I love you so much
And I KNOW I'm going to marry you
But I'm scared that I'm not good enough for you
I'm scared that I'll ruin your future as well as mine
I can already feel that I'm going down
A spiral of emotions that I CAN'T control
I'm sorry this is how I am
I'm so so sorry
I'm sorry

I'm living in fear of failure
Scared of taking a chance
Making a change
Driving me insane
**** MY BRAIN
I keep drinking to make myself feel ok
I dont what to say
Why was I made this way?
Lifes going well
And I've got a plan
But why do I feel like I'm escaping hell?
Someone show me the light
Get me through the night
Because I dont see a good ending in sight
I'm scared that I might not see this plan through
I'm scared of how I might effect you
Because I love you so much
And YOU dont deserve this
I dont deserve you
I dont deserve you

I'm scared I'll bring you down

You gave me life
And for that I am grateful
I'm sorry I take if for granted
You taught me right from wrong
And made me who I am
I'm sorry I cross the line sometimes
You're the reason I keep on trying
Even when I dont want to
I cant thank you enough
For everything you've done
I'm sorry for sometimes driving you mad
But I wouldn't ask for another Mum and Dad

A broken record, I love you so much
Low on battery, recharged by your touch
You truly are the omega of my heart
A beautiful painting, Gods work of art
When I'm with you, you cleanse my sin
There's so much to say, where do I begin?
On my darkest days, you get me through the night
When my path is wrong, you put it right
Words cant describe what you mean to me
If perfect was a word, you'd be what I see
Like a broken record, playing on repeat
Only you make my heart skip a beat
I love you so much, I tell you forever
I love you so much, we're meant to be together

it really should be so simple
to do the right things
remembering to eat
and going to sleep
but i stare at the ceiling
unless i take certain measures
and my tongue turns to cotton
my appetite has surely been better
so uninterested in what's left of life's pleasure
unbothered to set myself out to dry
sitting on shower floor
using my little alone time to cry
and life's actually never been this great
in many ways i'm growing
but i only see things i haven't achieved
and pain i'm not showing
its so weird to be in between
healed and healing
for the last couple weeks
i couldn't explain what i've been feeling
but maybe it will come back
the hunger for something more
until i'll just alternate
between being uncomfortable, suffering, or bored

We haven't spoke in a while
I hope you read this soon
Worlds apart yet I miss your presence
We only spoke for a little
But now you're gone
Please come back
Please come back
Just come back
Come back

Starving, craving, begging for a reason to keep going
Please tell me there is light because its not showing
I need every drop, every last ounce
I need a reason to keep showing my face
I tried so hard
Yet you still shoot me down
Then turned your back on your own ideals
******* for running my chances
******* for going back on your word
I cant believe I fell for your trick
I cant believe I took on your lies
How can I still see you as a friend yet pray for your downfall
I pray to go you dont win at all