do you know what it's like?
to feel lonely, but not be alone
do you know what it's like?
the want to be around people
but the need to be on your own
do you know what it's like?
to want to receive love
but the need to give hate
do you know what it's like?
to want happiness
but also enjoy the sadness
do you know? do you really know?
it's not easy being happy
then 10 seconds later be sad
it's easy to accept sadness
but hard to accept happiness
it's easier to spread hate
than it is easy to spread love
I don't really want to be on my own
but I can't handle being surrounded
I can't say I'm alone
it's just easier to feel lonely


Stephanie Davis
2/11/2019

When the sun fades away
and the day turns into night
That's when I'll think of you
When the sky is dark
And the moon is bright
I'll know it's you and
That's when I'll think of you

You were my strength
You were my inspiration
I'll never forget the day you saved my life
By showing me how to love without hesitation
You were always there for me
Whenever I felt alone
The way you would hold me
And comfort me with your soothing voice tone

When the rain drops fall
And there's no one beside me
That's when I'll think of you
When the snow covers the ground
And there's no one to guide me
That's when I'll think of you

Through out the years
You've given me laughter
You've given me tears
Through out my life you've given me hope
To go and start a new chapter
Always giving me love and support
By being my hero and taking away all my fears

So, whenever I'm missing you
I'll sit in the sun
I'll look up to the sky
If the moon is bright
I'll know it's you
And that's when I'll be thinking of you
I'll stand in the rain
I'll walk in the snow
You'll forever be in my heart
And I'll always be thinking of you

Every night I lay in bed crying
Because I can feel my body slowly dying
I want to surrender
I want to live a new adventure
Please God take me home
I'll accept my defeat
This pain that was  given to me
Is making it almost impossible to stand on my own two feet
This pain is so intense
It's literally demanding
The want and need for a cure
Is almost intimidating
This pain I'm talking about
Starts from the top of my head
Working it's way through my body
Until it finally reaches my toes
The extent of misery I feel everyday
Is something that nobody knows
Because I put a fake smile on my face
And try my hardest to survive another day

Every night I lay in bed crying
Because I can feel my body slowly dying
I want to surrender
I want to live a new adventure
Please God take me home
I'll accept my defeat
This pain that was  given to me
Is making it almost impossible to stand on my own two feet
This pain is so intense
It's literally demanding
The want and need for a cure
Is almost intimidating
This pain I'm talking about
Starts from the top of my head
Working it's way through my body
Until it finally reaches my toes
The extent of misery I feel everyday
Is something that nobody knows
Because I put a fake smile on my face
And try my hardest to survive another day

When the sun fades away
and the day turns into night
That's when I'll think of you
When the sky is dark
And the moon is bright
I'll know it's you and
That's when I'll think of you

You were my strength
You were my inspiration
I'll never forget the day you saved my life
By showing me how to love without hesitation
You were always there for me
Whenever I felt alone
The way you would hold me
And comfort me with your soothing voice tone

When the rain drops fall
And there's no one beside me
That's when I'll think of you
When the snow covers the ground
And there's no one to guide me
That's when I'll think of you

Through out the years
You've given me laughter
You've given me tears
Through out my life you've given me hope
To go and start a new chapter
Always giving me love and support
By being my hero and taking away all my fears

So, whenever I'm missing you
I'll sit in the sun
I'll look up to the sky
If the moon is bright
I'll know it's you
And that's when I'll be thinking of you
I'll stand in the rain
I'll walk in the snow
You'll forever be in my heart
And I'll always be thinking of you

She hides her pain
Behind a smile
Because she knows
The pain will last
More than a little while

She hides her pain
Behind a mask
Because she knows
What people will ask

They'll ask her
"Are you okay?"
She'll say "I'm fine"
Turn, and walk away

The less she has to tell
The less her heart can yell
She wants to be free
But no one will let her be

They keep asking her
"Are you okay?"
She says "I'm fine"
But inside all she wants
Is the pain to go away

She doesn't know
If she'll be around
To see that day

So she hides her pain
Behind a smile
Because she knows
The pain will last
More than a little while


Stephanie Davis
3/3/2018

If I could see you in my dreams
I'd tell you how it is
I'd tell you how it was
I'd tell you how it was supposed to be
But that'll never happen
Because before I get to see you
I wake up and have to face reality
The reality of you leaving me
The reality of never seeing you again
I wasn't ready for you to leave
But I got the news and I refused to believe
I needed you to stay
But God needed you home
So he came and took you away
Now I sit here all alone
When I miss you, I can't just pick up the phone
I'd do anything just to hear your voice
But God took you and I don't feel it was by choice
When I want to see your face
I go through the pictures in my memories
I close my eyes and I'm taken to a place
Where time and everything is frozen in space
My memories are what keep me going
My memories no one can take from me
The answer why God took you home
Is an answer that'll never be known
I just wanted to let you know
I think of you when it's raining
I think of you when the suns shining
I'm sorry I wasn't there when you had to go
I'm sorry about the painful timing
I'll always remember you though
You're my family and that's how it goes
The amount of mourning no one knows
I still need you to this day
But there's nothing more I can say
Yeah my life's been torn apart
But you'll forever stay in my heart
I know we'll be together again someday soon
And when that happens
We'll pick up where we left off
As we both sit up on the moon


Stephanie Davis 11/14/17