Certain individuals dedicate their lives to achieve such a title
Others simply idolize those they wish they could be while standing shyly in the shadows
But most,
Most people just want to be accepted.

As a race,
We were limitless
Unstoppable, even
We took life by the horns.
Nowadays,
We matter very little
It's a dog eat dog mentality
Human life is consistently disrespected by its inhabitants
And this is not the way it was meant to be,
No,
It is the way we have made it.

It was her
Her gleaming eyes became irresistible to him
His underlying emotional demeanor was obvious to her
She slid herself into his heart
It was not just a game,
It was a way for her to find love
For her, love meant taking hold of another mans heart,
Suffocating it
Squeezing it
And finally, crushing it.

She was it
She was that girl who hurt so badly that she could never love again
She destroyed every decent man in her path
This vicious cycle became a quick fix
For at any point in time,
She could always fish for more.

One step, two steps
Steady breaths
Emotional thoughts
Problems
Solutions
More problems
Better solutions
I can see the finish line
Exhaustion
Tranquility
And finally,
Silence.

Lack of self confidence
We morph into the people surrounding us
Then they ask us who we are
Silence

I think of all the horrible events in my life
Isn't that the answer
Everything sad or traumatic
So we can continue to sulk in our pathetic lives
"My pain is worse than yours"

But what about our successes
It seems almost unnatural
In a world tainted by weakness and destruction
Why can't we absorb the light?

It's hard to watch her suffer
Tears streaming down her face
Collecting at her cheekbone,
Then falling onto the bedsheets all at once

She's crying over you again
I suppose it's a mixture of the lying and cheating
I wonder if I should tear into you like an unwrapped Christmas present
Though, I suspect Karma will suffice
For she's not creating these rivers of tears for nothing, my dear
Good luck.

Maybe the answer is not to fight the word,
But to change the stigma placed upon it.

I dream
Of the twinkling stars
The glowing moon
The dewy grass

I dream
Of my future
My extraordinary career
My beautiful family

But most of all,
I dream
Of you
Holding me under the dark sky
And creating a perfectly messy life together

*** silences my emotionality
For thirty minutes,
Sanity

We don't have to like each other
For thirty minutes,
There is no love to discover

Animosity
For thirty minutes,
Nobody is asking for honesty

One day I will figure it out
But for these thirty minutes,
You're all I'm about.

We worry about the way people perceive us;
Pounding makeup into our overworked pores
Claiming the raunchy clothing makes us happy
And praying to God we don't embarrass ourselves.

It's as if societies configurations of who we are holds the immense power to truly define each and every one of us,
That their words, their intense language, controls our destiny.

Unfortunately, only you hold that power
You can opt to listen to the voices of those who wish only to see you crumble,
Or you can decide for yourself, that you will be much more than that.

Choose wisely.

Sleep deprivation is knocking at the door
It asks to come inside
"No, most definitely not!"
For I must lay here, awake
But you are tired ma'am, you must sleep
"No! If I were to sleep, I will dream of him"
You are only hurting yourself, ma'am.
"I couldn't possibly hurt anymore than I do right now"
Then why don't you sleep, ma'am,
*Why don't you sleep?

I find solace in building a fire solely for myself
Creativity under the influence of cannabis
Loneliness at the bottom of a Skinny Girl wine bottle
Clarity while watching an apocalyptic thunderstorm
Invincibility when engaging in an argument with a superior
Confusion when I go home alone
And temptation, from everything unavailable to me.

The only people I find interesting are those who strip me of my sanity
My morals, my judgments
Vanished in their presence

They cut against the grain
Sudden curiosity transpires into adventure
Amidst such uncertainty sheds clarity-
The clarification that nothing really makes sense anyways
Answers do not have to be given
But questions must be answered  

Take your time,
Speak of the theory of reincarnation while deep ******* a ****  
Hike 1,000 miles
Do what your soul desires
Because these people, these are "The crazy ones"
And they're worth listening to.

Your eyes-
Staring directly into my throbbing soul
You could see my pain, my happiness, my life, through those pale green eyes
Your hands, blistered from the pencil
They reach my upper thigh, but your gaze never strays  
My legs are surrounding your abled midsection
You show your teeth
That is all I needed
For this moment, right now
This is my happy place
I will always have this day; this everlasting memory
And when I'm sad,
I can go back
And remember what it feels like to be *loved

The drive seems longer
The road, thinner
I feel lost
Right now you would be sitting casually on my right hand side,
Commenting on my horrific driving,
Packing a bowl
... But I'm alone now

Shiver bumps portrayed on my arms
I wonder,
Are you here? Is it really you?
Silence
Anxiety
I want you here
I need you here
Please,
Tell me it will be okay
Nothing.
I'm starting a new life
One without you
And...
              *I'm scared

We hate.
Racism, sexism
Enough "isms" to solve...
But we don't solve
No, we accept
We accept that we hate
We hate because we are scared
Fear drives angst
Angst to corruption
And corruption...
To acceptance.
We accept hate,
WE accept hate.

Oblivion
Calling on me like a senseless toddler
Poisoning my body
Maybe I will feel something
Maybe you will notice me
Nonsense.
Take another hit, my child
It can only help you now

You explored all parts of me
Mind, body, spirit
We were lost in the aroma of one another
It meant nothing, I scream

I push you against the wall
Slithering up to you; poisonous snake
Vicious slap, unimaginable kiss
It meant nothing, I scream

Grabbing hold
You whisper "I love you"
Rage, ***
It meant nothing, I scream
It meant nothi...

Cannibus
Ice cream
Whiskey
Chips

Yet you're the one that seeps into me

It hurts
Everything hurts

I wanted to help others
Now I’m the reason behind their tears

I’ve made a mistake
I feel selfish for saying that

Deny deny deny
The truth hurts more

We can’t speak now
Loneliness thrives within my aching body

No one knows
No one knows
No one knows

Why is it that something so wrong can feel so right?
Is it because we want something we can’t have?
Or that we currently have something we don’t want?
Questioning everything we have because of new possibilities
Yearning for more whilst wondering if there is anything for us…

Passing through the unknown was beautifully tragic
The thrill, the chase
I got high from the thought alone
When it happened… perfection
His touch illuminated my mind
Subtle yet significant marks on my skin
Happiness

Time passes
The air alone begins to suffocate me
Family, friends
Their eyes speak louder than their harsh words
Each glare pierces through my skin and into my heart
Why did I do this?
Stupidity, ignorance

Steady judgments begin to define me
Nowhere to run, to hide
Supporters have doubts
Loneliness

Remorse consumes me
Yet regret yields far from my mind
For how could I regret the moment I’ve hoped for my entire life?

Anger
Apologies
Tears
… *Lust