My eyes are dark
A hollow window inside
Where everything evil
All the monsters hide
Do not be mistaken
I’m not what you see
I’m not all those things
That you want me to be
I’m damaged and blackened
Like a cloud in a storm
Beware of my lighting
So much stronger than before
My love is all gone now
I know you don’t know
But I’m so close to death now
But you won’t let me go
I just keep on living
A day at a time
I’m living for you now
My life isn’t mine
I just want to leave this
To be free from my pain
But I wake up again now
And it starts over again

I’ve got no strings
To hold me down
To make me laugh
Or make me frown
I’ve got no one
I let them go
There’s no one left
I’m all alone
I’ve left it all
It all behind
There’s nothing left
Nothing to find
I just can’t stop
I need to cry
It’s so bizarre
I don’t know why
My heart is gone
Broken in two
And who’s to blame?
I know it’s you
They all just took
My life away
I’m empty now
No more to say

Hush little baby don’t say a word
Don’t listen to the cruel things you’ve heard
And if those harsh things find a way in
Just ignore them and know they won’t win
And if your heart feels as though it’s made of glass
And you feel that its pumping too fast
Just come out from there and look me in the eye
And no I can’t give you a reason why
And if you find that I am not enough
Then find you a man who looks real tough
And if that man can’t care for your soul
Just come back to me and I’ll make you whole

Here I am now
Sharp eyes in the dark
You’ll scream if you see me
Or wake with a start
Because I am it
I am what you all fear
You may keep your distance
For if you get too near
You’ll see what I am
And what I’ve become
Hissing and spitting
And it can’t be undone
I’m broken and shattered
Rewritten with pain
Theres no way to return me
Back to myself again
This is who I am
With my blackened heart
I watched as i rotted
As my life fell apart
I watched as I lost
Every part of my brain
And now you may judge me
You may call me insane
But you have not witnessed
All the things that I’ve done
And you have not looked
Down the barrel of this gun
Loaded and pointed
Right in my face
But too scared to look up
I hang my head in disgrace
But why am I hiding?
There’s not point anymore
There’s nothing too dangerous
When you’ve nothing to live for

I don’t notice you come in
How strange
I never thought this would happen
But oh how things change
I don’t need your approval
Don’t need your smile
I don’t belong to you now
And I haven’t for a while
I couldn’t feel it
As you slipped away
As I let you go
And more with each day
I don’t need your love
I don’t need you now
I’m breaking free from this
But I really don’t know how
I couldn’t imagine
Escaping your hold
My life revolved around you
But I’m out in the cold
And yet I don’t feel it
I don’t need you anymore
I might not love you
I might have won this war

My bones are broken
My eyes are raw
I’m not the same girl
As I was before
I’m battered and broken
Weary and old
Not in body but spirit
Or so I am told
Nothing matters now
But I still care too much
I want to be free now
But all that I touch
Shrivels and blackens
It all turns to coal
Everything has been tainted
By the dark in my soul
I’m being punished
I’m serving my time
I try to get through this
Keep saying ‘I’m fine’
But that’s just lies
The stuff that I say
To keep myself going
As my life slips away

How many people I’ve lost
All the friends passing through
But I can’t get too close
So what do I do?
When everyone I care about
Everyone I need
Just leaves me here broken
What a sad life indeed
I rely on these people
I trust them with my heart
I cry with them
And talk to them
And smile when we’re apart
About happy conversations
And all the jokes and laughs
But I can’t stop to hold on
Or catch them as they pass
You’ve still got me he says
But now he must go
I promise I won’t leave you
How could they know
How many people I’ve trusted
That all have gone past
One day if I’m lucky
One of them will last