I am terrorized by the thought of your hands
And what storms they may cause
What doors they may open
The trail they may leave.
I am scared that they will grab hold
Real tight when I am too scared to allow them to,
They may learn me
They may let themselves devour my flesh
And surround my eyes when falls become of them.
I am scared that they will be able to catch things mid-air
That I was counting on them to lose.
I am scared that they will kiss my heart with warmth
Dance across my lips
Massage my spine with the courage I need to dance through sun dried desserts
Create a welcome mat to a home that I am trying not to fall into.
I am scared that they will be brilliant and beautiful
Skilled and flexible
Everything I need and want…
All I can fathom is terrible things
My own hands shake
Because you keep giving me beautiful…

I can fake my identity and try to look happy,
but its all just a cover.
Take a swig from the flask and remove the last mask
only to find another.

There was once a time when I knew myself,
but now I'm not so sure.
All semblance of self-worth lay eroding in the dirt,
and its all thanks to her.

It's not really her fault, I'm truly to blame.
I grew selfish out of fear.
Afraid of being alone, I couldn't let her go
and now she's nowhere near.

Monsters hide in the strangest places
As if those places are their home
Creeping out at night just to see the stars
Just like the ones hiding around my bones
Because they're too ashamed and disgusted by what the look like
And they assume others will think the same
You see they're just shy to come out and say hi
I'm just a monster in plain sight
That no one really sees
Just like how the government doesn't see its own people struggling
But are willing to help anyone else in other countries
That don't have a care in the world
If they get it or not
You see I'm just a monster in plain sight
And all the monsters are finally coming out