I never caved
'to what I was told
I wrote drunk
and edited sober
I created my own path
standards
rules
and devotions
if you knew
I thrive if I am loved properly
baby I am a butterfly
I always break through

the best teacher is your experience
we cannot nurture others from a dry spell
selfcare is not selfish
she wept because she was an empath
a sponge that always felt the need to heal
than she started to walk the road lonely
always left dry
so she built walls and mountains
and in order to be in
you needed to be it
she always knew
from the smile of your smirk
fake trends
she followed her own scent
I never needed to be liked
but I was always loved
and if I felt comfortable
id be loving too

tears are dry
I wish I could allow misery to hang around
I have come to being oblivious to anything that doesn't involve
love
within my soul
aches a romance
that pour into my character
you have
accepted every naked side of me
there is a beauty in the breakdown
have you ever been loved from the inside out?
you will never move the same ever again.

fall in love with the person who enjoys your madness
I look forward to laughter together
flowers grow back even after the hardest winters
the rose that grew from concrete
I am trying to live without pretending
love without depending
listen without defending
and spend without offending
thank you for being a friend and much more
are words I want to accomplish
daily
a good person
that I am.

muses
or mentally stimulating thoughts
I haven't been writting
but my soul has been typing
unwinding whenever I am with you
emotions don't drown my sound when im in love with you
slow dancing in peace
cloud  9 does exist
you and I
are there
existing within the frames of love
we perfectly fit well together
a romantic
classical
old times
movie
everyday is a love story
with you

scrambling to find peace
munching daily on worry cookies trying to suppress the truth
comunicating love notes lately
hungering for more even if the strain leaves you anxious; it's worth it
poetry and sunsets
feening for the high, reality dissipates
healing and planting in solitude
gaining weight, addicted... scale doesn't matter
thank you god for carrying me through my worst and good times
twilight light zone...d.... out, "what the **** is mixed in these cookies...' day dreaming... because it doesn't feel like worry... when I'm high... cookies.... don't die
bad energy stay far away.

baby
I am just a reflection of you
moon
beating hard
loving you
mental notes
music notes
moonlight dancing and escaping
every once of me
is twirling in love with you

it took a romance movie
to unlock these heavy emotions
currently mourning a heartbreak
before it has even begun
I wish I could
conclude this love story
but I'm personally speechless
at the thought of the end of this love story
for the first time in my life
love found me in ways that has helped me
find myself
forever more - if I died today
I was able to experience this love
tears overflowing
I wish I knew how to block away this
love notes
every reminder of how romance met me
my dearest
I never knew what love
until you loved me.

I am pretty sure i did not meet you for nothing

Romanticizing my life
I deserve fresh flowers by my bed side
one of one
I mingle with the stars
and slow dance with the moon
I twirl in the rain
and i connect with the thunder
comfort calms my sanity
falling in love with taking care of myself
I bask with my emotions
every sadness comes with feeling
who i am is deep
intense even
dramatically poetic
i say how i feel
and i feel what i say
my story just started
i said i was getting everything i deserve and desire
I am a good person
and i strive to be one.

poem - i lost count
i write for myself
not for self - pitty
I don't speak on my struggle

Hotline bling
however it was
however it is
here i am


thats how love is made

what makes you feel safe ?

honesty
loyalty
seeing me
understanding me

nothing is more attractive than someone who you teaches you things

you don't know what others are dealing with
you dont know what others are going through
look at what you are dealing with
look at what you are going through

be kind, that is what i want to be remembered as

raison d'Être

It's lonely at the top
so be prepared for your circle to be small
speaking up shouldn't result in treating you unfairly
you should never correct your boss in public

what does being happy mean to you ?

I have become Hermetic

HYPERBOLE

What ever you wish for
speak it into existence
pray for your dreams
people like you deserve blessings

MY ENERGY IS CLEAN
I do not condone negative conversations
Don't update me
I'm out of the loop

those kisses you randomly place on my cheeks
resemble
a warm hug at the right time

thank you for making me believe in love again.

I have accomplished plenty
I have been blessed plenty
thankful, I pray daily
what you put out - you receive
watch your tongue
you build and fail this way
mesmerized by romatasizing my own life
Its been a while since I've let my mind spill
lingerie - red to be exact
what it feels like to feel **** in private?
everything that we do
should be between me and you
I don't have much to say lately
I've been observing
i vibe on a different frequency
I know I'm chosen,
I've been through hell and back and
Im
                                                                                              still
solid.

this right here
has me
writting love notes to myself
at 1 am
when it feels this deep
you gotta keep it
here we go
all over again
the same fights cause your ego lets you
i have never
been
questioned
by my loyalty
im....
hurt.

temptation
i miss the way you hold me
IN front of the sun
was it lust
do i even matter to you
what am i to you?
exactly?
cause i speak sonnets
when they ask me
who I'm with....
what do you tell them
about me?

here
here we go
slowing down
THATS NOT MY STYLE
i speed to accomplishments
i dream of communication
slow riding cause i feel insane
insane
creating for us fools
who fall in love hard and quick
spitting facts at 12:15 am
could you kiss me blind
cut the *******
please
please don't treat me like just another
please
remind me of my worth
please
recognize the type of woman I am
rare.

poetry
on the late night
I want a late snack
that includes you
hovering over my solitude
i need it
i want it
i deserve it
all of it.
when you give it to me
make sure, you are always making love to me
cause I always feel it
when you hitting it right
and when you not
so let me know
if I satisfy everything you've ever wanted by your side
and if I'm not
please let me go
and let me prosper alone in the night.

tea

to warm every anxiety triggering sparks that are flying within me.
breathe
breathing heavily
what is on my mind
pure bliss and success
wins and trophies
characteristic respect
i felt your aura
and that was enough
i don't trust many
i thought you knew that
assuming with your tongue
stop that ****
i need that
validating my worth
through my light
and that's enough.

courageous
i shattered
and i crashed
and i demolished every thing that was stopping me
..
here i stand.

focus
but I'm focused
let loose
cause its been a while
here I am
here I was
not believing in my being
I like
I love
the way
you acknowledge my elegance
delicate
blowing bubbles with the goons
go ahead and flip
I'm a warrior
you sent me flying  
in tune
with more than my soul
your energy snitched on you
I don't keep just everyone around
you are here
you have earned it
ride or die.

I dare you
to say we weren't special

lovely day
isolated and in tuned
you are always right
I'm emotional
and that scares the **** out of you
but that's alright
you have never been loved
the way I love
you have never felt love
the way I give you love
rare
royalty
I dream of loyalty

where do i write
where do i sigh
baby
switching me up
dripping
show some love
show me some heart
poetry
the way you love on me
the way you come for me
please
don't ever let it
fade.

Clearly
dump truck
bumping
i practice what i feel
clearly you have me here
taking it all out
i mean it when i said it
1:26 am
mean it when i say it
i used to walk around
fools
breaking all the rules
living best of both worlds
baby i am ready
to rock your world

times
you looked at me
with so much desire
i hope you mean it
i hope you mean it
when you make love to me
I am not just another woman
i am the woman
please recognize my worth
before i have to remind myself

why does poetry
come to me after midnight
come and take me
poems
stepping stones
how can i
how can i be yours
you're my thrill
what do i want
i want to twirl to Billie holiday every morning
math my energy
dreaming of you
nothing seems to matter
here is my heart
on a silver platter

we pretend
cause it feels okay
and that is okay
furthermore
way up in the blues
i always remember the moonlight
that night
sunset
heart spells
shorty

A Sunday kind of love
And if you don’t like my love
Then teach me how to
What do you like?
Show me how to make love to you
I just want to make love to you
Hold me like there’s nothing else you wanna do
Real recognizes real
Poetry with a couple of glasses of wine
Tell me I’m summer time fine
Tell me my insecurities are benign
For you are mine
At last
11:25 pm

Teemers / Beti

women
are like onions
the deeper you get
the sweeter she gets
but you have to know
as a woman
how sweet your core is
to protect it
cause every men
want the tootsie pop
you don't want to do the work
so please ****
real recognize real.

searching for you
I'm dedicating poetry
that's all I can offer
but I promise you
you will never need anything else
but me
and you deserve me baby
you want me baby
you need me baby
a good man has blessed me
with his love
and I hope
my emotions don't evoke
but my heart is processing this love
I got you forever
promise.
2017

sweet bliss
sweet memories
sweet tricks
you have my tongue
riding with you
pure bliss
kiss me again
I cant get enough
I'm full
but I'm still hungry for your love
thank you
for always looking at me and saying
I appreciate you shorty
vice versa my love
I am falling in love with you
please catch me

he makes me feel confident
he makes me feel safe
he calls me shorty
he kisses me every chance he can
he holds my hand
he asks about my day
he feeds me
he loves on me
he makes me smile
he makes me laugh
he numbs the pain
he is my poetry
he is my muse
he is my romance
and could this be
true love
twin flames
baby I want to be yours forever.

what we do
is not ordinary
what we do
is magic
I am far from perfect
where would I be without my baby.

3:01 am
in my thoughts
in my words
poetry
releasing serious energy
can I have you
I want to have you
need you
poetry
on the late night

have we managed
to write poems
about heartbreak
can we handle
all of it and above
I wanted to
I needed to
I had to
superstar
beyond things
beyond words
there I am
there I go
would you notice me
I dedicate this to my superstar
number one fan
I needed it
I wanted it

power
Tequila numbed out the pain
what you get
is what you see
vulnerable
I took the time
and it was  worth it
baby I'm worth it
poetry
can I teach you what I believe in
secrets
opening up to you was a given

Here we go
Here we are
6/22/2020
September is almost here
I am turning 29
Wow
Life has been a shock
Life has been in rocks
Ive been conquering different thoughts
Magic queen
Poetic thing
Demanding fool
A lover and a fighter

Long
Yet
Too short
Succeeding notes
Disappearing emotions
I have manifested my own light
I took care of it
It became bright
On and on
I wish I knew
I wish I threw
It all away before It reached me
Sinking ships
Sinking lips
Smothered by your love and it still was not enough

Have we ever been feeling low
Commenting on slow words
Reciprocating the wrong turn
Have you ever
Been mistreated
Are you heated?
or wanting to believe
wanting to see
wanting to hear
feeling like I frankly care
feeling like I am barely there
so deep
so deep you lost your thought
I have taught you know enough
To know that I am enough

you know I need too much attention
for **** like that
sza
I need you
I need you
I need you
chemistry.....
always ends me
temporary love
more
I tried to tell you
I need more
don't try to deny me
ill switch up

I want more
can you give me more?

1:17 AM
I forgot about the time
scrambled pages
messy places
petty faces
still love
always love
merlot
a couple of glasses of merlot
detachment on the early
dreary eyes
but I'm still hungry
I am sorry I lost control when I was with you...
I lost my soul when I was with you
I forgot who I was when I was with you
why didn't you let me go sooner ?

inspiration
I belong to nobody
writing stars
writing skies

thanking god

e v e r y d a y

BROKEN CLOCKS

a love language
rub my feet and love me harder
heavy breathing
heavy reaching
breaking points
started love notes
between you and I
chemistry
is all I know
the rest can unfold on its own
fairytale.

she said she's packing her stuff and leaving yours behind

mistakes
mishaps
brand new
up and coming love
up and coming fighter
my dreams are brighter
nightmares filled with color
how did you get so far
however
I adore loving from afar
jazz tones
jazz tongues
kissing away the knots
that ruin your luck
let me shower your vibe
you should always have me in your tribe
even though I prefer by your side.

All we are
Playing games
subliminal message
did I ever?
somehow in a mood and its a secret
all I ever asked for
is for you to show me so love
baby please be the painter
and let me be your muse
Reminiscing on positive affirmations
love notes to myself
while hugging my thighs tighter
we around for about decade
wondering what type of love that make us come back
however it was
I am still here for it
please stop looking for me
you will never know this misery
that grew a hungry monster
inside of me
Please don't ever forget
how fragile I am

can you hold hands with a poet ?
can you dream with a poet
can you love a poet
we cant start with flowers
but
also end with flowers
I have been in love with a ghost
i have been falling foolish on different notes
high note
low note
same keys
different breeze
somehow
I always find away back to myself

we just started having fun
I still can't get away from myself
smiles blending
here we are
ready for detachment
like we are going to war
haven't been myself lately
not sure how dismissive I became
how many questions do you need to ask
to get the right answers
still counting
heartbreaks
life breaks
rewinding everything from the start
erase.
start over.

write.
dictate
talk
speak
state
hard headed
I am too
currently
******
but close to the ending
what do I do?