I guess it's time I let you go
Moving on so that I can grow
But in my heart I will always see
A love story that was never meant to be
So I say goodbye to me and you
And all the pain we couldn't work through
I guess it's time for me to grow
Moving on because I let you go

Hold still while you swallow your pride
Let me capture this moment
When we found out you lied
Cheated, manipulated
Your way to the top
Tell me when the lies will stop
I'd hear your words
But there hollow and thin
All these lies
But you still didn't win

You find comfort in my presence
A familiar feeling you can't explain
Warm yet fuzzy you'd describe my look
Like you've been here before
Take a closer look
Does something seems off ?
Am I not what you thought?
You can't explain
This uncomfortable feeling
Now puzzled at my presence
Was it all just a lie?
Take a closer look

A ****** love that should not grow
But I wish for these emotions to show
Never knowing I would feel this way
Emotion brew day by day
Im a wanderer in this world that strangers call love
I listen but I dont know the words these people speak of
Lost but not knowing
Old emotion that are still showing
My love needs to stop growing
You opened old wounds that lied under the surface
Now that you're gone I have no purpose
If I could, then I would go back to the start
Back to that when you stole my heart

When I showed you love, you responded with pain
You made your problems mine, it was driving me insane
Why did you make my life hell, with no sign of hope
Ever since I met you, I've been falling down this deep *****
I couldn't take it
The stress you caused plagued me, so much I couldn't shake it
And now you're gone i'm happy, finally i'm free
Never will I take this abuse that you gave to me
Time to say goodbye to life I new
Its over now, finally away from you

Inside my heart melts a orange-gold hue
Spreading so far
Like a love flood for you
Inside my head crashing thoughts, bouncing feelings
Left down up right
I can't hold the mind still
Inside my soul a holy light reigns new
You are my glory my spirit
Bound with everlasting glue
No word describes this euphoria
As it exploded inside me
A crescendo of ecstasy
I am but a puppet
On your string
Strung on your love

When the devil took me he laughed and said
"The sins of your past will haunt you now you're dead
And the sins you committed hold much weight"
I said to him "If loving her was a sin then what be my fate?"
He look down apon me and said "do you really think love was your sin?"
What I utter next took away his grin
I told the devil that my sins came from love
"I would have stole, lied, murdered and all of the above.
I showed her love in a world full of hate
She was my heaven in this twisted curl fate
Any man that wronged her I would fight to the death
I would do anything for that woman till my last breath
I know I'm not prefect and I never will be
But I loved with all my heart because that's just me
So I'm guilty of loving because my morels won't budge
Doesn't matter what I say when the devil is my judge
I saw heaven without ever going
She knows she is loved and that loves still growing
And I died a happy man, you can never take that from me
So if loving is a crime then it's in hell I must be"
The devil look angry and mumbled"just go"
A bright light above my head then started to show
He shouted as I floated away
"Once you go back this will be your last chance then"
I replied with a gin "I can't wait to do this dance again

I feel like we're made for each other
Maybe that's why I'm scared we'll lose one another
You love me even though I'm unstable
I love you like a never ending fable
Can something be this good without a fault?
I guess this loves definition by default
I know we'll be together not matter what life puts us through
Because you'll love me forever just like I love you

Maybe I'm not the one, maybe you don't like me
Maybe you're scared I'll treat you how you should be
Maybe the feelings are one sided
Maybe we're two souls that should never have collided
Maybe I'm not thinking straight
Maybe it's all too late
Maybe it's wrong for me to feel this way
Maybe this is a game I don't want to play
Maybe I'll never be him
Maybe the chances of us ever happening are very very slim

I got some thoughts that I got to let out
So please just listen and you'll know what its about
Ok?
Good, now this is what I have to say
Bullied to the point I felt like I was in the rubble
I'll take that shirt in an X, actually, na double
Words like fat used to make me feel bad
Became a self conscious kid who would always feel sad
So why not be the class clown
Even tho I'm sad no one else needs to frown
Skip a couple years and I'm still the same
But I chose this lifestyle, no one else it to blame
Yeah I say stuff that probably shouldn't say
Its not my fault that my brain thinks this way
Maybe these poems are a truth I don't want to speak
I guess I'm scared that I seem weak
I could keep going and write some more
But you don't care and you didn't care before

I don't want to meet you half way, I'll meet you at the start
I'll just follow the string you have round my heart
It's pulling so tight that my heart start to ache
With feeling so strong I don't know how much more I can take
You'll either be my happiest ending of my worst heart break

Dark path before me
I've taken it a thousand times
But tonight I was scared of running in blind
Some internal thought holding me back
But this dark path ahead
I knew it so well
Fear took over and caused my muscles to quell
So I run back home
Safe under light
I let fear win

This is a modern day love story told through rhyme
A story I hope to tell for a very long time
I met a girl and she was sweet
Talking to her made my heart skip a beat
I caught feelings but was too scared to show
But I couldn't hold it in and had to let her know
I wrote her hundreds of poems telling her how I feel
Showing her a love she would know to be real
She didn't want to ruin what we already had
I tried to play cool but deep down I was sad
But I think in my heart she does feel the same
If this ruins our friendship then I'll take the blame
I promise I'll be here till the end of our days
I want you forever, you're not just a phase

I've been gone for awhile looking through my mind
Erasing evil thoughts I should have left behind
Changed in many ways, grown as I should
This life changes people in ways they never could-
Know and understand, but should we even try
Or let gods hand moves us till we die?

You gave me life
And for that I am grateful
I'm sorry I take if for granted
You taught me right from wrong
And made me who I am
I'm sorry I cross the line sometimes
You're the reason I keep on trying
Even when I dont want to
I cant thank you enough
For everything you've done
I'm sorry for sometimes driving you mad
But I wouldn't ask for another Mum and Dad

The weight of my actions haunt me everyday
My mouth is fed up from the lies I have to say
I keep drinking and I know its wrong
I honestly cant stop
Firstly I'm sorry Mum
But its the only end in sight
Even when I lie you know I'm drinking every night
I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect son
But I'm trying my best
Secondly I'm sorry to my Grandad
I know you spirit watches in shame
I really want to stop but addiction is to blame
The liquor hunts me, just like you do
I'm begging for your voice to help get me through
All the addiction and pain that I'm trapped in
I know you taught me better
I know I live in sin
Lastly I'm sorry to the love of my life
This is the year I want to make you my wife
But I'm worried that how I am will bring you down
And it would **** me inside just to see you frown
So please take this as my addiction resignation
I promise to quit for you and for me
Because I CAN'T do this life without you
When I was on my own I didn't have a clue
So I'm sorry for the lies
You all don't deserve this
I had to get this off my chest before it consumed me

Why is my head so ******?
Someone please tell me
Why do  I drink to feel normal
I'm begging for an answer
Because if you dont know
And I dont know
Then where will this conversation even go?
Just repeat the same cycle
Stop that, try harder
Think differently
Well I CANT
So stop asking
Please
I'm begging please
My head is to ******
I dont think I cant be fixed

How can I be in love with her but have feelings for you
Thoughts in my head focus on you and I dont know what to do
Thinking about what could have been
But like you said are future was unseen
Now someone else is trying with you and it makes me regret
All I want to do is drink to forget
I shouldn't have these thoughts, why have the come back?
Stuck with this inner conflict, I cant hold off the attack
Everything's being questioned I wish I couldn't think
Want to forget this all in a blink
Suffer in silence and take all the pain
You're in my head and it drives me insane

My feeling grow each day
So many things I wish I could say
Your beauty's incomparable, you're second to none
Stuck in my mind, I can never get anything done
A voice so angelic its all I want to hear
I can be myself around you, I have nothing to fear
I love your laugh, so innocent and sweet
Seeing you happy makes my heart skip a beat
Your eyes are so beautiful and your smile is pure
I've never felt like this for that I'm sure
You have a mysterious aura that draws me to you
I've fallen, fallen deep and I don't know what to do
I would write forever about these feelings I can never show
This is to my love, my love will never know

My light is slowly fading, lying on the ground
I had to do it while no one was around
I hear sirens in the distance, I they're not for me
My light is slowly fading, this is how it's supposed to be
Looking at the wreckage, I did this to myself
This is what happens when you don't care for your mental health
But this is what I wanted, to end all my pain
Twisted dark thoughts that I had in my brain
My light is slowly fading, I guess the end is near
Tell my family I love them and that I died without fear

I finally lost my mask, finally I can be me
The person I was scared for everyone to see
Hes finally out, look at him shine
Just kidding, I had that mask to make you think I was fine
Inside I'm dying, so I hid from my truth
Deep seeded issues that came from my youth
Buts all out now, you can see who I was scared to be
Finally the mask is off and now you can see me

Pain speaks more than words ever could
You tried once, you tried twice, you tried more than you should
You say just shut yourself in and don't let them see you hurt
Just try to hold your head up high, dont fall back down to the dirt
Why do you feel stuff they can't ever understand
They offer you a choice but Its to hard to hold their hand
The walls close in because you shut yourself out
I miss you, I need you, are the words you want to shout
Tell me it will be okay, I want to hear it from your voice
If I have once chance to take it back I would always take that choice

My tormented mind will never rest
I will all aways feel second best
Battered and bruised all throughout my life
Thoughts cut deeper than a knife
I hate myself and I dont know why
Just waiting for the day I die
A lifeless husk just surviving day by day
Praying for the pain to go away
My tormented mind is slowly dying
Every day I feel like crying
Sometime I think I might be insane
Why do I feel this pain
Can't find a way out, guess I'm blind
Trapped inside my tormented mind

Last year I wanted to **** myself
This year I want to do better
Even when life's looking wetter
I heard when it rains it pours
Keep pushing through these pains and soars
But I'm just struggling
Keep pushing myself
Even if it can be bad for my health
I know where I need to be
And one day I will see
That I didn't just do it for me
Or you or them but my whole family
So look at me go
Keep running
And even if I get slow
I'll still finish the race first
And make sure all of you know
I still did it at my worst

We danced I the rain like we didn't care who saw
We had everything and everything but still wanted more
We'd watch the stars that would shine so bright
When darkness would fall you'd be my light
When held eachother we felt more than love
I really should have thanked the god above
He brought me my peace in a world of violence
Hearing your voice brought me inner silence
Thick and thin we held on tight
When I first saw you it was love at first sight
I always hoped we would be together
Neverending this love, not now, not ever

I'm not a fighter I'm a lover but for you I'd hold my ground
Take on any battle that comes our way even if you're not around
And if I came back wounded I know you'd heal my heart
Pick up all the pieces and make it restart

You cry over him but the tears are not true
You never loved him, he never loved you
Wasting time thinking about the past
No matter how it went, you knew it wouldn't last
Why did you do it if you knew it would cause pain?
It wasn't love it was just insane
You thought you could just live a lie
Fake love, fake love, why did you even try?

When you wake up in the morning and you're all alone
You'll find me waiting on the other side of the phone
Sending you my love with texts or still videos I share
I just want you to know how much I care
You're the first thing on my mind every single day
Can I message you some more? Would that ok?

You said that I'm different, I'm just not the same
We both know the problem, it's the drink to blame
I'm not the man you met all those years ago
Turned into a stranger, someone you don't even know
Looking in the mirror, I know this to be true
I became the man I was all because of you
But something just happend, I guess I lost my way
Maybe I'll become that man again.... One day

Life never goes the way you plan
But it's time for me to set up and be a man
Face all of my dreaded fears
Dark thoughts I've been hiding all these years
When you last saw me I was a broken mess
Hiding all of the pain and stress
Look at me now finally I've grown
Not the same man you thought you have known

All of these feeling finally off my chest
Now I know I can lay to rest
I told you I loved you and you said it back
Hearing those world almost gave me a heart attack
Can't tell you how happy I feel
I've honestly never felt love this real
Say it again till it's tattooed on my heart
Because I've loved you since the very start

Let me be clear, you're all that's on my mind
Looking for an answer and you're all that I find
You live through my poems, because I can't tell you to your face
Or maybe I'm scared you'll put me in my place
I want to know how you feel but I'm scared of your answer
It takes two to tango but I think I'm the only dancer
Just be honest and let me know
Or is this a place that you cannot go
Maybe one day we can lay things out
And I'll get to know what you're thinking about

On the radio I heard our song start to play
Suddenly taken back to that faithful day
When we danced all night to that song on repeat
Learning all the words and remembering the beat
The song brought love and joy, sadness and heartache
Maybe listening to it again was a mistake
Even though listening to it maybe be wrong
It will always be our song

Drunk again so I start writing
All these dark thoughts I keep fighting
She starts smoking to cure the pain
Guess we have different prescriptions for pain

I'll never be a perfect man but you make me want to try
I can't promise I won't fail, get knocked back or maybe even lie
Till my back lay broken and I'm falling apart
I will keep trying with all my heart
Fueled by love that you provide me
For you I'll be best version of myself that I can possibly be

Numbing my pain with all these pills
This feeling I get seems to give me chills
Can't be sober to go outside
So behind theses drug I will hide
My mind hates me and I know that well
Or I wouldn't need pills to leave this hell

Eyes can be deceiving, the brain can be teasing
The heart can be healing but also leave you grieving
Feelings come and go but they stick in the mind
Some so strong that they leave you blind
Close you eyes and you'll see clear
The purest answer will finally appear

Does my message come through with these words that I write
When I'm alone in my head, surviving the night
You make me write and write till my page is mess
I can't get over the girl in the red dress

Its crazy how one night can make me regress
I ****** up all my progress
Hating myself for a stupid mistake
Maybe my happiness was all just fake
Maybe I wasn't making any progress at all
Or maybe I'm always doomed to fall
I just want to give up and accept my fate
And let myself be consumed by hate
It's easier to go back to hiding in my bed
Praying that soon I'll be dead

Pain and anger trapped inside
I look around to see nowhere to hide
Words spoken I should no have said
Evil thoughts to leave my head
Regret lingers and plagues my mind
Its hard to move on and leave the past behind
No words can change what I've done
Now I think about it, it wasn't worth it in the long run

I see you're feeling down, it's hard I know
But you can open up to me, and let's these feeling show
Tell how you feel, just let it l all out
Don't keep it in, you can cry even shout
I'm always here if you need a shoulder to cry on
Day or night, I'll be your person to rely on
Keep that head up with that pretty little smile
The pain will end but it might take a while
When you feel low, I'm just a message away
I'll be your person to rely on, night or day

11th of November we stand in silence
And just for a minute we forget all the violence
We pay respect to those who fought
And carry the lessons that they taught
This poppy hold strong, pinned to my chest
Thank you to the soldiers you may all rest

Slowly drifting away from reality, guess I've died
My words are now forgotten whispers, whispers that hide
Though life is an echo of my past that I cannot return to
I pray my words gain new meaning for inspiring you

I haven't wrote in a while and my words fell silent
But the war in my head still remains violent
I've changed so much and come a long way
Pushing through day by day
I've missed these poems, they kept me sane
These poems I write take away the pain

12 years since you died and the wounds still like new
I miss you I miss you I miss you
I was 6 when you was taken form us and the pain wont go
There just so many things I want you to know
Nan really misses you, the love of her life
Why would God take a man from his wife?
Why would God rip you from our family?
Your death really effected me
So many things we never got to do together
As a kid I used to think you'd live forever
All I want is to give you a hug and tell you everything
But lifes just cruel and just takes and takes and takes  
I miss you I miss you I miss you
Please come back

My wrist are bleeding and yet I don't cry
I did this to myself and I don't know why
Maybe it's the pain I hold in my heart
Every since the day you ripped it apart
Punishing myself for how we ended
I hope one day my heart will be mended
And the pain I'm causing myself will finally be ended

I feel like Im writing the same old story
Guy meets a girl in search for glory
One forms feeling and the other doesn't know
Talking till the season change from sun to snow
He tries to tell her about his feelings that hide
Hope she might feel the same way deep down inside
Love letters and poems all about them together
The same old story that will go on forever

I think I've finally ran out of words to say
I've been writing about you every single day
But I'll never write a poem good enough to describe you
The rights words don't exist and I don't know what to do
But I'll keep searching till find the right word
And I'll write the most beautiful poem that you've ever heard

Stop me if I mess this up
But I've been sipping from a heavy cup
You're still looking for what you left behind
Pain and sadness is all your find
Turn around and you'll see me
Pulling you towards where you need to be

She broke me in two
Shattered like glass
Now what can I do?
Will this pain ever pass?
I lost myself trying to please this girl
I will never be the same
Falling deeper and deeper in a downward swirl
Maybe I did this to myself, maybe I'm to blame