Flashing Lights
Pink glow stick on my wrist
Blue on yours
You take my hand and spin me
'round and 'round
We collapse into one another
Being with you is always a win
My favorite boy
My best friend
From dancing at PRIDE
to laying on the couch
We always meld
Near or far
No matter our fights
I'll keep sending my love
Because you send my heart
'round and 'round

A fun day
the four of us
a couple
and us
two strangers
sitting on the couch
a controller shared between us
the echoes of our laughter
bounce off those four walls
your shoulder leans against me
my stomach drops
with eyes wide as saucers i look at you
a relaxed smile
warm brown eyes
    What is this?
       I don't want to feel this
         My heart is running a mile a minute
           The lies of ex lovers circles through my head
         Deep breath in
        This is nothing, i feel nothing

I’m fine
          I’m dying inside
I’m not hungry
          I don’t deserve to eat
He was a good guy
          He ***** me

I feel everything
I feel nothing
All at once
It hits me
I
Am
Broken
Everything is a sham
I try and I try
And I cram my everything
Into doing nothing
Because I am not strong enough
I can hear them slam the doors in my head
Their voices yelling back and forth
About who’s fault I am
It is not them though
It’s me
It’s him
A blue tv
His hand over mine
I was a child
It’s me
Its him
A ride in a truck
His hand on my head
I was 17

You held me
             You Hurt me
You loved me
              Your hands on me
You promised you would protect me
               You were the monster I feared
Every whisper
                Every insult
Brought me to life
                Destroyed me
A weekend away
                Two hours in the truck
Was paradise
                Was Torture
Every soft caress
                 Every dominative stare
The holding of hands
                  The body you claimed
The touching of lips
                   The skin you made me taste
You cried when you left
                    I cried at what was left of me
An ultimatum in three months
                     A chance at freedom
A broken heart
                     A weight off my shoulders
I hate you
                     I love you
For hurting me
                      For showing me how strong I am
You made me a victim
                      I became a pheonix

Noah stood at the edge of the falls, her hair blowing in the storm brewing along the coast line. The waves thrashed at the same pace that her heart crashed against her ribs. A crimson smile on her lips but tears ran down her face all the same. She wanted to take the leap, but she was tethered to this spot, she wasn’t sure how long it had been, perhaps an eternity? Her chest was heavy, weighed down by the sins of others, their words and actions carved into her skin. The wind picked up and she opened her mouth and sang the song of the sirens.