Oh God.
He's replacing me!
Bringing in someone new
Telling me I'm replaceable
Oh God.
He's replacing me!
How could this happen?
I haven't even left yet
Am I that forgettable?
Oh God.
He's. Replacing. Me?
I'm irreplaceable
I'm unforgettable
I'm replacing him!
Oh God.
He's irreplaceable
Unforgettable
And looking for someone to fill me shoes
Oh God
I'm done
Forgotten
Replaced...

Things can’t get worse
I feel like I’m dying
Even tho it hurts
I really am trying
You say one thing
I say another
Our opinions differ
We’re not good for eachother
You sit on your throne
Playing with my guilt and sadness
I can’t help but think
You enjoy my madness
You peer at me without a word
I can't stand you judging eyes
I silently let it go
Breathing exasperated sighs
Being so close is definitely not good
We need some time apart
I think alone time is what we need
Then we can make a fresh start

There’s a knife in my heart
I wonder who put it there?
You know who don’t you?
You know how to twist it
To make my feel it
How to **** it
Make me wince
How to cut deeper
Make me bleed
How to slice
Make me feel bad for you
Please make it go away
I beg you, please
Just take it out
Let me bleed out
Let me heal
Or stick it deeper
**** what’s left of my heart
Let me feel some peace
Let me heal

It’s like walking on eggshells
CRACK!
One misstep
CRACK!
Say something slightly out of turn
CRACK!
Do something a little askew
CRACK!
Don’t say what is wanted
CRACK!
Don’t act as planned
CRACK!
Don’t take what is said correctly
CRACK!
Don’t bend to your will
CRACK!
Don’t when the last crack will do it
SHATTER!

Holding on is sometimes harder than letting go
I’m holding on to something i’ll never know
Holding on to my feeling for you
I’m not quite sure what to do
Holding on to what i want so bad
I’m grasping at what i never had
Holding on just for a chance
To maybe find romance
Hold on with a firm grip
Afraid if i let go i’ll rip
Holding on to what will never be mine
Why oh why for you do i pine?
Holding on as if for dear life
My heart and my brain in a strife
Holding on to feelings i’ll never show
Fearing the pain of letting go

You know me so well
I know next to nothing about you
You’re so close
Yet so far
I hate it
I hate it
I hate it!
You’re adorable
You’re funny
You’re hideous
You’re obnoxious
I hate it
I hate it!
You’re the first person I look for
You’re the last person I want to see
I hate it!
You’re just you
The light of my day
The wrecking ball of my week
But I love you
And I hate it

We love each other
We say it
And mean it all the time
I love you so much
And I know you love me
But I love you a little differently
I love you just a little more
Were we love each other for the people we are
I also love you in a romantic way
I treat you almost as if we are dating
You let me do it all the time
You don't see a problem
But I unfortunately do
I don't always mean to do it
I really don't
But you don't mind
And I let you do the same
We walk down the street
You put your arm around my waist
I sit on the couch and play on my phone
You come put you head on my lap and talk about your thoughts
I put my feet in your lap
And you massage them
I eat something
And almost feed you some
You sit on the porch
I know you want to talk
We do so many things
We are so very close
And you don't see it
You only see platonic love
You think this is what friends do
I know that its not normal
I know that I should stop before I get too deep
But it feels so comforting to put my legs on yours
Its nice when you and I talk about anything
I love when its just you and me just being
I should stop this weird situation
Not separate completely
Just stop acting like we're a couple that doesn't kiss
Not get out of our friendship or stop our meaningful talks
Just let go of the fantasies of us holding hands
Not cut you out of my life
Just not be so close
Because as comfortable as it can be
Platonic dating *****