what a world
baby the way you kissed me last night
what a word
poetry after dark
secrets
started as lovers
no need for pressure love
our passion is keeping me up a night
thank you
for letting me sway my hips
thank you
for loving me in the dark
thank you
for kissing my back at night
whatever it is
I am down to play with lust.

tears are dry
I wish I could allow misery to hang around
I have come to being oblivious to anything that doesn't involve
love
within my soul
aches a romance
that pours into my character
you have
accepted every naked side of me
there is a beauty in the breakdown
have you ever been loved from the inside out?
you will never move the same ever again.

The rest I can do without
Your future self is watching you right now
Through your memories
Make me proud
Make them proud
Make god proud
Children of darkness
You’re the kind of soul
That stirs up magic in others
Maybe 10 years from now we’ll meet again at a coffee shop down the road
And start over
This is not a love story
It’s a tragedy
It seems that every time I have lost myself
I end up coming back
With more of myself than before

Jazz
Jazz
whatever it is
It sprinkled unexpected doses of wisdom and insight
Can you focus on just me?
I am not allowed to beg you to stay
But i am allowed to show you what you should settle for
the rest can expand within us.

you sure have been misleading this trust
my house
my tears
my fears
what I do is none of your concern
I am sure she will never be able to excite you like I did
but honestly
that's not my concern
a door closed
but a million just opened
lucky
blessed
I haven't felt this light
I haven't felt this love
I haven't felt like myself
in a while
brb.
taking this time to myself.

Midnight blues
Pink moscato
A shot of henny
And i wonder
Do you feel the things i do
Dreaming of elegance
Can i be loved again ?
Small steps
Long  journey
Trying to reconcile
tradition and change.

I’m brutally exhausted, and all I want is to be held by you
I’m slightly intoxicated, yet all I want is you
Sort of lost in this world twirling upon my chaos
I just want to curl up in a ball and hide
I just want to sit in silence and feel your fingertips gently brushing up on my spine
Planting sweet kisses on my weary shoulders that get me high
All I want is another bottle of wine
All I want is to sit on the past time, rewind back to where we had it all intertwined
We weren’t in love, but oh god we could have been.
****, we could have been.

times
you looked at me
with so much desire
i hope you mean it
i hope you mean it
when you make love to me
I am not just another woman
i am the woman
please recognize my worth
before i have to remind myself

Consume mindfully.

Eat with awareness and gratitude.
Pause before buying and see if breathing is enough.
Pay attention to the effects of media you consume.
Pause. Breathe. Listen.

When you feel compelled to speak in a meeting or conversation, pause.
Breathe before entering your home, pleace of work, or school.
Listen to the people you encounter. They are buddhas.
Practice gratitude.

Notice what you have
Be equally grateful for opportunities and challenges.
Share joy, not negativity.
Cultivate compassion and loving kindness.

Notice where help is needed and be quick to help
Consider others' perspectives deeply.
Work for peace at many levels.
Discover wisdom

Cultivate "don't know" mind (= curiosity).
Find connections between Buddhist teachings and your life.
Be open to what arises in every moment.
Accept constant change.

I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU
I HOPE YOURE WELL.

Temporary feelings will remain dead
I am not here to amuse your childish plays
Ive been through so many roller coasters
i can finally say, I've been flying away
when i am writing
my head is poetically in outer space
My fingertips connect with my emotions
and they spit out comical threats
this isn't an allusion
its actually honesty
whatever you decide to gain from it
thats your destiny
NOT MY HEART NOT MY PROBLEM
Take care of you.

We either become sadder
Or our heart beats become louder
My heart,
My heart is eating so fast my bones are tingling
Vibrating through my veins
My blood stream is failing
I think too much
I don’t pray enough
Lost touch with the angels
The angels lost me
Forgetting this
Words are words by choice
Awkwardly complicated
Passionate souls intertwined in chaos
Beautiful chaos
My hands are shaking, they can’t stand still
I overdo it with coffee, I over did it.
Can’t handle my life sober
So much ****** up **** in the world
Smart people seem like crazy people to dumb people
And if you believe you can change the world
You’re one of a kind.

You still don’t understand where I belong
Overbooked
Overextended
Overcommitted
Lady, hear me tonight
I  wish i was twirling in love with you
I'm still trying to  get over the concept
That our love will never be enough
Poetry is justifying everything
That I want to leave behind
Don't do this to me
Again,

flip the page
hurry up and change the script
no one cares if you’re struggling
shake away your demonic feeling
and find a way out
do not let life make you cold
Never discredit your gut instinct
simplicity is the ultimate sophistication
you’ll wish you did me different one day
God will come through for you
just be patient.

I was confused at the way I have been handling things. Ironically I thought I would stick around to find out what love truly was. I never felt loved in my past life, and here it is, this man patiently waiting for me to love him back. How ironic was it that the man I’ve been praying for came around and found me.  Am I allowed to prance around this concept that I found someone who tries to find ways to make me happy. Isn’t that love after all, to find those able to mend your bones into one. The love that helps you become better and find yourself.  I still debate that the love you are raised by is the love you go by. My parents and I still battle around the fact that I never felt their love with them coming up, my mother thinks I should seek help, and that its all in my head. But how is it that I never felt their love elude within me. I have searched, sacrificed, and underestimated my life due to the fact that I never felt I was good enough for them. Which later in life exults all these insecurities that I still have yet to understand how to control. I follow I pretty thin protocol, transparent really, you get what you see, and what you see you get, yet the only people I find trouble being my unpoligcally self around, that would be my parents. It’s like walking on eggshells when I am around them. I will never underestimate the level of obedience and manners I have been taught growing up, that’s a magical skill that as I’m still learning is hard to obtain. I try not to let those who don’t know how to behave, don’t even abide by the concepts of loyalty, its sad that sometimes people come around you as a warning to watch the company that surrounds you. The saddest times are when you realize that the person you ride for doesn’t ride for you the same. Sure we will forever realize that no ones carry the same heart, as you, and the way you put your heart out, no one does it like you. But where are those who are like me?  Cause lately I have been feeling so insecure about the way people have been disrespecting me, why the **** do people need to hate on you?

YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID!!
- Even if you are not the one suffering the most in the situation
- Even when other people also have valid needs or concerns
- Needs and needing to be heard are not exclusive to one person at a time. All needs and voices are - equally - important (including yours)
- For your brain health/development your voice needs (and deserves) to be heard.
- If you ignore/hide your needs and/or feelings even for the sake of others it does not end up “just fine.” In fact, these hurts/unmet needs stay and you WILL have to deal with them someday. And if you don’t, you will eventually get scarred or crashing because your brain and heart need health and healing too!
So, don’t keep silent. It is still “nice” to allow your own existing and needs.

the best teacher is your experience
we cannot nurture others from a dry spell
selfcare is not selfish
she wept because she was an empath
a sponge that always felt the need to heal
then she started to walk the road lonely
always left dry
so she built walls and mountains
and in order to be in
you needed to be it
she always knew
from the smile of your smirk
fake trends
she followed her own scent
I never needed to be liked
but I was always loved
and if I felt comfortable
id be loving too

here
here we go
slowing down
THATS NOT MY STYLE
i speed to accomplishments
i dream of communication
slow riding cause i feel insane
insane
creating for us fools
who fall in love hard and quick
spitting facts at 12:15 am
could you kiss me blind
cut the *******
please
please don't treat me like just another
please
remind me of my worth
please
recognize the type of woman I am
rare.

Roll another one
Exhale another one
Bless you
Sigh
Of every type of relief
I wish you nothing
But a speedy recovery
I communicate in third person
People never want to hear your story
A couple of glasses ‘
Every night
Speeding down your heartbreak
Shaking
Cause I can never sit still
My hair is in a bun
But I still look special
Cause the angels
Always shine  down on me

I'm a fool for getting fooled
if the lover is not oriented at the beginning?
How can the lover be disoriented at the end?
Please make me wild
Having nothing to lose has made me fearless
Basking in the thought of you
Poems with the front door open
I prefer the rose before it bloomed.

How empty everything seems lately
But my red wine is always full
What a night
What a life
Too much of me
Is often lost
In the vision of what somebody else wanted me to be
Powerful closure
Think about where you were last year
Are you satisfied?
Learning to  pick yourself up after  going through ****
Is such an important thing
That no one ever teaches you
Do not beg anyone to love you
You are worth the war
And the storm
And the calm
Just always be honest with your script.

Who knew all you needed to do was a bit of self-cleaning
A bit of self-healing
Woke up and I took a deep breath
My god this life is a catastrophe
It’s so unpleasant
I launched a substantial amount of smoke in my lungs
I flew away, in my brain
I was gleaming
I roared I wept I bawled
I wanted to settle
I wanted more.
It was never enough

he makes me feel confident
he makes me feel safe
he calls me shorty
he kisses me every chance he can
he holds my hand
he asks about my day
he feeds me
he loves on me
he makes me smile
he makes me laugh
he numbs the pain
he is my poetry
he is my muse
he is my romance
and could this be
true love
twin flames
baby I want to be yours forever.

poetry
on the late night
I want a late snack
that includes you
hovering over my solitude
i need it
i want it
i deserve it
all of it.
when you give it to me
make sure, you are always making love to me
cause I always feel it
when you hitting it right
and when you not
so let me know
if I satisfy everything you've ever wanted by your side
and if I'm not
please let me go
and let me prosper alone in the night.

you're the major friend factor in my life
I'm sorry I didn't pull you out of your misery
I still held on
I know you're regretting the silence between us
I wish things turned out differently for you
I wish you didn't keep circling around
  ...........the same fools who often play you
but be still young one
mistakes don't make people
you make yourself
and you needed to step away from the feigns
you couldn't lean on
I know
you were always my lil shortie
and honestly
I'm glad you're in there and not dead.

We search for love, and any time we encounter love we introduce ourselves to such power. Cause at the end of the day its power. Makes you feel some type of way type of power. We either **** for it or strive for it. Encountering love is seen as deadly, your emotions are roller coasting through the maybes, the what ifs, the why not, oh and the who cares. Well you care, if you didn’t care you wouldn’t think about it so analytical. You wouldn’t question every aspect of f love.  It should be simple, many of us tend to fear this word yet progress conflicting its beautiful emotion with chaos. It shouldn’t be chaos, it should be passion, it should be pure, it should start slow, or it should become true. However it happens we search for love.  Women have idealized this theory of men treating women well. But it makes you reflect on, do women treat men well. In this society, that has ruined our hearts and took over our souls. We have idealized the meaning of a relationship, the meaning of two people intrigued by one another’s mind, the meaning of a happiness that occurs in silence. The energy of love being touched by one soul to another by only a curve of a smile, the beauty of a smile. Smiles change someone’s image, being the observant feign, have realized that you can tell when people are faking the smile cause it leads to the vibe. Energy’s feed off each other, the type of energy you give, will eventually become the same you  tend to receive. Becoming off topic is sort of my style, started it out with love thought about smiles. Cause love evaporates a smile, it flirts with your desire, it conflicts with your honor, but it can feed you everything you want to learn about  its power. Love is power, we are all humans, searching for another soul that can touch our hearts and warm up our bones. Someone that can make you feel alive when you’re stuck in that hole. Someone you share your flaws with and still be content that those flaws that excite your beauty, and if you’re imperfections weren’t pure you wouldn’t be worth it. I can be that person, the only problem is, where is my person? where is that one person that makes me cling to my seat with those sweet kisses being spread across my cheek.

Having you shared is a crime
Proclaiming that you're a star
Twirling and blinded by the lies
Trying to reach somewhere far
Point of no return has reached a fly
Everyone is just trying get by
Wanting to reach the sky.
Waiting to set feelings aside
Determined to be heard
Wishing upon a star to be felt.
No need for these fears to be kept
Sharing my feelings in order for fate.
Success is just a bit late.

I didn’t need saving
I simply needed healing
Amused by this wicked downcast
Soft tones are for those who don’t feel the music
I’m liberal on this journey filled with beats
I glanced at my past
It startled me so I hustled
I dashed, I fled.
I exclaimed my love, and that should be desired.

Is it too sad to become depressingly hopeless of it all,
At first, I packed my heart up and left, I stayed heartless
Second, I decided to grab my mind and leave again, I was mindless, and heartless
Third, I gave up and grabbed my soul and pushed it away, I became soulless, mindless, and heartless
Fourth, I became alone, I forgot my value, and my worth.
I was soulless, mindless, and heartless
Then you did it,
You believed in me, you showed me the sun, you helped me run without the gun, and it was too much fun.

it took a romance movie
to unlock these heavy emotions
currently mourning a heartbreak
before it has even begun
I wish I could
conclude this love story
but I'm personally speechless
at the thought of the end of this love story
for the first time in my life
love found me in ways that has helped me
find myself
forever more - if I died today
I was able to experience this love
tears overflowing
I wish I knew how to block away this
love notes
every reminder of how romance met me
my dearest
I never knew what love
until you loved me.

this right here
has me
writting love notes to myself
at 1 am
when it feels this deep
you gotta keep it
here we go
all over again
the same fights cause your ego lets you
i have never
been
questioned
by my loyalty
im....
hurt.

I am pretty sure i did not meet you for nothing

It's lonely at the top
so be prepared for your circle to be small
speaking up shouldn't result in treating you unfairly
you should never correct your boss in public

what does being happy mean to you ?

I have become Hermetic

HYPERBOLE

What ever you wish for
speak it into existence
pray for your dreams
people like you deserve blessings

MY ENERGY IS CLEAN
I do not condone negative conversations
Don't update me
I'm out of the loop

those kisses you randomly place on my cheeks
resemble
a warm hug at the right time

thank you for making me believe in love again.

I am not sure if this is heartbreak
Or it’s the ending to something that needed to be done

muses
or mentally stimulating thoughts
I haven't been writting
but my soul has been typing
unwinding whenever I am with you
emotions don't drown my sound when im in love with you
slow dancing in peace
cloud  9 does exist
you and I
are there
existing within the frames of love
we perfectly fit well together
a romantic
classical
old times
movie
everyday is a love story
with you

Long
Yet
Too short
Succeeding notes
Disappearing emotions
I have manifested my own light
I took care of it
It became bright
On and on
I wish I knew
I wish I threw
It all away before It reached me
Sinking ships
Sinking lips
Smothered by your love and it still was not enough