Once they know you for too long
They stop caring

Once I know them for too long
I start caring

They turn away and I turn to
I make them walk away
So I can stray alone in my sorrow

Self-sabotage is
The idea that I do this
To myself

They all attack me
Coming from all angles
But they don't wound me
No, only I can do such a thing

They paint a picture
But I enlarge it
Hiding behind the brush
Just to be splattered upon the canvas

Hiding
Screaming
To myself
Would not want to
Disturb the people
I've known for too long....

violet sea
arises the violence in me
directed towards everyone
that may cross the path

violet sea
washes away all the possibility
that i too may be
something greater than wrath