shut up
Shut up
SHUT UP!
SHUT THE **** UP!!
I can't take it
I won't take it
You yell
You fight
It's not alright!
You plaster on these masks
Make it seem like its all fine
But it's not
It never will be
Not like it was
I can't take this ****
Day after day
Week after week
Month after month
Year after ******* year
It's all fake
Until the doors are shut
Behind closed doors it's "handled"
The thing is
The walls are thin
And I'm awake
When you think I'm asleep
Don't "Stay together for the kids"
There are no kids left
You think it's better to stay?
Well it's not
It's hurts more
For you
And for me
I can't take all the fake smiles
Fake laughter
Fake peace
Fake ******* love
Love should not be fake
Love can't be a mask
Take it off!
Take it off right now!
Do you hear me?!
Take it the *******!!
Love is all my dreams have left
So shut up
And don't take my last hope
So please
Don't stay together for the so called kids
My heart and ears can't take it
So please
Stop fighting and just shut up

Dear Sweet Reader,

I feel somewhat indebted to you
I'm guessing you're wondering
"Why"
The reason is that you give me validation
You give me an audience
Someone to hear my voice
And possibly remember my words
I feel you give me a reason to write
I feel better writing this
Knowing there's a chance
If only a small one
That my words may be read
And possibly enjoyed
I hope this meant something
However slight

Until we meet again,
Inspired writer

We all have that moment
that it all changed
That moment something went wrong
and all got rearranged
There's that moment you spoke
words that should never be said
That moment you got mad
and let it go to your head
There's that moment you acted
before you thought
The moment you lashed out
and maybe got caught
There's that moment you never planned
when it all went awry
The moment that went wrong
and it just went by
There are those moments
that catch you off your game
Those moments you knew
things would never be the same

Day after day
We miss it
We walk right pasted
Never igknowlaging it
Not sparing it one glance
It's all around us
Yet we never see it
What is it?
What do we ignore?
The world
That is what we miss
We over look it
Take it for granted
Almost everyday
We don't take the time
To smell the flowers
Bask in the sun
Watch the sun rise or set
Hear the twittering of nature
We are too busy
We have places to go
And people to see
We have emails to check
And statuses to update
We are so involved
In ourselves
Our schedules
Our places to go
And our people to see
Not only do we look over nature
We also neglect our fellow man
We see them everywhere
But we don't notice them
We walk right pasted each other
Not even giving a second's look
We all live on the same planet
The same earth supports us all
Yet we don't see it
We don't see the world around us
We ignore it
We don't see the people around us
We over look them
My original question was going to be
"Can you see it?"
But I think
"Will you see it?"
Is a better question
We all CAN see it
But WILL we?
I take time
Everyday
To just look
Look at the world
That I live in
That I've grown in
I take time
Just to see what
And sometimes who
Is around me
So I ask again
For the very last time
I want you to think
Will you see it?

Can I keep you?
I want to keep your smile
Your kindness
Your laugh
Your humor
Your heart
Your everything
Can I keep you?
Keep you in my head
My heart
My dreams
My presence
My life
My world
I guess the question really is
Will you let me keep you?
Let me see your smile
Know your kindness
Hear your laugh
Get your humor
Be in your heart
Love your everything
Can I keep you?
I ask because
I think its only fair
You already keep me
You have thoughts
Control my heart
Haunt my dreams
Monopolize my presence
Dominate my life
Are my world
So I ask only once more
Can I keep you?

Dear sweet reader
Do you wish to know my hamartia?
Better question
Do you know your hamartia?
Better question still
Do you know what a hamartia is?
Dear sweet reader
I'm not questioning your intelligence
I would never do such a thing
I am only asking
Because it is a new word
At least to me
Maybe to you as well
Dear sweet reader
Shall I tell you?
Tell you what a hamartia is
And of my hamartia
The answer is yes
A hamartia is a fatal flaw
Almost everyone has one
I do
You might
Do you have one?
Do you know what it is?
I have one
I know what it is
My hamartia, dear sweet reader,
Is that I fall in love to easy
And much to hard
So my dear sweet reader,
Care to share your hamartia?

There's no chance
No way
That could make me
Want to stay

It hurts too much
The pain's so bad
There's nothing happy
It's only sad

I wish it was different
I wish it was not true
My heart bleeds
For love of you

I wish I could take back
All that we said
I wish I could wash it
Right out of my head

There's only you in my heart
Only you in my head
But you only see her
I wish you would see me instead

There's so much I wish
So much that will never come true
There's all these "if only"s
About me and you

Wishing only hurts
It only causes pain
The fantasies
Will drive you insane

There's no use wishing
None at all
They only bulid you up
To watch you fall

They make you see
What you want the most
Then take it away
Leaving only their ghost

Wishing does nothing but hurt
So please don't start
Unless you're ready
For them to break your heart