I have lost you forever!
But I know your prayers will always be with me..
Wish I could hear you just once more..
We'll meet each other some day for sure!

Why art thou silent! Is thy love a plant
  Of such weak fibre that the treacherous air
  Of absence withers what was once so fair?
Is there no debt to pay, no boon to grant?
Yet have my thoughts for thee been vigilant—
  Bound to thy service with unceasing care,
The mind’s least generous wish a mendicant
  For nought but what thy happiness could spare.
Speak—though this soft warm heart, once free to hold
  A thousand tender pleasures, thine and mine,
Be left more desolate, more dreary cold
  Than a forsaken bird’s-nest filled with snow
  ’Mid its own bush of leafless eglantine—
  Speak, that my torturing doubts their end may know!

I pray that somewhere out there,

someone more powerful than I

loves you more than I possibly could.

I pray that God loves me

more than I love myself

because He knows what I am capable of.

I pray that God will take care of you

because I try,

everyday,

and I don't think that the earthly capabilities

of fragile little me will be enough

to save you from yourself.

So find comfort in the fact that,

even when I am not with you,

someone that loves you stronger, deeper, and completely

is always by your side.

All my efforts to overcome your thoughts..
Trying to be rational and leash my feelings..
My struggle to overlook your name..
Your pretence of ignoring my being..
The consciousness of it's sin..
All futile.. All futile!

It waits with patience..
In its engineered threads.
There comes a fly..
Naively flying by..
Gets caught in the web.
And struggles hard to free itself..
The more it tries..
the more it entangles in the web
Finally it's too weak to fight..
Now the cruel spider climbs down to devour its prey.