I cannot seem to fathom what is wrong with me any longer,
My abilities degrade by the minute, fading into dust along the long way of this distortion deep within my very self,
All this time now, I have failed, again, then again, and again,
Wandering through an answerless world, I do not belong anywhere,
I cannot compare, I don't have the strengh to any longer,
And yet, within this despair, in this dying heart, there is a faint wish,
To move forward, to never give up,
But, the flame of which weakens,
And finally turns to ash,
How much will I be able to do,
Before it all burns away in front of my very eyes ?
At least, I won't need to die..
In a dream..

~ Umi

A strong emotion resonating within all of us,
Trembling, shaking, crying as a response to what we wish not to encounter, such distress eats away at the soul,
Crawling slowly, ghasly into ones mind till it posesses it completely,
Sometimes with no reason or trigger, brushing over you like a shiver,
Until showered in cold sweat and pale as the gentle light of the moon;
With such misfortune and pain we shall finally break,
This is the emotion knowing you better than yourself,
Wrapping itself gently around you till it caught you in its embrace,
And consumed your mind within it whole,
Such misery, for all with anxiety,
And yet it only calls forth despair,
Blinding you in your own agony,
Until nothing remains.

~ Umi

Again a year fades into thin memories,
Bittersweet we tend to look back on what we accomplished, what we longed for, or wether we have come closer to fulfilling a certain goal,
But not I,
As for me, this year passed like a single day, it was over before I began to realize what was happening arround me,
Softly, gently, decisively, the seasons passed together with all their glory,
First came the Springs dream; Delicate flowers blooming, the comforting warmth of the sun, awoke the sleeping earth from its cold slumber,
Then Summer; scorching heat accompanied by occasionally sweet cool breezes brush accros each field and meadow,
The colours of Autumn, the stormy wind blowing away the dying leafs of the trees, carrying rain and sometimes a cold along with it,
And now Winter is finally arriving, giving all a silver lining,
And sure enough, its harsh cold presence will pass too
Like a gentle breeze

~ Umi

A decade passing,
As the world is revolving,
Time burns it all..
Away ~

~ Umi

I wish to be free,
A dream of a stormy night,
a snowy meadow kissed by the moonlight,
When wind dashes and dances across the fields
When everything is asleep
I wish to depart.
And just be.

~Umi

A silver lining is foreseen, as the sky has painted itself grey,
There, in the cold, rough clouds a drop of water begins to freeze,
Floating elegantly, gently, or even playfully toward the ground,
Father frost already has bidden the meadows and hills his blessing,
The animals are ready to slumber tight throughout the sunless season,
And as this single flake is landing, its brothers and sisters follow,
Cuddling up together in a lovely manner to make snow,
And cover the world in a icy, wet, yet delicate blanket,
Sleep well mother earth,
I hope to see your blessing when you wake up from your slumber,
The flowers of spring will then declare,
Your lively awakening.

~ Umi

As the leafs fall I call out your name,
Oh you, who comes with change, who comes uninvited,
The night creeps around in an early hour,
Yet I can't see you coming,
Just where are you hiding ?
Oh first snow, father frost,
I await you.
In the loitering darkness,
Of a lonesome, cold evening.

~ Umi