Closer, she embarked
Trodded along the footprints though
Swaddled, she shrieked
No breathe gasped though
Thirst of affection she pursued
Lust of dominance she savored
Devotion, she encompassed
Devoid of esteem though
Roar absconded at all the places
She had been
She marched through with thick skin
Closer, she still embarked
Fueled with the spark of the road ahead
Yet when all their civility, cruelty lost
She was tagged with a reasonable cost
Throwing toxic streams on her colorful palette
She was sold for a tethered cow and carpet

You were in my life earlier
I threw you out
You were in my heart
I threw you out
Then You were in my thoughts
I threw you out again
And now, You are in my dreams
From morning till noon
How can I throw you out?

Let the marginal tillers, handicrafters usher in prosperity
For life of labour and self-esteem sufficiency is worth living
Let the least and the lowest be granted affirmative action
For the good of an individual is in the good of all sections
Let us together structure mindsets, free of social evils
Showing extreme resilience against wrongdoings
Let us empower the exploited, weakest and oppressed
Let us eliminate hunger, brutalities and violence
Let the poorest ride on with humblest integrity
Let us all discard egocentrism and be sensitive
Let us savour the essence of hard produced fruits of labour
Let us groom faith and trusteeship in their abilities
Let us close the lid of past sufferings and hardships
Everyone will shine through integrated development
Sarvodaya shall welcome Universal Upliftment...

Puffed souls with vain gallantry
Puffed minds with vain wisdom
Let them crack their sentimental sarcasms
Let them giggle at their own astounding laughs
Discover their bitter truth of forgiveness
Let them mould in and around mess
Till they corporate themselves with sighs of apologies
Till they make themselves ambitiously exotic..

Ah! The most awaited moment
Now, approaching by degrees"
Chanted a gullible girl
As she breathed the blow of breeze
From a severely punished window
In a junk rusty vehicle
She enchanted her heavy heart
With the happiness at the highest pinnacle
She was anonymous in that mob
Without advices and unworthy suggestions
The overstrain upon her brain
Urged her to leap onto actions
Her dreadful years of shackled confinement
And her teary eyes weeping with lashes
Lack of love, lack of leisure
Just for the attainment of cash
It has been only four hours
Since she fled away
With some cash and brawn
Her way was prepared to pave
As she rejoiced her heart
With liberty, love and leisure
The gullible girl was engulfed by the cult
Of a chauffeur driving an unknown vehicle
The rusty vehicle burnt into flames
And so the gullible girl
Her first journey became her disastrous departure
Unrecognized of the heartshaking return
Of her innocence
The ashes carried a soul
Unfulfilled and unquenched..

Pa won't hear me precious
He'll send me in those chambers
Mummy! Will you let me suffer
Behind those iron shutters?
I never told you
Constantly fooling you
That I'm always alright
But it's really hard to strive
I won't  survive in that boarding school
Neither I know the rules
Nor to lace up my shoes
I'm not accustomed of that tie
In those chambers, I won't survive
Where I'm not even allowed to cry
I promise I'll left all my addictions
I'll stick up to my study material
I'll do everything,  anything
Is it still not enough?

What's wrong with you?

I don't know
What's wrong in me
But I do know
What I aspire to be

What's wrong with you?

I don't know
What's wrong with me
But I do know
How to deal with it.
What's wrong with me
Is what I knew dearie
From my early girlhood
That I haven't ever tried to improve
Neither I dare
Nor I care
To challenge that stuff
And..I didn't ever repent
Not to be perfect

From head to toe
She stared me
As if I was her bewaited foe
We played hide and seek
For hours and hours
I went out
She also went out
She wildly followed
And she came to me
I became pale yellow
With Her every step's echo
She came to me finally
And.........
She did nothing...

Mountaineering the heights of drooling desires
Refreshing the buried hopes of accomplishments
Tapping pollutants from the waterfall of satire
Unveiling the boundless commitments
Rejoicing the deserts with the blossom of roses
Seeking perpetual stories from veins
Bearing the stubborn parasitic lichens and mosses
Flourishing in the heart's darkest dens
Oh! The venom won't engulf
The companionship with venom engulf
And the continuous sparking will eventually become dull..

I wonder
Am I really living in this real world?
I wonder
Is it my first or last birth?
Where is the beginning and ending of this universe?
I am living in this indirect world of idioms and proverbs.
I wonder
Who is controlling all these aspects?
I have no idea and suspects.
From where should I start the path of divine?
And in which condition- prosperity or a subsistence famine?
Amazed by this incomplete maze
What should I appreciate?
Hard- charging success of a businessman or the rare divine of a devoted sage?
Should I believe in God or in my own fate?
Infinite questions arise with doubts,
And interestingly, we get to know about them only when we are out
From our fonds and favourites
Which are very hard to separate
From our lives and from our faith..

Surbhi Dadhich..

Bullying and ragging
Teasing and taunts
In spite of your spying
Of  cameras and guards
Our fake security
And a blast of vulnerability
I know, you all had just accomplished your duties
With long syllabus and revision tests
We're not seeking inspiration
You just bind us in the shackled cage of calculations
We've already lost all our imagination
Imparting the valuable knowledge isn't enough
It's we who suffer
Under the piles of rules and regulations
That harsh incident reminded you of our security
Now you're waiting for another incident
To modernise all facilities
Still I bow in respect
To your every thoughts and teachings
Is it my weakness or some kind of gallantry?

Are the retina of my eyes uneven?
Drooling poles apart
As I lose myself in a frantic night mare
Where you're selling empathy and love
Are my visions superstitiously omens and portents?
As I lose myself in a daydream
Where you burn world's bitter ash
Have my emotions met debt trap
Or was it quite a bargain??

When the streaks of dawn enter the crevices of the windows
The eyes refuse for the emptiness to subside in
Although the sweet chirruping and rustling of the Neem's lave leaves
persevere to pose positivity yet
The loneliness, the vacuum subsides in

I chatter, sing songs of Hope and homecoming of warriors
Beating the wrinkled skins of old drums
Yet my heart rings no louder
My conscience seems shaken

When the sun sets in
Sets the Oblivion for 'they' return
With wide smiles and affectionate hugs
Howling joyously as they bid goodbyes

In the sunshine , solidarity Sparks everywhere now
As 'they' leave to be able to feed their malicious stomach
The bell chimes from the nearby temple
The pacing footsteps outside fail to rekindle

Loneliness subside in...

The valiant stock of indescribable imagination
Spilling affection on the fickle-minded thoughts
Brimming the golden compassion
Leads everything by nose
Gallantry of the spongy sheets of emotions
Faith in contemptuous social beliefs
The valiant stock of indescribable imagination
Emphasizing the insatiable reaps..

That convict boy playing truant
With his fellow ragpickers
Day in and day out
The harvesting season of buffer
Has gone..Gone his bread and butter
Barefeet as he walks
Across the aisle of thorny bushes
Later at those anonymous paths
To cook food and wash dishes
Weekends he polishes the pride
Of nobles branded shoes
Sunday is quite busy
To sell newspapers at streets
And each night with a wide grin
And some books and a few cash
Departs he to the house
In one of the poorest slums
Which people assume a 'dumpyard'
He isn't a beggar..
He really isn't..

Even when the skies will rage terribly
The surging stormy seas will perish the candid coast
All dear ones depart on and on
The world tear me apart
I'll be always a solitary lad
In your never ceasing heart
Waiting for your grand arrival
Waiting for just a habitual glance
From you...
Just to call my name once..
I'll be assured
For I wouldn't have to dig
Other ways to ***** my conscience..

I still have you on the retina of my eyes
Hazel- brownish chuckle-headed features
Jolly grace showering from your bonny plight
And your perfect physique and stature
Your cheerful character is still on my dreary sheets of life
You somehow jeers my attention
With wonders of divine
A role- model of pure affection
Hub of the anonymous pleasure
You're still on the retina of my eyes
On the dreary sheets of my life..

From pillar to post
Rebelled she for a musty coin
Unhanded the swindler
Her left over crumplings
Scratches, bump swelled her forehead
As she wept bitterly
An evil sweeper swept over her hair
Suppressed her very existence,
Her willingness to win or live
The other side of the coin
Adored her , caressed her
Satiated her desires
Cherished soul was she
Under venerable canopy
Cheese or chalk
She was a bundle of contradictions
Suffering a 'thing'
No one could coin.

The perforated sheets of emotions
Are pouring your fresh tears
Into my hollow heart
Memories are faded, as it appears
Your tears then illuminate the brightest glow
Of my lustrous lighted heart
With wild shabby thorns
I cry, as they hurt
And now my tears are moulding with your garnets
With the hardness of diamonds
I have already got my companion
Cause I have made myself a hard still brittle peanut..

Who's there?
Gang of wild hounds
Babbling furiously
By leaps and bounds
Framing objectives
Are they suspicions?
Guess not
Prepare for the investigation
Right now
Are they altogether?
No..they're the birds of the same feather
Should we arrest?
You silly ***..just leave
I'll do the rest
But Sir..
Just leave!!!
Sir..they're in your relationship

What!! Are you sure of this?
Perfectly Sure
Oh!! You're so eccentric..It's late..Good night...

They say that every night has an end
Every morning brings something new and fresh
But I must confess
It's nothing new...in fact it just ruins my head
They say that Nothing bad stay
But the rain of divinity has gone
And I must confess
Nothing gold stay...
They say that I've something missing
Being an introvert and all
They say that I just require a rude awakening
I don't know what they want
Nor they hell ya tell me
I'm in a great dilemma
And I just don't know how to get out of this...

Ain't you a pauper?
Pockets are crazily yelling
For breakfast, lunch and supper
Ain't you insane?
Crazily banging your head
Against walls and frames
Ain't you emotional?
With your lousy tears
Afraid of confessions
Ain't you an introvert?
Chattering with yourself
Hiding behind that cupboard
At the stroke of midnight hour??
I know when we say you to smile
How difficult it appears to you
To pull those scarce smiles deep under your crests of troubles..
I know it..I've realised it..I get it..

"Hey! Wanna be a beggar
Or do something incredible
Thousands are fighting
Do you have something special?
Set your goals and targets
Hit them one by one
Don't let turn your defeats to regrets"
I lectured my brother
He listened with such curiosity
That I've not ever seen
Even in his most difficult times
"Now go and read something
With the best dedication ever
Settle down there"
He sat and still stunned
I smiled and got busy in my work
After 21 seconds..I leaned secretly to watch
He was just drawing 3 tetrapods in a circle
With his books wanting readers
What about my stunning inspirational speech of one hour?

Tossed, turned on the bed
Thorns of thoughts kicked him
The hues of his unseen palette
Flashed him with thundrous beats
Injuries fade stealthy
Wounds never heal
The pain lose apart
Imprints maintain kin
Staggered he to the balcony
Smoking out waves of moans
A devastative despair and agony
He said in the lowest tones
" I loved her terribly, passionately
I lacked the courage to erupt my feelings
First I lost my life, then my friend
And now my foe
Should I grant my life second chance again
To bury deep into the insights of compassion?
Being loved again?"..

In that slum, cried a soul
A guttural cacophony with frown
"Bring me some food
Or else I'll lose my hue"
Nobody responded and so the son
Dear fainted with the thirst of love
Day in and day out
As the soul slowly drowned
Nobody cared and so the son
The dear died drowned in hope
Nobody reckoned nor even the son
The departed soul
With the cacophony in frown
Cried, "May the Almighty bless you
For I've faded my hue..

When I migrated to your heart
Your soul refunded me
When I was going for a trip
To your brain
Your memories pushed me out
When I entered through your deep breath
Your lungs whined me
When I entered through radio waves
Your nerves locked me
When I entered as a fear
You shed me out
As tears
But I get it now
My soul
My memories
My tears
Are the reason
For your valour..
Then why don't you call back your departed soul...?

Why am I still in this room?
Can't I go outside for just an hour or two?
"But dear, Don't you care of your examinations?
Don't you want to design success's definition?"
But I've been so consistent
Is it really still important?
What if I come back nice and fresh
After a pleasant walk with deep breaths
"There isn't any place of argument
Cause this is pretty obvious
Sit and study for next two hours too
Cause last year was really bad one for you"
She shut the door ...
She shut my thoughts
She shut my imagination
Is it really important??

Had I known that you'd never
Ever reach your destination
I have kicked out my stubbornness
But you were eager to teach me a lesson
Why would anybody do like this?
Unless and until he's mentally ill
But you were not out of gears
Still you made me shook with fear
From beginning to the very end
Oh! The protagonist of my life
I loved you more than anybody else
Is it a crime to be so close to someone?
I'm out of gears..

I now know
Why you rushed me
In that contagious overcrowded street
In those dark blocks
I starved because I'as not so brave and bold
My wounds were the only symptoms and signs
Of my still anonymous disease
I'as vigilant of your ill-tempered laugh
I was the bird caught in your chaff
And as I flapped my wings
You lashed them, you wild beast
Yet you're not begging now
I'm the one begging
Not because I'm a coward
But because I've made myself selfish now.

Crimson buds gardening my drowsy heart
Under the shallow skies of crystals
Of yearning unfulfilled necessities
To become my part and parcel
These then formulate and modify
To zeal and infinite addictions
As I open the gateway
Of my drowsy heart
And then a storm of knocks again
I undoubtedly accept them
Without any question or inquiries
Unknowingly inviting my disabilities
Half of my heart lie in them
Not less than reckless
As I caught red-handed
Indulging in this mess..

Stubborn choices aren't his naive necessities
Deformities aren't the monstrous diseases
Desires aren't the desirous ambitions
Love isn't always the inspired dedication
His fear and tears are not my calamity
His happiness and laughter are not always in shaped reality
Inability is sometimes sincere simplicity
Expectations become curse and liability
Life seems a vast journey
Cause he's not sure of difficulties
He's in an arid scarcity
Of time and patience
In this striking rush
He's in a great haste..

I am tired of clearing stains
of my tears on my glasses.
Every time I clean them
with water droplets, I think of a new beginning. Yet, somehow the tears trickle into them and they make the world around me blurry and unclear. Yet I continue to wear them because I want to hide my tears behind them because I cannot cry my heart out in the world. So only my glasses know the frequency of my cries and I remove stains from them too.

To the east paves insurmountable demons
To the west leads on to inevitable legends
To the right bows the fierceful battles
To the left lies the darkest lands
Roosters crying , ghosts staring
Lava erupting, devils bursting
No bridges, no aids
No ridges, no helping hands
From east to west
Right or left
A miserable life
On a barren tract
And there exits and entrances
Of worriers and warriors
There lies guesses and chances
And both tigers and terrors
Oh Sis! Now you sign an accord
Of success or failures
Cause the time has come
Blow out the unrecognized potential
Step in a world
Where you're the lord
And you're the only angel
.......Gosh! A havoc foot is itching
To flunk you down
But you're a warrior enough
Dump it out of your town
There..just 2 steps more
Your success with an overwhelming tribute
Just 2 steps more..

The annoying betrayal
As my stubborn acquaintance
Your cautious reminders and care
And my cursed reluctance
Super-intensity of your thoughts and actions
With a perfect paste of affection
Ignorance has bliss
Acknowledgement is the aspiration
And my infinite warm blessings
Cause my reluctance makes you willin'
My ends are your beginnings
And now
My once stubborn acquaintance
With infinite and warm blessin's
I'm now really willin'
You're also willin'
Let's blossom our fresh beginnin'
Of an anonymous relationship..

Move aside
Left..no..right
Be light
Yeah..now smile
Widen your eyes
Fix them asap
Be gentle
Oh no! Don't be funky
Be ready
Ohk!One ..two and three
Click

Stars pierced the dreary darkness
Of the deserts in which he'd been livin'
Stars melted the evil thorns,
The gloomy dunes glossed up with misery
Misery that scorched bright
Under the striking Sun
Sun exasperating with contempt
Of the dearest stars
He always looked up to...
Dearest stars melted the evil thorns
Pierced the darkness
As he felt..little did he know
Lust of the dearest stars
Was unfinished greed..

I request my soul to kindly erase all the curiosity and sit down comfortably
With a cup of chocolate drink
And cream topped over preferably
I request my heart to give up the vain desires and to become a devoted pious
And fill the excited colours to my life's sapphire
I request my muscles to have a great fun or outing with family
Cause outing with friends is a daily habit
I request my mind to spend some good time with Mama cause it's rare
But I can't
They all are controlling me
And I'm the one dancing with their appeals..

My big bang was actually a black hole
My existence was of merely an oblivion
The sins were the only choice of my soul
The wrath was, my only companion
Murders of heart
Murders of expectations
Murders of the ambitions
Without any sympathy
I exploded their heaven
Without any mercy
And now I'm in the prison
Of my woeful apologies
I'm in the prison
For my sins
I'm so Sorry..

Your need of the hour
Is a heroic saviour
You're strictly baffled
Of your trash prayers
The world will soon awake
The shillin' will prosper your fate
But, Is this what you really want?
Being a millionaire from a shabby slum-dweller
Or just food, clothing and shelter?
Haven't you decided yet?
It'll matter your principles
It won't matter your bare disciples
Waitin' for your response
Think over it...plz...

Mornings blow essence when
You drool over warm coffee
Stars twinkle radiant when
You wear graceful glare in eyes
Nectar pours in varied flowers when
You reflect knight in my shining armour
Atmosphere embellished when
I was engrossed in our little rendezvous
We are blatantly delicate
Though troops of intuitions blaze
What if it is the tranquility before hurricane?

यह चमकता ब्रह्मांड
जिसका न कोई आरंभ न अंत
न कोई आयु, न कोई कष्ट
हर पल चमकता
हर पल प्यारी सी मुस्कान देता
चुम्बकीय हिलोरें लेता
यह नटखट ब्रह्मांड
जिद्दी ग्रहों को गोद में भरता
नाचते तारे-सितारों को सहलाता
देख, दूर कोने में
क्यों बैठा वह आग का गोला अकेला
क्या जंजीरों ने घेरा उसे
शायद इसलिए भूल गया शीतलता
इस श्वेत हृदय पर कैसा ये कलंक
बुराइयों ने एेसा क्या जकड़ा इसे
या यह गिरफ्त में आ गया
किसी जहरीले सॉप के फन में
आज दिन तो कल रात
कभी उदय तो कभी अस्त
इस ब्रह्मांड की गोद में....

I've made my promises
My commitments
I've made my sorrows
A wounded guilt
I've made my ignorance
A delighted disgrace
My deep valley of emotions
Crying for travellers
Nothing to spare
For my wicked soul
Nothing glittering
In my heart of gold..

The vain cries of the heart
The sensitive can mould
With elation and rejoice
Difficult to hold
The vain expectations of the mind
The sensitive can understand
To crush and whine
Parcel of quenched life
The vain sighs of affection
Only sensitive can destruct
To reshape into benedictions
Of loyalty and trust..

Smelling the purest aroma of delight
Particles are rushing narrowly
Delivering by the nature's sight
Lungs are shooking  badly
Intentions owning actions
Actions gearing imperfections
Imperfections bearing confessions
Leading to frustration
Tasting the hues of petals
Delivering ***** letters
Consequences of fair deeds
Fruiting security of the hardest shell
Experiences of the aroma of delight
Just with paper and a pen..

G'night ...
And then thoughts at laundry
Desires in drowsiness
Inevitable seems attractive
Soul spitting mess
G'night...
Have a good sleep...
And then nightmares drive me crazy
Lately after the stroke of midnight hour
When the ghostly army of night
Is still in great darkness
And...in a snoring sleep in heaven...
She again woke me up..
And she said..
G'morning..