The fireworks lit up the excitement in me,
The fireworks exploded in my heart,
The fireworks was first annoying to the ear,
They was first my fear,
They were amazing at sight and annoying to ear,
But they threw excitement at me,
They were loud and irritated but i just let the pop and be,
They might have scared me at first, but the fireworks was so beautiful,
They were many colors, yellow, red, green, blue, all kind,
Even though, I was just watching them, I actually had a wonderful time

You are the moon when there is no sun,
You are the flowers when May has begun,
You are the stars that glow in the night,
You are MY moon that shines so bright,
You are the baby that cries it mother's name,
You are the love that drives me insane.

I woke up this morning and I felt a pain in my upper back,
And it wasn't a good pain,
It was a pain that couldn't be relieved,
It was a pain that couldn't heal,
A pain that stunned out of nowhere,
My back still hurts right this minute,
But when I don't move and stay still,
There is no pain, and my back doesn't hurt at all. . . .

Is there's something wrong with me,
I know I been through a lot,
But really, is something wrong with me,
Why would I let all those things happen,
Maybe I didn't or don't have no control of my life,
Maybe I don't want t have control over my life,
People always called me stupid,
So I ask this question, "Is there's something wrong with me?"
And there's no possible answer,
Am I living the right life,
Why did I get bullied from the start of my life to now?,
Why do people insist on bringing back those horrible times,
And do I deserve this ? Do I deserve to be hurt just because of one small mistake? I been asked this question a lot, "Are you slow?" And I just shake my head no.
It hurts being called stupid or slow because of my kindness,
People take my kindness for weakness and I hate it,
They think I'm in some medication but I'm not and don't wish to be. . . And this is the question I been needing the answer to

When will I find someone who bring out the good in me,
When will I find a good luck charm,
When will I be so happy to wake up in the morning time,
When will I believe God is real and he exists,
When will I be the old me again,
When will i find happiness,
Will I ever be happy,
Will I be that inner child I always were,
When will I hav a chance to breathe again,
When will I have so much hope and faith. . .

People wonder why my life is so boring,
I tell them it's boring because people don't never want
to take me nowhere,
It's like I'm contagious,
No one likes me happy,
People have great times without me,
I sit down in the same spot everyday,
Wondering if someone is coming to take me to have a great time,
I always think that people are thinking of me, but they're not,
They're hoping I get thrown into a ditch,
My life is so boring because I don't have any friends to take me out,
I don't have a boyfriend to talk to when I'm bored, I have no friends who don't have fun,
My friends are exposed to good times and I'm just a wimp about everything,
I didn't ask for a boring life, it asked for me, and it got me,
Everywhere I go, is in my house. . .

I wanted to die a long time ago,
And I kinda want to die now,
My life is in the palms of my hands,
But I just want to vanish, quick,
People in my life try to destroy me with their words,
And it works,
People don't care how I feel. . .

Am I lucky to be alive,
Am I lucky to have a normal life,
Am I lucky to still be this age,
Am I lucky to have a few friends,
Am I lucky to be at home with my real mom,
Am I lucky I still live with my mom,
Am I lucky or not lucky?
Or don't I appreciate nothing?

Next week, you're gonna be gone,
I promise you, I will try to find you,
I can't believe you're leaving me,
But I know you're doing it so you will have a future,
You're graduating and I can't accept that,
You're probably gonna be making millions,
I am happy for you,
But you still know what I am feeling for you,
And what I feel about you,
Because once you leave school, and graduate,
I will regret not letting you know I love you so deeply,
I just know that. . . Do you love me ?
Because I don't know what you feel about me,
I don't know why you stopped talking to me,
Is it because I liked you so much that I could have killed you
So no other girl or woman could have you and break your heart,
Because I never will,
I know what it feels like to have your heart broken,
Because you broke mine when you told me you didn't love me...

I dream about your cheek dimples,
I think about  how my love is so simple,
I fantasize about you laying your head down on my stomach,
I dream about you loving me to my bones, to death, to eternity, from the bottom of your heart,
I think about the times I had you so triggered,
I swear my love for you has gotten a little bigger,
I dream about you, trying to wake me up by kissing me on my neck,
I thought love was only a painful kick,
I miss it when you used to smile at me,
I wish I had the guts to tell you that you can't leave me here,
I want to be hugged deep into your strong arms,
If I ever kiss you, I would **** your lips right off your face,
Just know that no girl can EVER take my place,
Because you are what I crave,
If you don't love me how I love you,
I will spit on your grave,
I can't force you to love me,
I can't force anyone to love me,
But any guy or man, would be so happy and grateful to love a sweet, ******* loving girl like me,
Without you, I fell imprisoned, locked up in a closet, that's so dark, you can't see your hands,
It feels like everything I did for you, you've taken for granted, you've always taken for granted, even me,
I fantasize about you, I think about you, I dream about you, daydream about you, wish for you,
But have you ever wished for me?
It's so hard to just forget about you and how your smile and your face used to always light up when you seen me,
But now, you don't smile at me anymore, you smile at your guys friends and you girl-friends, but they don't need to be smiled at like that,
I would **** for you,
You make me seem crazy because you're the one that made me crazy,
Just know that I love you to the bottom of my feet,
I love you from all the way to Heaven and back, but, like I said before, you take me for granted...