I've lost my ability to cry with my heart
Hot stingy tears roll down my warn cheeks
Yet there is no real feeling behind them
The tears flow until they see fit to stop
But I feel nothing for them
I can put the emotion behind it that I wish
But nothing real
It doesn't feel like real emotion filled tears
I can smile when they fall
I can put on a sad face as they drip
I can look angry as the run down my neck
Yet I can't feel they're meaning
Its like my heart told me to cry
But forgot to inform my brain of the reason
I'm frozen and unfeeling
I'm broken and a empty shell

You lost a friend
Its gonna be alright
Your pet dyed
Its gonna be alright
You got hurt
Its gonna be alright
You cry
Its gonna be alright
You're heartbroken
Its gonna be alright
Your world is crashing down
Its gonna be alright
But what if it's not alright?
People always say
Its gonna be alright
But how do they know?
What if Its not gonna be alright?
What if you're broken and definitly not alright?
What gives them to right to say
Its gonna be alright?
Does that mean when it's not alright
I can blame them?
Because I don't feel it's gonna be alright
I feel shattered and far from alright
I just wanna shout it's not alright!
I just wanna scream stop saying alright!
But I can't
We both know it's not always gonna alright
But then again those are comforting words people say
Even with that I'm sick of the words
It's gonna be alright.
I'm just not alright!
I'm
Not
Alright!!

I used to write secret codes in the back of my diary
Thinking no one would be clever enough to look there
I used to dream of being a ballerina
Not even knowing where to begin
I used to want to be just like my mom
So I would try on her shoes and think myself grown up
I used to wish on the stars
Not caring if the wishes came true
I used to dream of what I would be
Not knowing it might not be possible
I used to do a lot of things
Until the world yelled: Grow up!

I don't talk I write
because I'm afraid to fight
not fighting as in 1 on 1
I think thats really fun
I mean fight the tears
fight the growing fears
fight who i don't want to be
fight the weaker and scared me
I write all down
to keep away the frown
i don't think I'll ever change
but i don't think its strange
i don't dare go near the hurtle my path
for fear of its crippling wrath
I'll just stay in my buble and hide
I think it's safe and cozy inside

I want to hear your heartbeat
I want to feel your heat
I want to know your every scar
I want to know who you are
I want you to feel my love for you
I want you to know that it is true
All I really want is for you to know
That no matter what I'll never let you go

Why did you seek me out?
I'm not falling for it
I don't think you're serious
You're here now
But you'll leave
Everyone does
No one ever stays
You may want to be with me now
Be you'll get tired of me
No matter how much I try
Or how much you say you won't
You will
I'm not beautiful on the outside
Or even on the inside
I'm ugly and stained
I'll never make you happy
I'll never be your missing piece
So before you and I get hurt
I'll shut that door
I'll push you away
I'll give all I've got
If you stay long enough
I might get tired of pushing
And you can push open that door
And take your place in my heart
It's a long shot
But if you're willing to take it
I'll give you the chance
Just thought I'd let you know
I'm kinda rooting for you to push for me

Someone's playing tricks on me
I don't know if its lady luck or even God
But someone's playing tricks on me
I had finally settled my feeling for you
And suddenly you choose my name and blew me away
Someone's playing tricks on me
And I don't know who to blame
I wouldn't mind the tricks so much
If I knew why they keep leading me to you
Someone's playing tricks on me
And I wish they would play some on you.