Tears on the pavement
Cold metal pressed against my
temple
Is this me?
Or
Is it the pain?
Why do you do this
To me?
Your words are kind
But your eyes
They cut me deep
Its not as simple as this
My flame is dwindling
My mind is weak

I've been put into isolation
A big metal box
I've started thinking about suffocation
But the cuts on my arm burn
Too much for me to think
The voices in my head distract me
****
****
****
There should be more choices
But it comes down to two things
Mental or physical
Don't cut or cut
But the decisions been made
Cut
Cut
Cut

I took the pills to set me free
But as I swallowed
It came with a fee

I pleaded with God
Please don't let me die
I begged for forgiveness
And I asked myself why

So here I lay
The room spinning around me
I thought I'd be sleeping soundly
Dark spots blue my vision
I truly regret this decision

Because I don't want to leave
And I don't want to die
I won't stop praying
God don't let me die yet

And here I thought you were a man
But you ran away
When the truth came out
You're just a boy

So how is it that I feel shame
When you played with me
Like a toy

But honey you're just a boy

How good does it feel to walk away?
After all of those late night talks
To find you gone a week later
Without so much as a bye

As long as I work
My mind doesn't wonder to you
But at those silent moments
When the stars shine
My thoughts turn violent

And I ask myself
Was it something I said?
Is that why you fled?

It hurts more than I thought it would, I should've known better than to tell you the truth. But you gave me an ultimatum, either I tell you what ruined me or you would leave. The thought of you disappearing was more than I could bare. And yet, a week later your "done," and I'm no longer worth anything to you.  For some men, once they get *** they go, I once thought they were the worst kind of heart breakers. But it's the ones like you, the ones that comfort girls at 3 a.m. The ones that make a girl fall in love with you and tell you their deepest darkest secret.. But then, the moment you finish the puzzle you move onto a new girl. And right now you're probably holding a girl who just wants to be loved in your arms... And right now I still can't stop myself from wondering if it was my fault. I squander all of my time, going over every text, every conversation that will tell me why. Why I wasn't and why I'm not good enough for you

Can you bring me home
Back to yesterday
When I was ok

Because sometimes it hurts
When it all falls apart
Can you bring me home
Back to before the start
When everything was as it should be

Can you tell me
Can you tell me
That I will be just fine
When the darkness
Calls out to me

Please
Give
Me
A
Sign

Will you hold me?
When it gets to be
Too much

Will you wipe away
All the tears that fall
When my cards are
About to fold

Will you kiss me
If the the scars become too much
When there's nothing left to do

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

Will you talk to me
To keep my fears at bay
When the bars are closing in

And will you love me
Even if there's nothing left to save
When I'm shattered and led astray
What do you say
What do you say