I hate you, I hate you, I hate you
And you know that I do
You know the rage that sleeps within
You feel the pain creeping in
You hate me as much as I hate you
And when I look at you I hate what I see
I hate the fact and you are me

Where did you go?
I've lost who you were
You're the piece I'm missing
Where did you go?
Part of me wishes you never left
Part of me wishes it ended with you
All of me knows we were happier back then
Young, free and living wild
All of me misses that inner child

A hanus ***** born from the flame
When you do things wrong, I'm still to blame
Ugly in the face, heart and mind
A hateful soul Id regret to find
Using your hate yet you still lose this war
You're the ugliest soul I've ever seen before

Mortal words describing beauty so pure
Words don't exist for that I'm sure
But she was a goddess in my humble eyes
Mortal words hold many truths but many lies
Lying through the teeth like most mortals do
Though I cannot lie when I'm describing you
Because of you I know what I feel
Never I thought a woman could be real

To write about this girl is no easy task
How do you describe perfection?
I could tell you about how she makes me feel
How she calms my head when it gets to loud
How shes my guiding light when I'm lost in the crowd
How I can't go a day without craving her touch
If you couldnt tell I miss her so much
I could tell you how she brightens my day
Or some other basic cliche
More true is that she is my very world
In this neverending universe
The reason the sun rises to end the dark nights
The reason rain falls so we can dance in the puddles
The reason I strive to be a better man
There is nothing I want more than to see her succeed
She's not the girl I want but the only girl I need
I keep falling in love with her every single day
Shes the definition of perfection in every single way

Its crazy how one night can make me regress
I ****** up all my progress
Hating myself for a stupid mistake
Maybe my happiness was all just fake
Maybe I wasn't making any progress at all
Or maybe I'm always doomed to fall
I just want to give up and accept my fate
And let myself be consumed by hate
It's easier to go back to hiding in my bed
Praying that soon I'll be dead

And just like that I turn 22
Yet a month ago I didn't think I was going to see this year through
Coming to terms with my own mortality
I never thought this would be my reality
But here I am now, still alive
Years of pain I'd never thought I'd survive
Though the pain may never truly fade away
I'm glad I get to live to see another day