How long until I break
How long until I cut
How long until there’s blood on my legs again
How long until there’s blood on my arms again
How long until I do it again

How long do I wait
To be happy
Until I end it all

How long until I break

****** down wave by wave in this unstoppable ocean
Thoughts and feelings absorbed my mind
I couldn’t comprehend why
I started shouting as I saw a light in the distance
Soon it slowly drifted away
I was drowning once again
Hours after hours, days after days, weeks after weeks
I kept getting weaker and weaker as the days went by
I saw a light
Every day it got brighter and brighter
The boat saved me
Saved me from this ocean, for now