Suicide is a crazy thing
Because once it’s in your mind it just continues to ring
No matter how long you ignore it for, or however long you look out the window for
He is just standing there, patiently waiting for you to open the door
It could be months, **** it can be years, he will always be there however long you ignore
Suicide has been knocking at my door for some time now, though it doesn’t seem that he is getting impatient
I’m sure it's because sooner or later he knows I will have to open the doors and let him in
Sometimes I open my window and have a talk with him
Talk to him about my day, about my struggles
He never responds though, just smiles back
I have to fight the urge every hour of my life just to simply not give in
It's getting harder day by day to keep that door closed
I’m sure it would be hard for anyone to keep away their only friend

It drives me crazy to think I am going to graduate without you
And dad is nowhere in sight but I’m sure he could never replace you
I lived everyday of my life thinking about you
From the day my newborn eyes saw that flatline I couldn’t stop imagining what my life would be like if I had you
I would go to sleep every night and no matter how many blankets I threw over myself I could never simulate the warmth I would have if I had you
I never had the chance to experience having a mother as I was robbed of you
Though my time has come to an end away from you
I can’t live another day crying over something I lost but I never had
It’s crazy to think that losing one person could drive someone so mad
And make my life so sad
It makes me sad
I can’t stand people complaining about living their lives under a rain cloud while my sky is separated by  the dirt below their feet
I’m sure you wanted the best for me but I can’t live any longer
Maybe I can better explain it when I get to finally see you