Violet Sea

Violet Sea Jan 2019

I live and see within two dimensions
The past
And the illusions of today

1/5/2019
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Violet Sea Jan 2019

I am indeed
Overwhelmed by all the great
And intriguing things
About you

My mind doesn't feel the need to
Lie
Or hide
Not yet, at least

I don't want to lie to you
I don't want to hide inside myself
And run

But I don't think your realize this
So alas I must be silent
And wonder for myself
While looking out at the blooming world
Around us

1/4/2019
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Violet Sea Jan 2019

Before the Storm...

I wish you could see
That whenever my world fills
With tranquility
That I am indeed
Waiting to burst
With flammable
Feelings
You can't cure

I wish I could see
The calm before the storm
The up before the down
But alas it fools me as well
With feelings
I can't cure

1/1/2019
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Violet Sea Dec 2018

Woman

This is what they mean
I guess
When they say to stand tall
And be a woman about it

I can only hear my ancestors
The women guiding my own soul
There for me, touching my shoulder
Nodding with sympathy

Grow strong
Accept that god set this up
Set this up to tear you down
And try not to drown
As you weep the night away...

12/30/2018
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Violet Sea Dec 2018

Effect of Words

The words
They hit me
So hard
I suddenly feel icy coldness
Race throughout my veins

Such sorrow arises
I just want to cry
And fall weak to the floor

The power of words
Can be so confrontational
Why would my mind allow them such power?
When they so commonly are used against me

12/29/2018
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Violet Sea Dec 2018

Ballad of my Life

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I know
No one had cared
and I know now
No one cares

My heart tugs at itself
Desperately wanting
Some closure from the others
Because I can't provide enough

I feel so much for the past
And present of others
Because I know real pain
And I know real suffering

But to keep my own
Past and present covered up
Is what bothers me most
About life

They have always pushed me
Into solitude - just me and the issues
That weren't even my fault to begin with

They keep all my secrets there
But for years and years I've been banging
and Banging on the door
All I've ever wanted is for someone
Just someone
To open it, and at least accept
and Listen
To who I was, Who I am, and Who I strive to Be
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12/29/2018
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Violet Sea Dec 2018

I wish ...

I wish I liked myself
The way I like others

I wish I would look forward
To the events in my own life
As much as I do
The lives on the screen

I wish I could be the way
I always meant to be
Without the tainted hate
Seeping in from others

I wish I liked the world
The way others seem to

12/27/2018
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