I'm tired of pretending

Pretending that i'm okay

Pretending that i'm happy

Pretending that i'm strong

I want to cry freely

Express the real me

I don't wanna fake a smile no more

No one wants to go deeper

Nobody wants to see the demon inside me

No one dared to save me

And it's so unfair

For i help others but no one helps me

I see the demons of others and i never left those people

They left me

Can't you see?

I'm tired of helping and not receiving any help

Please, for once i wanna receive help

You are the most wonderful person i've ever met

You lift me up when i'm down

You hurt me with truth

And that's better than telling me what i want to hear

You met me at my best

You stayed at my worst

And you're still here with me

You are the moon that gives brightness to my dark world

You are a goddess inside and out

You

I love you

I love everything about you

And you

You can't be mine

Feeling like where ever i am

Where ever i go

I don't belong

I exsist but do i really exsist?

It's like i'm screaming for attention

But no one hears it

Or maybe they refuse to listen to it

I'm tired of feeling alone in a crowded room

I hear everyone but they can't hear me

I hear their laughters

Everyone is happy without me

Everyone have someone to talk to

While i don't

I want to break these walls

I want to befriend people

But i'm afraid that i might just build walls all over again

I'm tired of being alone but scared of having friends

Baby, tell me why can't i love you the way you love me?

Why am i choosing you as a friend??

I don't deserve you, baby
You love me even if i don't return the love

I tried several times to push you away from me, but there you are, hurting, but still loving me

You don't deserve me, i don't deserve you
Please, free yourself from me
I can't love you
But i love you

I love you, but not in the you want me too
You deseve better
Please, let go

Be with someone who'll love you the way you want me to love you

Be with someone who makes you happy the way i make you happy

Be with someone who you can be yourself with, like you being yourself with me

Be with someone i'm not
Because you see, i do love you
I make you smile
You can be yourself with me

But, that someone can't be me
I'm not that someone
Yes, i do love you, but believe me i'm not that someone

You don't deserve me
I love you but not in the way you want me to
You don't deserve me

I dated an actor

He told me that he loves me.
He told me that he'll fight for me.
He told me i'm the only one.

Hey, guess what? It was an act all along.

Stuck.

All those good nights and good mornings are now a memory

It will forever remain a memory because you're not mine anymore

All those i love you's and i love you too's keeps haunting me

Baby, i wish we could turn back time from the old us, the happy and in love us.

Now it's just me, no you, no us

I'm left alone stuck with your precious memory while you're making new memories with your new world.

My whole world got ruined by the person who helped me build that world.

Baby, tell me how could i ever forget you, please teach me how

You taught me to love you, now teach me how to forget you