I have tried
To become someone good
Someone ambitious and proud
All that did was leave me on the ground
Sad and complete with despair

What to do with myself next
Is the next quest
In my life...

You lead me to a waterfall
Filled with purity and flowers
Draining down the sorrows
From the season

You lead me to a beautiful scenery
Of gardens and clear skies

Now that I am here
You've suddenly left
And everything around me
Is folding back up,
Disappearing...
And taking me with it

When everything was new
I had hope that it would stay
The way I thought you wanted it
The way that I wanted it

With everything now that has changed
I can't help but miss the past
As I want it here again
But better and more everlasting

Though I don't think that is possible now
Because you've drifted away with time
And you didn't want to stay
And enjoy the connections of something Real

Tearing myself down
In public where all can see
They join in as they watch
My own self-image fade

For a reason unknown
For a reason that repeats

Hoping I can yet again
Sprout something new
That will once again
Lead me to disappointment

Hard work never truly pays off
When the people you love
Won't show the love back

Trying to escape - yet run back to what
I need

Friends only want to talk
When they need to take a walk
And rant about their drunken ideas
And feelings

As if I myself don't have any feelings
Of my own

What pleasure do they get
From being a bad friend?

Dedicated, I am
To others
But they don't know me
At all

They know nothing of me
Even though I share it all

They push me to the side
Repeatedly
Even when I am overwhelmed
And plagued with pain and sorrow.