it still Aches,
When you deny your real self to someones help
When you convert all the frustrations to Madness, So, they won't notice it affects you more,
When you  burst into tears just to feel normal when you drink too much with your friends make them think you're too strong to handle all the liquor but deep inside you drink to Mend all the Heartaches and pain.

Today my Neverland seems to be dark and cold,
the forest got scarier and all the fireflies been hiding for quite a long time.
But I can do is accept it,
it feels like hell driving your own life to its course, but you have always a choice right?
Either you turn left or right and yet still feel the same.
Telling myself to live life to the fullest, pleasure all the given moments, I think  you call  it being happy,  but all this memento of happiness will just shatter, all it takes is just a single pain maybe its small but grows in a nick of time,
I insured my myself all this tiresome **** will be gone it only needs a rest. Each night would feel a torture thinking all the Stupidest things that I did.
  Just wiping the tears away telling myself I'm strong just like God planned,
  i just woke up feeling that I couldn't handle it anymore, but again i still have a choice it's either be threatened by myself or I could disappoint all my demons.
Each day i  start to seek all my strenght and will to go on, searching  someone to talk maybe have some a little bit of company or rather have someone that can do a little saving.
silly me been  expecting too much from people again.
Cause nowadays people often see you as normal in every aspect happy and Kickin, little do they know I'm broken, too far broken.

Do you even find yourself, do you even try?
Can even figure it out that you lost every pieces of you?
Stop fooling around, stop saying you lost you instead start finding the way out of the abyss.

Yung feeling na andito naman sila para sayo, pero hindi mo padin maramdam.

It’s not about always taking the risk, it’s about how both parties endure it.

Would you want me to take you?
To be free of sadness and loneliness too?
You precious one. You forgotten how..
How lovely it is to be merry now.

Those dark dull eyes of yours,
How agonizing to gaze at my eyes with no remorse,

Nothing could be reflected at all.
Lifeless.. where you have locked up your soul.
Light will come and find you someday,

You won’t have to struggle to breathe everyday.
Don’t give up the journey called life.
Soon you’ll find the joy of being alive.

Lost and lonely under my midnight sun.
Staring at the ocean,
drowned with  my thoughts,
thinking all the words to help myself to continue to make it work.

If I can only muster the words, the guts to tell you.
If I can say it easily without being cowardice with those velvet eyes.
You see I’m a man of my words but I also get tongue tied.
So please be kind and tell me how you feel about me cause it’s making me nuts.
Some, will you just say it. Just be you. Tell her what you feel.
But you see when things get hard, I always ******* ***** things leaving me blank.
I’m just afraid.
Afraid of rejection,
And telling you how I feel is just an option.
Look at me a coward, simple words but I can’t tell you,
I maybe be a coward will not tell you how I feel but deep inside I’m The Who cares loves  you more than you know.
prayed for you when someone else wouldn’t.
I’m afraid.
Afraid that I’ll be a burden, a person that will not give what you want, be what you want.
But I promise you even if this love is unrequited I’ll still care cherish you the most and be the man you’ll run even if it’s against the world.

He himself has a cell, it’s been always in the dark,
chained by his own desire.
As a penance, In order to make it look like nothing’s falling apart.

I wanted to be all the things you ever loved,
But it seems like everything you love is a bargain for something else.

Vices are just outlets,
Tears are regrets,
Silence is an answer,
Dying was an option,
Anxiety is the bullet,
Depression is the trigger,
Death was the antidote.

She was beautiful, but not like other girls,
She was strong like the trees in the mountains range,
She was beautiful on the way she fills up some peoples emptiness that even she cannot do to herself.
She wasn’t beautiful with that mask of her,
She is beautiful because of the silver linings in her back and clutch right through the heart.

When I die tonight, the moon will be my guide, the stars will be my wake,
Rest assured I’m in safe hands so don’t worry about me anymore.

I don’t know what more can I do, I’m still a failure will always be.
I always thought I can escape my own nightmares,
I thought I can.

Some things will get broken, and as a result you’d never be able to see the world the way it used to be.

Slept again last night with a heavy heart, and it felt normal-ish

When you care bout things, it always ends up wearing you out.

Love is not a test,
Then why cheat?

I keep my hopes up, knowing one day
One day.. happiness will fill my emptiness inside.

Moving on isn’t forgetting,
Moving is being able to remember without hurting.

Sweetie, a love where no one gets hurt doesn’t exists.

I was trapped in that nightmare again, my nightmare didn’t happen just once.

If can just fabricate my own thoughts, my own love, my own you. Maybe it will be more easier.

You’re close yet so far, I have a lot to Say
but guess the words don’t mean too much,

Light will come and find you someday,
You won’t have to struggle to breathe everyday.
Don’t give up the journey called life.
Soon you’ll find the joy of being alive.

Would you want me to take you?
To be free of sadness and loneliness too?
You precious one. You forgotten how..
How lovely it is to be merry now.

After all the things you've done,
I really tried, I really do Just to understand you.
But it's the heartache that doesn't go away