You said that I'm different, I'm just not the same
We both know the problem, it's the drink to blame
I'm not the man you met all those years ago
Turned into a stranger, someone you don't even know
Looking in the mirror, I know this to be true
I became the man I was all because of you
But something just happend, I guess I lost my way
Maybe I'll become that man again.... One day

On the radio I heard our song start to play
Suddenly taken back to that faithful day
When we danced all night to that song on repeat
Learning all the words and remembering the beat
The song brought love and joy, sadness and heartache
Maybe listening to it again was a mistake
Even though listening to it maybe be wrong
It will always be our song

How did I get like this?
Trapped in a dark abyss
My mind is clouded, heavy thoughts like rain
Numb to the point that I don't feel pain
Mum said time will heal me
But she doesn't understand the pain I see
It's hard to explain when you feel so low
I just want this dark abyss to let me go
I can feel it getting worse, day by day
As I'm writing this now, I don't know what to say
Maybe I'm broken, a lost puzzle piece
Everyone getting put together while I slowly decrease
I'm scared to ask for help because I think I'll look weak
I think it's because I'm a man that I don't want to speak
I guess I'll keep pushing and see how long I last
I never thought at 21 I'd want to die so fast

It's all coming back to me
How I used to be
Life before you was just a distant memory
But I'm slowly falling back into place
Hoping the pain you brought will erase
And the man in the mirror will once again be my true face
It's all coming back to me
Slowly but surely
All the scars you left are finally healing
The love I thought we had is just a distant feeling
I'm moving on and trying to grow
It's all coming back to me, the person I used to know

I guess it's time I let you go
Moving on so that I can grow
But in my heart I will always see
A love story that was never meant to be
So I say goodbye to me and you
And all the pain we couldn't work through
I guess it's time for me to grow
Moving on because I let you go

I feel sad but I cant even cry
So much mental pain, but all I cant ask is why
Why am I like this? Why me?
Maybe its the way life is suppose to be

My light is slowly fading, lying on the ground
I had to do it while no one was around
I hear sirens in the distance, I they're not for me
My light is slowly fading, this is how it's supposed to be
Looking at the wreckage, I did this to myself
This is what happens when you don't care for your mental health
But this is what I wanted, to end all my pain
Twisted dark thoughts that I had in my brain
My light is slowly fading, I guess the end is near
Tell my family I love them and that I died without fear

I'm still waiting for the day when you will come here
Maybe god will guide you or maybe your mind will steer
Holding out hope for something might not come true
But even after everything I'm still in love with you
Maybe I'm being foolish by waiting for your love
I just need god to help me if he's listening up above
Please come back to my arms and I'll never let go
I still love you and I need to let you know

I hope in another life we're still together
Maybe we actually reached forever
We worked on our issues hand in hand
We completed everything that we had planned
Another life me hopefully made you his wife
I hope we're still together, in another life

My wrist are bleeding and yet I don't cry
I did this to myself and I don't know why
Maybe it's the pain I hold in my heart
Every since the day you ripped it apart
Punishing myself for how we ended
I hope one day my heart will be mended
And the pain I'm causing myself will finally be ended

Do you treat him like you used to treat me
Or is he a better guy than I'll ever be
I used to drive hours just to get yelled at
I bet he doesn't ever get that
Have you realised what you did and finally changed ways
While I'm all alone lost in this scary maze
Because now he's got you and living a perfect life
While I'm looking at my wrists holding a knife

Get out of my head, I'm begging you now
Wish I could stop thinking about you but I don't know how
So I keep writing in hopes it helps me heal
But I the pain wont go and it feels so real
I want to drink to forget
Instead I cut myself and regret
You're hunting my mind, please leave my head
Because I know if you don't then I'll end up dead

I keep cutting myself to numb the pain
Because I cant seem to get you out of my brain
Why is my mind destroying me like this?
Maybe if I end it all I'll reach eternal bliss

I miss you so much, and it kills me to say
I've started cutting myself almost everyday
I hate that we cant talk and hate myself so much
All I want is to feel your touch
I know we toxic and argued a lot
But it kills me know another guy is in my spot
You probably hate me and I understand why
But there's no point living without you, I might as well die
Just want to here to tell me its going to be ok
Because I'm really struggling to live another day
I'll keep pushing in hopes we'll get back together
But if tomorrow doesn't come then just know I'll love you forever

Why do I keep looking a pictures of you? Maybe its because I cant let go
All I want to do is call you to tell you I still love you more than you know
I want to make things right and have you back in my life
Because deep in my heart I wanted to make you my wife
I miss you so much that its making cry
I cried even harder when I saw you with another guy
People keep telling to move on and forget about you
But you and I both know thats something I cannot do
Lifes gotten so dark since I lost my light
I hope you I think about you every night

I ignored my depression for many many years
Substance abuse took away all my fears
But it made me feel worse in the end
It's hard to let go when the substance is you're only friend

I used to write poems telling you I loved you
Now I write poems about how much I miss you
I used to write till you got sick of my words
Now I'm writing words you'll probably never read
I used to write poems with all my heart and soul
Now I struggle to write like I used to
I used to write poems all about you
Now I write poems about a fading memory

There was this girl who I loved so dear
When I held her in my arms I had nothing to fear
We weren't both prefect, we'd argue, we'd fight
But just her love would get me through the night
Even though she's gone I still love her for sure
But it's hard knowing she's not my girl anymore

You cause the pain, yet you're also the cure
Sometimes I'd doubt it our love was pure
Two broken souls who found love together
We were both foolish if we'd thought it'd last forever

My tormented mind will never rest
I will all aways feel second best
Battered and bruised all throughout my life
Thoughts cut deeper than a knife
I hate myself and I dont know why
Just waiting for the day I die
A lifeless husk just surviving day by day
Praying for the pain to go away
My tormented mind is slowly dying
Every day I feel like crying
Sometime I think I might be insane
Why do I feel this pain
Can't find a way out, guess I'm blind
Trapped inside my tormented mind

Why are you still here in my mind
We broke up a month ago, yet you're all I find
All the arguments and fights broke me in two
But for some strange reason I can only think of you
I keep acting reckless to try and forget
But loosing you is my biggest regret
I hate the fact we left our future behind
Maybe that's why you're still in my mind

I hate myself, so ******* much
Because I live in a world where I can't feel your touch
I'm broken, scarred, damaged beyond repair
Trapped in this lonely pit of despair
I miss you so much, but we can't go back
Falling for you again would take me off track
Maybe one day I might hold you again
As a much better man than you knew back then

You found someone knew, guess you moved on fast
Maybe you're trying to forget our past
How can you move on like I was never there?
I cant seem to move on and that's not fair
Missing you so much, I'm lost in despair
No matter what I do I see you everywhere

The sky never ends and nore does my love
Hoping one day it will hit you from above
Because your not here, I'm living in fear
I wish you was near because I miss you my dear
I'll find you again, never let you go
I love you more than you will ever know

We said forever, forever came fast
The love we had I really wanted to last
I keep wanting to call you and sort everything out
Apologies for getting angry, I didn't mean to shout
I wish I didn't drive off, and instead tried talking to you
Because I'd do anything to try make forever come true

You're the most addictive drug I've ever tried
Loving you was an addiction that I couldn't ever hide
We cried, we fought, we laughed and loved so hard
Maybe a little too hard that in the end it left us both scard
But now you're gone the effects won't disappear
I need a fix for this addiction but you're no longer here
But the ghost of you still lingers inside my head
Imagining life without you is something I dread
So I'll wait for you because you know I'll come straight away
I'll love you forever is all I want to say

I never love anyone the way I loved you
You were like a drug and that I was madly addicted to
I miss you so much, I can't believe we ended
We both had problems that we could have mended
I know you'll never read this but I mean everything I write
If you we're to call tomorrow I'd already be there last night
You said you push the people you love away
Yeah we we're toxic but something kept telling me to stay
You're stuck in my head and I don't know why
I really wish we could give us another try
Fresh start for both you and me
Maybe we'll meet again sometime, just have to wait and see

We were toxic, yes I know
A love that we should not have let grow
But why am I finding it so hard to let go
I still hold so much love for you
I honestly do know what to do
We weren't perfect and we both had issues
Shed so many tears and used too many tissues
You know if you called I come back straight away
Because you're all I want at the end of the day
I wish we could have worked on our problems and solved them together
Because I still love you and I'll love you forever

I still love you even after last night
I still love you even when we fight
You can be hurtful sometimes and yet I still love you
I can't explain why but I just do
You can be a pain in the *** but I still loved you none the less
I know we had a lot of problems we needed to address
I fell in love with you and now I'm addicted, stuck like glue
No Matter what happened in life I still love you

Born into a world of torment and sin
Born into a world where you will never win
Lost in the dark with not way out
Speak proud with a voice that will never shout
Hold strong because the path is very clear
Keep on fighting and never give into fear
Chin up high and fight till the end
Chin up high through the dark times my friend

I hate my brain, why cant I just let go
I know you changed but my mind said no
I regret what I said and how I acted
All of my actions I wish could be retracted
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, because I still love you
But the battle inside my head kept bleeding through
I know I'm bad with words and I should have spoke more
I know I ruined everything and the wound is still sore
I hate myself because I let my mind win the fight
I hate now knowing you'll be lonely at night
I hate how I let emotions get in the way
I wish I could go back to that faithful day
When I got off the train and saw your face
My head fell silent and my heart skipped a pace
I hate myself and I know you now hate me
My actions spoke louder than words and I'm sorry
I'm not asking for forgiveness, just wanted to write down what I couldn't say
I'm really sorry Lucy Mae

I love you so much, you're always on my mind
All I think about it's our future and leave the past behind
We've both sinned and made a mistake or two
We're both not prefect but our love is true
I've never felt like this about anyone ever
And no matter what happens, I'll love you forever

Lay in my arms and the world will fall silent
I know the war in your head can be quite violent
But trust me my dear you're safe with me
I'll show you the beauty that you cannot see
Talk to me when times are tough
And I'll still love you when times are rough

The year is almost over, and I'm ending this one right
With such a beautiful girl that I'll get it kiss at midnight
Entering the new year with you by my side
Hold my hand tight my dear, we're going for a ride
2024 I can't wait to see you through
I hope I get to end every year being in love with you

I tell God I love you, more than life itself
Rich, broke or poor, I'd love you more than any wealth
I'd hold you hand no matter what
I'd kiss you here right now on the spot
Because I love you so much, you're my one and only
Please don't leave babe, I'd be so lonely
Just give me you're pinky and hold it tight
Because the love we share feels so right

I could look at you forever, the most beautiful view
No other girl is matched by you
You're eyes sparkle, Im sorry that I stare
I miss you so much, I wish I was there
Holding you in my arms, I'll never let go
When I look into your eyes time goes slow
The moment we share I want to last forever
I pray this moment doesn't end, not now not never

I can see the stars when I'm gazing at you
You've left me starstruck and I don't know what to do
Like I'm in a trance just by your voice
Always drawn to you like I don't have a choice
I'm so in love with you and everything you are
Whenever you need me I'll jump straight in my car
An hour and a half drive doesn't seem so far
If it mean I get to gaze at my star
Drive all night to be right by your side
You unlocked feels I used to hide
Now read this clearly because what I say is true
One day Lucy I'm going to marry you
I can't see a world where you're not my wife
You're my shining star, the love of my life
Now give me that pinky and never let go
I love you so so much, more than you'll ever know

I'm not just for Christmas, I'm for life
And I can promise you that I'll make you my wife
I'll be here forever and keep hold of you heart
You already stole mine from the very start
My soulmate, my true love, my very best friend
I'll keep loving you tilly very end
Kisses, hugs all wrapped in a bow
I love you more than you'll ever know

How did I get so lucky? Someone please tell me
I found the most beautiful girl there ever could be
Perfect in every single way
I fall more and more in love with her every single day
She makes me so happy, like no one ever could
If I could have found her sooner then I already would
Don't want anyone else because she is my soulmate
My destiny, my lifeline, my eternal fate

I'll give you my last name and you can keep if forever
Watching you walk down the isle will make me cry but however
They will be tears of joy seeing you walk towards me
Knowing since I've met you that you're my future wife to be
Starting a life together with the love of my life
Not just a girlfriend but now my wife

No museum in the world has better art than you
You're Gods finest creation through and through
I could look at you all day and still fall more in love
You're like an angel sent from up above
Give me a kiss because you taste so good
And I'll show you love better than anyone else ever could

Everyday I think about coming to see you
Only an hour and a half drive is all I have to do
Because I miss you so so much
I think I'm going mad without feeling your touch
I want to wake up next to you every single day
And good morning my love is all I want to say
Goodnight beautiful I hope you sleep well
Youve got me addicted under this crazy love spell

You say all the right words just to get me going
You look down and you can see I'm growing
It's all yours baby so take it slow
I'm craving you so bad you don't even know
Throw you down on the bed, wrap them legs around me tight
Get ready baby because we're going all night

Saturday, Three in the morning, just cuddling and kissing
Some people would rather be out clubbing, I pity them because they don't know what they're missing
Laying here with my girl, got the music volume up high
Got my hands all over her, she so **** I can't lie
Kissing up and down her body, I got not time to waste
Looking at her gets so hungry I need a taste
The music and loud enough so she put a pillow over her face
For being to loud guess I'll have to put her in her place
Five in the morning and we still making the shake
Got her legs wrapped round me don't know how much more I can take
She's saying all the right things, think I'm about to give in
Can't blame me for this God but I'm about to commit sin
A night of passion, two lovers in a state of bliss
Can't wait to spend the rest of my life like this
So give me that pinky and seal it will a kiss

I miss you more than words can say
I think about you every single day
My heart crys when you're not around
But in my mind is where you'll always be found

It was like something from a film, when I stepped off that train
So so many thoughts rushing through my brain
Is this a mistake, will she even like me
Turn the corner and what do I see
The most beautiful girl there ever could be
She hugged me with a grip ever so tight
All those thoughts left me because this felt so so right
After that hug Im certain that I know
This is a girl I never want to let go
I don't need drugs because she is my ecstasy
Life won't be tough when I have her next to me

I'm like a broken clock, constantly telling the same time
But instead I tell you I love you in every single rhyme
It  seems to be the only thing I can say
I can promise you no one has ever made me feel this way
You make me heart pounding when you look at me
In a room full of art you're the only thing I see
I've never felt love this strong
But In my heart, I know with you I belong
So I say it again, I love you
I can promise you baby this love is true

All I need is your voice to make me feel at ease
Whisper that you love me, I beg please
Kiss my wounds and I'll do the same
Claw up my back and spell your name
All I need is you, all I want is you
If I was ever with out you I wouldn't know what to do

Have no fear babe because I'm here forever
Through thick and thin I'm here for whatever
The highs, the lows and the in-between
Till death do us part of you know what I mean
I'll be your man till the end of my days
As long as I'm with you we'll get through this crazy maze

When I'm on my own and you're far away
I look at the pictures of us to get me through the day
Knowing you're back home waiting for me
hoping this week goes by quickly
Stay strong babe, and don't let your mind wonder
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder
You know I'm working hard to get back to you
And crawl back in this bed we made for two