She haunts my dreams
She haunts my dreams
Nothing as, it, seems
I dont know
I dont know
I dont,
Know
She left me down in this hell
Trapped in a cell
Down in this hell
Feeling like I'm dying
Everytime
I close
My eyes....
Is this how it ends?
What does all this mean?
Mean? Mean?
She haunts my dreams
Dreams Dreams

These substances make me feel stuff
Is it true or is it a bluff
I don't know
No matter what feelings do grow

Why am I a poet?
Why wright about an emotions if I don't know it
Never felt love, Never been depressed
Or maybe they're feeling I wish to repress
Do my words mean nothing or really hit hard
Is it deep or makes you more scared?

Please forgive me while I write
Lonely thoughts wonder the night
Choking on my sins alone
Sitting on a shattered thrown
Begging for you to hear my voice
Your arrogance was the right choice
Knowing this was my final fate
I should repent these sins before it's too late

I've fallen hard, please don't scar me
All I can ask is what are we
You say we're friends but it feels like more
I've never felt this kind of way before
Youre the madness, I'm the badness, together we combine
All I wish is to call you mine

Your drunken heart told the sober truth
Revealing dark sins from your youth
Even darker sins that currently fill your head
After these truths you speak you wake up feeling nothing but dread
Nothing but sadness clouds your mind
Looking for excuses but there's not answers to find
I'll always be here to make you feel alright
I'll talk you through these lonely nights

I'm not him and hurts me so bad
Its not your fault and I shouldn't get mad
But I know you love him, its why I feel so sad
Why cant you see me, I'm the same as him
Because you don't love me, my worlds so dim
To be the one, to feel you touch
What makes it worse is you know I love you so much
Do you care about how I feel?
You say you love him but is it real?
Hes made you different, hes made you fake
I hate to look, I don't know how much I can take

Why can I talk when I'm too scared to do it
I have to say 10 times in my head before I go though with it
Sentence after sentence I keep practicing

Making sure I get it right?
Or just... Never mind
I know it won't come out right

Maybe if repeat it one more time I'll be brave enough to speak
Ok I can do this

"I think-"
Oh **** the moment just passed
Now I look stupid

I speak few words but my soul wont stop shouting
Never ending emotions that my mind keeps on doubting
I can imagine feelings and express them when I write
But when I come to showing them you wont see an emotion in site
Is something wrong or am I broken
This is my cry for help but don't ask me or no word will be spoken

A bitter sweet poison
I crave every drop
Slowly killing me
Yet I cant seem to stop
Fell victim to your power
Your grips getting tight
I need you just to function
So wrong but so right
I fall and I stumble
Because you always have to win
So beautiful so perfect
My poison my sin

Let me ease your mind before it's too late
How did we end up in this cruel twist fate?
Let your feelings pour
We can fight this war
Sometimes talking can be the cure

Talking to you makes my day
No one else makes me feel this kind of way
I could talk to you for hours on end
When I feel down you bring me to a mend
You make me laugh till I'm about to cry
I love talking to you, I can not lie

I confessed my feelings to you on the phone
Laid out everything that I wished to be know
I cried my heart out, I couldn't take it no more
You're the person I've always been looking for
It's always been you and you said the same
I told you I loved you and felt no shame
My night look dim till I heard your voice
I couldn't ignore if I wanted to, I don't have a choice
You hold my heart with the tightest grip
A girl like you I'd never let slip

Part of me died trying to love you
And now I'm sat here feeling blue
Lost to time I wasted holding onto that feeling
Praying for my self to come back
Please cut me some slack
I keep feeling the same heart attack
Guess its just my way of healing
Blood running out my veins
A shell of my body remains
You left me tied to these chains
This love for you I keep concealing
Hoping how I feel is just a lie
Soundless screams that I cannot cry
Feeling like I'm about to die
Why was your pain so appealing?

Hold me close for this soon may end
But I know you will only ever see me as a friend
Put me down gently and try soothe the pain
Because I know you last words will haunt my brain

The room was full of empty faces when I first saw you
I tried not to stare but I didn't know what else to do
Nothing but a red dress and a flirtatious stare
You saw me looking but didn't seem to care
I watched you dance under the moon so bright
Wishing to talk to you but not a thought in site
Time went slow as you walked towards me
My heart started racing ever so fastly
But just kept walking with not a work spoken
Do I risk talking to you or get my heart broken
Regretting not speaking now my mind is a mess
I will never forget you, the girl in the red dress

Laying next to you right now
I feel so at peace
The world falls silent
And now you're asleep
You are my world
You are my sun
You give me life
And I sleep well
Knowing you'll be my light
Thank you for the mornings

I want to write for you
But you're not here
I don't know what to do
Can't see things clear
Please give me a sign
Bring back my light
I want to make you mine
You're the reason I write

There was this girl who I loved so dear
When I held her in my arms I had nothing to fear
We weren't both prefect, we'd argue, we'd fight
But just her love would get me through the night
Even though she's gone I still love her for sure
But it's hard knowing she's not my girl anymore

This river of pain bends and winds
I shouldn't have jumped in
Where were the signs?
Dragged by the current
Drowning in my sorrow
Lucky if I ever see tomorrow
Begging for air as I get dragged down deeper
Why does it feel like it's getting steeper?
The rapids of anger?
Waterfall of death?
Will I ever get a chance to catch my breath?
Try as I might to swim to the top
I feel close to the approaching drop
Begging, praying to escape this muddle
Clawing, fighting, this river wont beat me
I cling to dry land and what do I see?
The river of pain was only a puddle

A heavy weight has be placed apon my head
A dark twisted sickness, I don't want to leave my bed
Thoughts keep growing leave nothing but pain in side
I wish to escape my mind, to run away and hide
How did I got from happy in the morning to almost crying tonight
My minds at war and I'm loosing the fight
I can never tell anyone now I truly feel
Because opening up makes them all too real
I don't want the label that's given to people like me
If only I could open up for people to see
Someone to talk to but I cut my self off
Because if I'm seen as week I'm scared they will scoff
I'm the big strong man that's not afraid of dying
But in side this man is a young boy crying

The pain that linger leaves when suppress
I shouldn't do it but it stops the stress
Make bad decisions that change how I feel
Don't want to feel emotions because the emotions are to real
We live like we know what all these feelings mean
But you can look deeper from what you've already seen
I'm in a shell of my fake self
I know its bad for my health
But being human is condition that requires a little anaesthesia
So we do it and the feelings become part of your amnesia
My mind knows what I feel and I found a way to quit
So I feel less, try less but truly I cant handle it
I'm in sate and all need to is tell someone
Clearly I cant but these words are a start.... I'm done

When I showed you love, you responded with pain
You made your problems mine, it was driving me insane
Why did you make my life hell, with no sign of hope
Ever since I met you, I've been falling down this deep *****
I couldn't take it
The stress you caused plagued me, so much I couldn't shake it
And now you're gone i'm happy, finally i'm free
Never will I take this abuse that you gave to me
Time to say goodbye to life I new
Its over now, finally away from you

I'm sad all the time and I don't know why
Sometimes I just wish I could just die
Ended, gone, not here anymore
I won't spear you with the details I know its a bore

How many times can I wright about something I don't feel
When will I ever find something I think is real
Do I know what love is? Or am I just dumb
Feeling that you give me seem to make me numb
I'm lying to myself, I know I don't feel this
I have my moments but its not true bliss
When will I know? I don't mind
Love is a thought I don't want to find

This is to my friends that I'm glad to have known
We've laughed, we've cried and as people we've grown
Never would I have guessed that I would have met you
Even if our path ends I will never forget you
You've impacted me and changed me forever
We met for a reason, do I regret it ? Never

What do you do when your hero falls from grace
This person is your world, a person you cant replace
A bond so strong formed from respect
Never knew them falling would leave you with this effect
You try to be strong for their sake
Because that's a choice a hero would make
Though they were your light when you were in dark
They have fallen, you must relight their spark

Your beauty is unmatched by any other soul
The beat keeps going from my heart you stole
My love cant be trapped nor kept in any space
You're a masterpiece on gods canvas, nothing to erase
Never before had I seen such a stunning sight
From that moment I new this love to be right
To show you my love is no easy thing
Until that day you look to see a ring

Perhaps I got attached too quick
But when I first met you I felt a click
Something in my head made me want you more
The most beautiful girl I've ever seen before
The way you make me laugh is second to none
Who knew falling in love could be this fun
I'd give you the world and more if I just knew how
When I look at you I can only think wow
Hearing your voice makes my heart skip a pace
You're the girl I never want to replace

Been waiting so long for you to be here
I gave up on traveling and just let go steer
Walking me down a path, guided me blindly
So now Im here would you stay with me kindly
This journey have been rough and long
Would staying here a while be so wrong?
Im going to stay if you don't mind
Because you were the person I was trying to find

Looking at you makes me feel paralyzed
You're so god dam beautiful and youve never even realised
An angel questions it's existence when looking apon you
Everything I'm saying you know it to be true
In the universe nothing is made to perfection
But it seems to be you're the only exception

And just like that I turn 22
Yet a month ago I didn't think I was going to see this year through
Coming to terms with my own mortality
I never thought this would be my reality
But here I am now, still alive
Years of pain I'd never thought I'd survive
Though the pain may never truly fade away
I'm glad I get to live to see another day

Two lost souls floating through space
An empty love void trying to find their place
Never knowing that they need each other
Searching through the emptyness to find one another
Separate the glow dim, and long lost spark
But when combined they outshine the dark
Maybe they'll never meet but they both Kling to hope
Two lost souls connected by a rope

Lay in my arms and the world will fall silent
I know the war in your head can be quite violent
But trust me my dear you're safe with me
I'll show you the beauty that you cannot see
Talk to me when times are tough
And I'll still love you when times are rough

Saturday, Three in the morning, just cuddling and kissing
Some people would rather be out clubbing, I pity them because they don't know what they're missing
Laying here with my girl, got the music volume up high
Got my hands all over her, she so **** I can't lie
Kissing up and down her body, I got not time to waste
Looking at her gets so hungry I need a taste
The music and loud enough so she put a pillow over her face
For being to loud guess I'll have to put her in her place
Five in the morning and we still making the shake
Got her legs wrapped round me don't know how much more I can take
She's saying all the right things, think I'm about to give in
Can't blame me for this God but I'm about to commit sin
A night of passion, two lovers in a state of bliss
Can't wait to spend the rest of my life like this
So give me that pinky and seal it will a kiss

I've never felt like I've ever been enough
I never understood why life could be so tough
Dark thoughts hold me down, why's my mind playing a game
I only saw one way out of this eternal pain
I only saw red walking down this path
Unstoppable torment an unbearable wrath
I always hold out hope for a much better day
But an empty void is in my way
You held out your hand when I lost all hope
You loosened the grip to my tight rope
That voice alone guided me through the storm
Then a light at the end of the tunnel started to from
Can't believe god sent you my way
You we're the answer I was looking for everytime I would pray

Have no fear babe because I'm here forever
Through thick and thin I'm here for whatever
The highs, the lows and the in-between
Till death do us part of you know what I mean
I'll be your man till the end of my days
As long as I'm with you we'll get through this crazy maze

What's holding us back? Honestly tell me
Because you know I'm all in, it's obvious to see
I don't hide how I feel because I know I want you
All I can hope is you feel the same too
I think you do but don't know what to say
All I pray is you realise it one day

Hating myself because I spoke too soon
I'm now drinking again and it's not even noon
Hoping for a response and what do I see
Not a single message left for me
I got attached to quick but that's just me
Guess thats why I hide these thoughts through poetry
I now know my place and I'll stay in my lane
And hide these feeling deep within my brain

We were toxic, yes I know
A love that we should not have let grow
But why am I finding it so hard to let go
I still hold so much love for you
I honestly do know what to do
We weren't perfect and we both had issues
Shed so many tears and used too many tissues
You know if you called I come back straight away
Because you're all I want at the end of the day
I wish we could have worked on our problems and solved them together
Because I still love you and I'll love you forever

I see you through the emotion you hide
You tell me your alright but I know you just lied
Tell me everything, I'll alway be here
You know I won't judge, you have nothing to fear
Lean on my shoulder if you need something to cry on
I'll be the one you can alway rely on
Or if not me then let your family know
They will alway help you when you're feeling low
I wish I was there to help you through any pain
Just say the word and I'll be on the next train
Or I'd race through the night just to wipe your tear
You can tell me anything, you have nothing to fear

I sometimes feel like giving up but don't want to lose hope
But I'm already half way through tying my rope
I know I'm not him and probably not the one
By my feelings won't change when it's all said and done
What do I need to do, or do I need to change?
Because I'm getting mixed feeling and these feeling are strange
Guess I just have to wait and see
Maybe the answer is right Infront of me

I work all night while you lie asleep
Knowing you're alone makes my heart weep
I hope you sleep well and your dreams will be kind
Wake up in the morning and I'll be the one you find
I worked all night and now I'm back here
Laying next to you I have nothing to fear

I can see the stars when I'm gazing at you
You've left me starstruck and I don't know what to do
Like I'm in a trance just by your voice
Always drawn to you like I don't have a choice
I'm so in love with you and everything you are
Whenever you need me I'll jump straight in my car
An hour and a half drive doesn't seem so far
If it mean I get to gaze at my star
Drive all night to be right by your side
You unlocked feels I used to hide
Now read this clearly because what I say is true
One day I'm going to marry you
I can't see a world where you're not my wife
You're my shining star, the love of my life
Now give me that pinky and never let go
I love you so so much, more than you'll ever know

The kindest soul I've ever met
You outshine the most beautiful sunset
You paint pictures and you write art
Colouring in the gaps within my heart
I wish I could write everything I want to say
To call you mine every single day
So for now we'll keep making art to describe eachother
Writing poems, painting pictures for a long lost lover

Real eyes, realise, real lies
Stuck with a man whom you really despise
I know how you feel by the tone in your voice
Maybe picking him was the wrong choice
Or maybe I'm wrong and just being confused
I just don't want to see you hurt or used

Let's ruin this because I think we're destined for more
Don't know if you feel the same but I've never felt like this before
Because I know in my heart I would never let this end
This has transcended a love you couldn't comprehend
I've seen heaven with out dying
Felt true love without trying
And when I told you I loved you I wasn't lying

We're not going to be just friends, and I think you already know it
I think we share the same feeling but are to afraid to show it
Please let me know if what I'm saying is true
Because I'm praying to hear these words from you
There's so many things I wish to say
And maybe I'll get to tell you one day
But for now we'll stay "friends" and dance around these feeling we hide
But deep down we both now how we feel on the inside

I'll give you my last name and you can keep if forever
Watching you walk down the isle will make me cry but however
They will be tears of joy seeing you walk towards me
Knowing since I've met you that you're my future wife to be
Starting a life together with the love of my life
Not just a girlfriend but now my wife

I think I love you to, skipped through the like stages
I want you to be my last chapter filled with all the best pages
I hope you feel the same as I do, because I've got nothing but clarity
I second without you is like an endless reality
So dark and cold when you're my warmth and light
Hold me close dear and we'll make it through the night
See I write not money, recognition or even fame
My words just keep pouring because you're my eternal flame
There's a tattoo on my heart and only spells your name
If lifes single player not co-op then I don't want to play this game
Thinking about you alone gives me a reason to write
I hope you never let go of my words and keep them held tight
Back to my original point if I can remember it clear
But I'm drinking and driving, I think I need you to steer
Oh yeah I remember now I think I'm love
Must thank the God above when he sent me down this beautiful dove
Its just a feeling I have and if you'll be my queen I'll be your king
Because I'm sick of dreaming about this, I need the real thing