Sometimes I create walls
I hide
I cry
Sometimes people ask what’s wrong
I get scared
I don’t answer
Sometimes I’m okay with that
I’m glad
I’m relieved
Sometimes I’m not
I want them to try harder
I just wanna yell “Try harder!!”
Sometimes I remember why I built my wall
I forget sometimes
I think about the rest of the times that aren’t sometimes
Sometimes I let it all go
It’s only sometimes
Only sometimes

You refuse to see
That you aggravate me
You talk nonstop
I think my ears will rot
You give me so much to think about
That I overload and have to shout
You’re annoying in everything you do
But I’m for some reason drawn to you
You’re the one I love to hate
I’m the one you love to exasperate
You have this weird kind of charm
That causes me the greatest alarm
Your every move is a puzzle
If I could I’d give you a muzzle
You are the one to light my fuse
Forever and a day you are my muse

What is in a name?
Description?
Category?
Definition?
What is in a name?
You chose to read this poem
Based on its name
Or at least that was
Part of it
Or am I wrong?
What is in a name?
It's a greeting
It's a calling card
It's a connection
But what is it really?
Names can change
Through marriage
Through nickname
Through law
Through so many things
What is in a name?
Why do we regard them so highly
Or so lowly?
Names aren't who we are
Names are just our titles
Names are just our covers
What is in a name?
I personally think
They are just placeholders
They hold our reputation
Until we can either live up to them
Fall short of them
Live beyond them
The placeholders are there
For people who think they know us
I know that I hate placeholders
They're ever so annoying
They set silly bars
That I'd like to take down
What is in a name?
Nothing until you fill it
With who you were
Who you are
And who you want to be

Sickness to the right
Sadness to the left
Responsibility ahead
Mixed feelings behind
Crushing weight above
Solid ground below
None of it mine
But all of it with me
No where to fun
No refuge to seek
No place to hide
It’s always there
Always, yesterday
Always, today
Always, tomorrow
What it comes down to
Time to pick a side
Time to break free
Time for just me...

Seconds
Of crying
Of breathing
Of joy
Seconds

Minutes
Of laughter
Of thinking
Of being
Minutes

Hours
Of yelling
Of sleeping
Of sadness
Hours

Days
Of new
Of happiness
Of old
Days

Moments
Of seconds
Of minutes
Of hours
Of days
Moments

Life
Of seconds
Of breathing
Of minutes
Of laughter
Of hours
Of sleeping
Of days
Of happiness
Of moments
Of so much
Life

I've seen you in my dreams
I don't know why but I have
They're all a bit fuzzy
But I remember you
I've seen your face
Heard your voice
Even felt your touch
Can you tell me why?
Can you tell me who you are?
I can't even ask you
I don't even know you
Why do you haunt me?
Why are you in my head?
Why I do see your face over and over?
Who am I directing these questions to?
I've seen you in my dreams
What does that mean?
Why do you haunt me?
I wonder, have you seen me in yours dreams?
Do I haunt you like you haunt me?
I have so many questions
But no one to give me answers.

I frequenly bad mouth you weather you're there or not
I call you all sorts of mean things
I tell you I hate you and to go to hell
I get you so upset at me all the time
I yell rant and rave about how bad you are
I don't mean any of it, really
I know you know that
I also know that the moment anyone says 1/10 of that
I'll say:
"Only I can yell at them!"
"Only I can call them stupid!"
"Only I can make them upset!"
"Only I can..."
And if anyone ever ask why "Only I can..."
I'll say:
"Because only I can call them best friend"