"I think i'll take the iced caramel macchiato please"

Dark brown eyes and a furrowed brow look down at me

I type the order into my order screen, nervous to look up and suddenly wondering if there's any strands of hair out of place

"Anything else?' I ask

He doesn't say anything, concentrating on the menu directly above my face

"Any good pastries?" He asks slightly smiling

"I love our muffins but our cheese danish's are also really good." I smile back

"Ok, I trust you. Ill take a muffin please."

"Of course."

"If its not good, I'm going to have to come back you know?"

A smile spreads across my cheek and a slight red tint exposes itself
We were definitely flirting at this point

I looked at you,  
as I often do,
and I could feel your gaze,  
a warmth so deep it wrapped around my soul.  
It wasn’t just a glance
it was the sun, beaming,  
breaking through every guarded corner of me.
I felt it- I really did
my heart pounding in time with yours
I swear, in that moment,  
my eyes weren’t just looking—  
they were spilling over,  
filled with tiny shards of my heart,
overflowing with everything I couldn’t say

I’ll never forget that look of pain—
stained in my mind,
like bleach on black cotton

The unbearable depth of your eyes
imparted that anguish
straight into my soul

sometimes i dream
im far far far away

out of this home

out of the red light

in a peaceful bubble

away from the scrutiny of religion

away from the decaying love within my home
the one that has been dead since i was 12

My words for you go beyond
any poem I could dream of writing

It’s frustrates me to encapsulate my thoughts and feelings for you
into few lettered words and expressions

How I feel for you goes beyond
anything I have felt in the past
& I hope it transforms with you in the future

I hope we grow eternally
I hope we become annoyingly in love
I hope people get sick of us
I hope we have a specific table in a restaurant that we always go to
I hope we have lifetimes of inside jokes
& I hope we hold hands even when we fight

I pray that the thin glass between us only becomes clearer but it just makes us more beautiful to each other

something inside me soothed when I met you
I can’t compare it to anything else

it was like my heart became malleable like clay softening

the ridges on my forehead settled

my nightmares turned into dreams

i started noticing flowers instead of rocks on my walks

days that felt cold began to feel warm

you brought warmth to my life. you didn’t erase my pain but like warm soup against a irritated throat, you soothed it. my pain was bearable because of you. It feels like I could face life because of you, an unmatched feeling.

they say the grass is always greener on the other side

I say, ‘while I think my side looks brown, I will water it till it’s green’

and that’s

that’s something I look forward to doing everyday